Tuesday, February 15, 2000
10:36 PM, on the computer

First of all, what I am about to say is to NOT be misinterpreted as a showing of lack of faith. I've been a little confused lately, and I think it's because of lack of patience on my part. I'm joyful and glad that God is a part of my life now, but I'm starting to wonder about some things. but with all that's happened I've become confused about a lot of things... but my main question is, have we so little control over our lives? When I was a kid I always knew I was going to be something big someday, that people would know who I was... and now I'm just wondering if that's in His plan for me, and I'm finding myself wondering what the point of material things is when it's all just an anchor in the world. Why do we need jobs and everything we need when all we need is food, clothing, and shelter (all which can be obtained without a job if done right) and the Bible... what's the point? Would it matter if I were to be killed tomorrow? I know where I'm going when I die, so I'm not afraid of it. In fact, I'm already planning (something I rarely do) on things I do once I get to Heaven. I plan to have conversations with great scholars like Jefferson and Ben Franklin, and I want to have a conversation with Charles Darwin (this is a little known fact, but before Darwin died he refuted his evolution theory and accepted Christ. I stood on the place where he was buried in Westminster Abbey and knew that he was resting with the Lord), and I'd love to spend centuries studying in the grand libraries absorbing all the knowledge I can... and then there's actually getting to stand before God, I have so much to say to Him, I want to thank Him for everything He's done and to tell Him how much I love Him, and just spend time in His presence... it must be amazing. Sometimes I just wish I would die and get it over with, I'm that anxious to be in Heaven... but then I realize that's selfish and realize I have much more work to do here.

In addition to my other readings, I've been studying the books of Daniel and Revelations lately and I've come to realize some startling things. I think the Antichrist is on Earth today, and I truly believe that the Rapture is upon us. To those reading this that don't beleive, if you don't accept Christ you will be in for some dark days. I'm going to step on some feet by saying this, but you're also not going to Heaven. Sorry, that's how it is... if you don't beleive me and you think I'm being a judgemental jerk, get this... I'm quoting Christ Himself:

"He who listens to you listens to me; he who rejects you rejects me; but he who rejects me rejects him who sent me." (Luke 10:16)

And He flat out says it in John 14:6; "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

I pray that you receive Him and know of the day-to-day joy that I experience... He's done so much for me. Just ask and make a step of faith and He'll meet you halfway to catch you. To those of you that are beleivers, be sure you know where you stand with God, and make sure you aren't just a person that goes to Church to see and be seen. Read your Bibles, know it, eat it, drink it, sleep it, live for it. People all over wish there was a manual for life, but few actually know that there is. Take advantage of it. I hope to see you someday when Jesus comes to claim us. I may be offending people reading this, but I think that the time to be tolerant is gone. If you're offended, then I'm doing my job. Now it's up to God to finish His part, Blessed be His name. Some people are going to think I'm a hypocrite. Tough. Tell me to my face and I'll thank you and tell you that never once have I said that I'm perfect. I'm not, I'm a sinner. EVERYONE IS, face it... as Rod Parsley says, "To get to you, I've got to get you mad first! Once I do that, God will do His work on you!"

Pardon me I started rambling, I was talking about studying the prophecies about the end times in the Bible. There's a book out by the guys that did the Left Behind series that I really want to check out that reportedly ties in scripture with current events. I have a feeling it will be most enlightening.

I really don't know why I'm carrying on like this, I know that there's people trying to talk to me via ICQ that probably think I'm ignoring them. How do I tell them that I feel led by God to be typing this?

Heh, I think I just found my answer to the above question. I decided from then on I'm going to use this website to share my testimonies and preach the Good News. I know I'm not much of a preacher, but I do know that I have a gift to write. People tell me I'm a down-to-Earth guy (how wrong they are) so I hope I can reach someone with this. If I get to at least one person then my work is fufilled. God be praised, and may peace be in your lives.