Monday, February 7, 2000
9:45 PM, on the computer
Tonight is the first night I've had off for a while. Such is life, I guess. Right now I'm listening to Massivivid and brushing up on my Protagoras and I'm finding myself realizing that without skeptics there would be no Nihilism, and without that there might actually be peace... but everything happens for a reason, so I guess it's all part of God's plan for the world. I'm reminded of a quote from Voltaire's Candide, when Dr Pangloss said that "All things happen for the benefit of the greater good". That's something I really think about sometimes and then I remember something:
I really need to get my copy of Candide back from Caren...
But speaking of girls, my love life is going decently. I've actually got a date this weekend, oh joyous day! My former manager-in-training Nikki (whom I've had a crush on for about a year now) came into the store the other day when I wasn't there, and (according to Jeff) said that "she was wanting to know if I was in so we could do something after work. And that since I wasn't in she'd come back sometime later on in the week and see if I was in." The thing is, she came back the next night and asked me out... man I was walking on air... the thing is she knew about my crush on her the whole time and finally decided to act on it. So anyway, it's this Friday, meaning for once in my life I actually have a date for the Valentine's Weekend!! I hope it goes well...
Y'know, I've gotten really good at Tekken Tag Tournament lately. It's kinda cool, there's only three people that I know of that I can't beat right now, it was four until yesterday... I only beat the guy once, but I DID beat him... ticked him off too, it was pretty cool, I felt great about myself. The best kind of revenge is the kind that involves doing nothing, it just backfires on him... which is perfect because I'm not a vengeful person. Anywho...
My browser's frozen... lovely. I'm glad I type my journals on Wordpad now, I'd have just lost about half of this... I'm saving this just in case.
Yesterday was lovely... I had a really bad headache at work, and a friend that works at the ice cream shop gave me two pills that she uses for her wrist pain and for migranes... I should have taken one, because while I'm no stranger to pain medicines these lil pills plastered me to the wall... MAN I was blitzed... it was pretty funny too, because I was completely self-aware but I couldn't get my body to do anything I wanted it to, I don't even think I was speaking clearly... Jeff just thought it was funny and told me that I shouldn't take strange pills anymore. Hey, I thought it was funny... kind of like a Alice in Wonderland experience.
School's going good, I'm making good grades in my classes for once, but I'm thinking about dropping Bio II in hopes of getting a better teacher next semester and because I couldn't afford any more books and I really need them for the class. Mom threw a fit, but when is it her choice what classes I take?
10:29 PM, still on the comp
Y'know, life is good... I have respect, peace, money, and a promising date... the Lord has blessed me greatly. The moral of this story? PAY YOUR TITHES!! *grins* I personally don't see how people would think that God doesn't exist, I just think they're jealous of other people's Blessed fortunes and happiness and they have to ruin it for everyone... I'm not going to let people bog me down anymore, and I'm going to try and not complain as much, because it's pointless really... it shows a lack of faith that it will be taken care of.
Speaking of which, my internet connection is acting up, so I'm going to take it as a sign that I should get off... I'm uploading this journal and I'm going to go read a book or something... ciao!