Thursday, October 21, 1999
9:27 AM, in Biology class
I am infuriated right now. Courtney can really be irritating sometimes. She has no right to treat me like she does. She treats me like I'm noting, and is constantly treating me like I'm smaller than her. I'd like to give her a piece of my mind, but I know it's going to be turned around on me. I wish I knew why she's so insulting, it really hurts. It's not like she cares though, I feel like she puts up with me to get to my parents. She had better hope that I'm in a better mood when I see her again, because with the mood I'm in she's going to be left a crying puddle of meat.
10:13 AM, on the wall
I can see her. She's talking to Molly. Crap. This is not good.
10:55, in English class
Okay, I was wrong. It was a good thing. Courtney and I had a fruitful talk, and we both got a lot out. She gave me some very good reasons as to why she almost ran over my foot this morning. In short, I'm being lazy with my research paper even with all the slack I'm getting, and Courtney had a very mean and overbearing teacher. She couldn't think of any other way to get through to me, and she knows she's one of the few people I actually listen to. We talked for a bit and we made up and agreed to both be a little more lenient towards the other and a few more things, but my mind draws a blank at the moment.
Friday, October 22, 1999
8:26 PM, on the computer
Man, it's been a while since I've been able to relax on the comp. Yet I'm bored.
I almost killed someone yesterday. Someone finally broke the barrier and made me angry. I won't go into details, but I was publicly embarassed in front of an important person, backstabbed, double-crossed, and I was the victim of an act of hypocrasy. I'd even go so far as to say it was pure rage. If life was Dragonball Z I'd have gone Super Sayajin (forget the american spelling) and Kamehameha'd her butt into the next dimension. I was so ticked off that I had to leave immediately and go to the mall and play an insanely violent video game, all while talking to a friend of mine that's a youth minister, just so I could calm down enough to where I wasn't screaming through my teeth instead of talking. I'm going to stay clear of that girl that ticked me off for a few days because I'm afraid of what I'd do if she opened her fat mouth in front of me. I know it's not very Christian, but I've had it with her... this isn't the first time. And no, despite what you might be thinking it's not Courtney.
10:01 PM, on the computer
Jessica's on, it's been a while since we talked. She's actually talking, too... not just a quick few sentences and then she suddenly leaves! It's really nice, I miss talking to her. The poor girl's got to have surgery during the Thanksgiving Holiday, I'll try to pray for her, but I'm not perfect... I'll probably forget. Aaaaaaand I think I just ticked her off. Okay, think positively, she leaves on a whim all the time, it's no biggie, I'll just call her sometime during the week and surprise her, she'll like that.
11:18 PM, on the computer
I had a weird dream last night. I dreamt that I went to London and found a cute lil puppy, and I wanted to take it home but customs wouldn't let me. What did I do? Well, I really wanted that puppy so I stuffed it in a vacuum tube and shot it into space. It went into re-entry and landed in my backyard just as I got home. Don't worry, it didn't have a single scratch, but it did make a mess on the floor when it came into the house, so I cleaned it up with some tampons because those suckers are super-absorbent.
Another Friday night and I'm stuck at home... I wonder why...