My Poems
~Raped~
My love, I love you,
do I not?
Am I just an empty,
fake,
non-existent
vehicle for abuse?
How do you feel
because it's up to you.
My love, I love you,
do I not?
Am I not powerless,
helpless,
hopless?
An innocent victim of your passions,
your desires,
your needs?
Or is it all my fault,
My love, I love you,
do I not?
I am the instigator,
the accuser,
the criminal.
It is my crime,
is it not?
Your pleaure,
My pain,
My love, I love you,
do I not?
Whatever you want, my love.
Of course, my love.
Yes, my love.
My love, I hate you,
do I not?
Suffer my demon,
Be pained my tormentor,
Die my love...
Disappear, will you not?
There is something
deep and dark within me.
It hides my soul
and slowly kills my joy.
It is evil
Envy
Pride
Lust
Jealousy
Wrath
It is everything vile of this world.
It is you.
Quiet
Solitude
Silence
Pain
Anger
Tears
Frustration
Alone
You
Are
Alone.
Thoughts
Fragments of being
Little
Pieces
of
Time.
Frozen
on paper
or Lost
in air
like vapor
like mist
gone forever
pondered
tested
studied
reviewed
For Eternity.
The World spins
I stand still
A silent scream
that no one hears
I am dead
I am alive
Death would be a blessing
I walk upon the razor's edge
It teases me
laughs at me
calls to me
I smile softly
and tread upon the razor's edge
it begs me
dares me
coaxes me
and i glide upon the razor's edge
it reasons with me
pleads with me
promises me
and I grasp the razor's edge.
You sit
You watch
Quiet One
You say nothing
but you are there
in the darkness
you comfort me
My Silent Angel
Quet One.
~Stalker~
My dark prince
You came to me
As I always Wished you would
You allowed me a peak into your soul
and offered me your dark gift
As I always Dreamed you would
You bestowed upon me your eternal kiss
and took me into you immortal embrace
As I always Prayed you would
My love
I refused you
and suprised us both
Perhaps my heart is White after all.
Blood I see
Blood I have found
First on my wrists
Then on the ground
~The Answer~
A scream
but no one hears
A cry for help
but no one cares
I ask for mercy
I beg for attention
No one answers,
So I seek comfort in the razor
I glimpse love
and then it's gone.
I see him
and he disappears.
One brief moment--
is that all I shall ever see
of happiness?
Oh tortured love,
leave my side.
Oh twisted fate,
run and hide.
Oh sweet happiness,
shall I ever know thee?
Oh cruel death,
come to me.
~Sweet Stalker~
Shadows in the night,
I glance to the rear.
Footfalls behind me,
Comfort replaces fear.
I hear you breathing;
your breath lifts my hair.
I feel your eyes upon me
I know you're there.
Why do you watch me, Sweet Stalker?
Do I turn you on?
Why do you need me, Sweet Stalker?
Will you miss me when I've gone?
You watch in the dark,
you watch in the light.
You watch when I eat,
You want as I sleep at night.
You like to watch,
don't you Sweet Stalker?
I am your world,
aren't I Sweet Stalker?
If I opened my door,
you'd stay outside.
You just want to watch me,
and I don't mind.
