Sunday, August 8, 1999
2:30 AM, on the computer

Okay quick summary of yesterday:

• Dad and I got into an argument when I asked him if I could borrow some money to take Meredith out.
• I called Meredith when I was supposed to. She said that going out right then wasn't good for her because she was packing, so we talked for an hour. I found out that she wasn't who I thought she was, but she IS Coach Porter's daughter. Well anyway I thought she was really sweet. She said to call her tomorrow (today) at 12:30.
• I called Molly to see how she was and ended up going over to her house because she needed someone to talk to.
• I came back home in a really bad mood, and asked to be left alone and said that I wanted some space. But everyone pushed my buttons and then we all got into a fierce argument. I ended up spending half the night outside.

Well as for today... I'm depressed. I called Meredith at 12:30 and she wasn't there. I called back a few more times between now and then, leaving a message the second time with my number, and I still haven't heard from her. I know that she said she was going to leave at 2, and it's 2:41 now so I'm pretty bummed. I don't feel rejected or anything, it's just that she's the first girl I've ever asked out before. That's right, all of my girlfriends have come to me or were on the net.

I talked to Molly a few minutes ago... didn't help me much. And Dad asked what happened with that girl, and when I told her she wasn't there the jerk said "good." I really can't stand my parents. Yes, a lot of it is me, but a lot of it is them. I wish I could get out of here so much, I hate this house and I can't stand the people in it. Once I leave, I don't plan on keeping touch. As far as I'm concerned, when I leave Missississippi I have no parents.

4:14 PM, on the comp

I got a call from Meredith just now! Turns out she was with her family and that they had planned and she had JUST gotten back. Thank goodness I left a message!! Well we talked for a minute and I assured her that I wasn't upset (as soon as she called it was all okay) and we swapped e-mail addresses. She's going to be busy though because she does something with the football team on their home games and she has sorority work, so we may not get to talk much. In fact, she won't even get my e-mails until the 22nd. She actually called me back though... I'm so flattered. Now I have time to save up my cash. I hope I get that job, I guess I'll find out tomorrow.

5:51 PM, on the comp

Okay, I was just playing Ring King on an emulator... and in between rounds I noticed something:

What in the heck is going on in this picture???