Tuesday, June 6, 2000
12:26 AM, on the computer
I've just had an amazing night. Chris Owensby, an evangelist, has been speaking at our church since Sunday morning. Well, after the sermon I went over to him and said (and it surprises me that I can remember this so well)
"Three months ago God called me to be an Apostle, and I know I'm called to the ministry. Lately my life has become complacent, it's been a routine. I know that that's not good. Lately I've been reading Leviticus, and I saw how God communicated with Moses, that God told him explicitly what needed to be done, and I want that, just so my head can't tell me otherwise... because I'll get something from Him and then start thinking "nah, it's not God... or is it... well, since I'm confused I'll just give it up" and I don't want that." And he looked at me, stunned, and said "wow, man I've never heard of anyone your age that's called to what you're doing" and he called four pastors to come lay hands on me and pray for me, so I had five men of God laying hands on me and imparting their wisdom into me, and he told me to read John 15 and know that it's Jesus speaking to me directly, and after that he started referring to me as "the Apostle". So I went home and read it, and well... just read it yourself, and know that Jesus said that to me... I'm still blown away.
So here I am... God says and so it is. I'm an Apostle, and from what I hear the youngest at that. Something in those scriptures really stuck out though, John 15:7... it says "If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you."
And I'm holding Jesus to that... He said it to me, and I'm taking advantage of it. I've said a lot of prayers so far tonight and so far they've all been answered quickly, if not immediately. He even gave me a word for a girl that asked for prayer. Praise the Lord!
Y'know someone's reading this and thinking I'm a nut. Hey man, guess what? I don't care what you think! Hee hee... as for me, I'm gonna worship the Lord! Hallelujah, glory to God, may infinite praises be to Him, the Lord Most High!
Man I feel good... heh heh... WHEEEEEEEE!!!!
I'm gonna sing a Five Iron Frenzy song now... hold your ears, I can't sing...
In the soundless awe and wonder,
words fall short to hope again.
How beautiful,
how vast your love is,
new forever,
world without an end.
I've decided today that each section of my page is gonna go through a content makeover. I've noticed that there's some very un-Christian things in this page, and if I'm gonna make this the base of my ministry then I'll need to start practicing what I preach. I've worked on the links section a little, hopefully it'll be done when it's done.
1:56 AM, on the computer.
I really shouldn't be up right now, but while I'm up I'm gonna write.
Anyway I just heard something that set me off... "so-and-so is my idol, I just love them!" Yeah, and ya might as well just go ahead and say they're your golden calf... Well, call me Moses, but next time I hear that from a believer I'm shooting them down on the spot. Idolatry's idolatry and it's an offense to God. And ever since I've started thinking like Christ, it's offended me too. Aw, you like the phrase? Sorry... don't say it around me then.
On second though, I'm ranting... I'm going to bed.