Wednesday, September 13, 2000
9:32 PM, on the computer
Lately there's been some major changes in my life, and I'm doing quite well in spite of it (neener neener, devil...). The Lord's been doing some really cool stuff lately, I've got a high expectancy level for the nearfuture.
I'm about to break up with Leah. I was hanging out with my best friend Molly the other night, and we ran into a friend of ours that works with Leah. We started talking and she said "yeah Leah mentioned that you two used to date and..."
I interrupted: "uh... used to?"
"Yeah, she said you two used to date"
"Oh really..."
"Yeah, and she was there with a guy and she said it was her boyfriend."
At that moment I could have done any number of things, but I was just at church and, well... I was in a darn good mood, so I just shrugged and said "okay, thanks for the info, I kinda needed to know that."
Suddenly a lot of events as of recently started making sense. Leah wanted to see me less and less lately, she never calls me or returns my calls (only rarely), she had two days off in a row from both of her jobs and failed to let me know, and she's given me a various number of excuses on why she couldn't go to church with me (she's a believer though and attends a good church, that's for those of you that might try and peg me with "don't you know it's written that you're to not yoke yourself with nonbelievers?"). All of this just seemed to confirm it.
Well Molly tried to calm me down, but it was weird... I really didn't need calming down, I was at total peace about it. So I went home and then called Leah and I confronted her about it (in a loving manner, mind you). Yeah I know it was 11 PM on a Sunday but I had to take advantage of the peace the Lord had given me. I said "okay... someone told me you were saying that we no longer dated and they saw you with another guy and heard you say that was your boyfriend, and I wanted to know the truth about it."
I really didn't think she was going to answer me, but after what seemed like minutes she did. She said yes it was true, because she had thought lately that I hadn't cared about her because we haven't seen each other lately (my response was "we both work and you work two jobs from 6 AM to 1AM daily), then she said "but you're too busy for me" (my response-- "but I always have time for you, just call me". But basically it went on and on and I heard her story. I told her we should both pray about it and seek the Lord's hand in this so we can do the right thing. I did and the Lord showed me how it was from her perspective and saw this: She doubted me, and instead of doing the mature thing and asking me about it she assumed we weren't dating anymore and started "seeing" a guy friend that visited her at work a lot. So it's pretty much over, I'm gonna let her be with that guy, maybe he can treat her better than she says I treated her. But I'm fine, it didn't get me down one bit and I'm still in a good mood. Besides, she was becoming a bit of a distraction and I payed too much attention to her instead of keeping my eyes on the Lord. God bless her though and I still care about her and wish the best for her!
Another thing worth praising is that the Lord has BIG TIME blessed me with a valuable contact. I've been looking for another job lately because Fred's is just treating me horribly (lied to, cheated out of insurance twice, passed over for too many raises, and low uncompetitive pay), and someone informed me Hancock Fabrics is hiring. I looked into it and yup, they are. I told mom about it and she informed me that the VP of the ENTIRE COMPANY goes to our church. I went and talked to him about it and he said to come by and get a job and to put his name as a reference! He even asked if I wanted to be a manager trainee when I turn 21!! I was so thrilled because it's how he started in the company and now he's the VP! I'm going by there tomorrow morning and if it goes like I'm praying for, then I'm leaving Fred's in a week!