tonight, tonight

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

time is never time at all

you can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth

and our lives are forever changed

we will never be the same

the more you change the less you feel

believe, believe in me, believe

that life can change, that you're not stuck in vain

we're not the same, we're different tonight

tonight, so bright

tonight

and you know you're never sure

but you're sure you could be right

if you held yourself up to the light

and the embers never fade in your city by the lake

the place where you were born

believe, believe in me, believe

in the resolute urgency of now

and if you believe there's not a chance tonight

tonight, so bright tonight

we'll crucify the insincere tonight

we'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight

we'll find a way to offer up the night tonight

the indescribable moments of your life tonight

the impossible is possible tonight

believe in me as i believe in you, tonight

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jellybelly

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

welcome to nowhere fast

nothing here ever lasts

nothing but memories

of what never was

we're nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to be

nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to see

living makes me sick

so sick i wish i'd die

down in the belly of the beast

i can't lie

you're nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to be

nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to see

there's nothing left to do

there's nothing left to feel

doesn't matter what you want, so

to make yourself feel better

you make it so you'll never

give in to your forevers

and live for always

and forever, forever, you're forever to be

forever, forever, you're forever to me

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zero

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

my reflection, dirty mirror

there's no connection to myself

i'm your lover, i'm your zero

i'm the face in your dreams of glass

so save your prayers

for when you're really gonna need 'em

throw out your cares and fly

wanna go for a ride?

she's the one for me

she's all i really need

cause she's the one for me

emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness

and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me

intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness

bulls*** fakers, enchanted kingdoms

the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth

i never let on, that i was on a sinking ship

i never let on that i was down

you blame yourself, for what you can't ignore

you blame yourself for wanting more

she's the one for me

she's all i really need

she's the one for me

she's my one and only

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here is no why

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

the useless drag of another day

the endless drags of a death rock boy

mascara sure and lipstick lost

glitter burned by restless thoughts of being forgotten

and in your sad machines

you'll forever stay

desperate and displeased-with whoever you are

and you're a star

somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile

a hidden diamond you cannot find

a secret star that cannot shine over to you

may the king of gloom, be forever doomed

and in your sad machines

you'll forever stay

burning up in speed

lost inside the dreams, of teen machines

the useless drags, the empty days

the lonely towers of long mistakes

to forgotten faces and faded loves

sitting still was never enough

and if you're giving in, then you're giving up

cause in your sad machines

you'll forever stay

burning up in speed

lost inside the dreams, of teen machines

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bullet with butterfly wings

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

the world is a vampire, sent to drain

secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames

and what do i get, for my pain

betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

even though i know-i suppose i'll show

all my cool and cold-like old job

despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

now i'm naked, nothing but an animal

but can you fake it, for just one more show

and what do you want, i want to change

and what have you got

when you feel the same

even though i know-i suppose i'll show

all my cool and cold-like old job

despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

tell me i'm the only one

tell me there's no other one

jesus was an only son

tell me i'm the chosen one

jesus was an only son for you

despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage

and i still believe that i cannot be saved

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to forgive

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

ten times removed

i forget about where it all began

bastard son of a bastard son of

a wild eyed child of the sun

and right as rain, i'm not the same but

i feel the same, i feel nothing

holding back the fool again

holding back the fool pretends

i forget to forget nothing is important

holding back the fool again

i sensed my loss

before i even learned to talk

and i remember my birthdays

empty party afternoons won't come back

holding back the fool again

holding back the fool pretends

i forget to forget nothing is important

holding back the fool again

i forget to forget me

i forget to forget you see

nothing is important to me

i knew my loss

before i even learned to speak

and all along, i knew it was wrong

but i played along, with my birthday song

holding back the fool again

holding back the fool pretends

i forget to forget nothing is important

holding back the fool again

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f*** you (an ode to no one)

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i'm never coming back

i'm never giving in

i'll never be the shine in your spit

i disconnect the act

i disconnect the dots

i disconnect the me in me

and you're mistaken, it's you that's faking

living and breathing and dying too

this message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool

you can't bring me back, you can't bring me back

cause i gave it all back to you

thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks

wreak their havoc upon this world

the disenchanted, the romantics,

the body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole

destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart

and you, you make me so i need to disconnect

and you make it so real

i don't need your love to disconnect

to runaround kids in get-go cars

with vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs

galaxies full of nobodies

giving us the farewell runarounds

i took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby jane,

lost my innocence to a no good girl, scratch my face with anvil hands,

and coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth

and i give it all back to you

no way, i don't need it, i don't need your love to disconnect

and you make it, so real, i don't need your love to disconnect

no way to disconnect

and you make it so real

i don't need your love to disconnect

no way to disconnect

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love

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

to my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice

she shimmy shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence

born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness do declare

that it's ok, it's love

it's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be

for what you needed to need, she'll make it up

love, it's who you know

machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel

i'm unaware, lost inside your visions

i got mine too over, i got mine and i got you

cause i know you, you're love

it's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be

for what you needed to need, she'll make it up

love, it's who you know

can i look up to you as you look down on me

can i feel in to you as you felt in to me

i can't help what you see, i can't help but to be

for what i needed to need, she'll make it

love, it's who you know

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cupid de locke

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

cupid hath pulled back hi sweetheart's bow

to cast divine arrows into her soul

to grab her attention swift and quick

or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick

with turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

see the devil may do as the devil may care

he loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare

her mouth the mischief he doth seek

her heart the captive of which he speaks

so note all ye lovers in love with the sound

your world be shattered with nary a note

of one cupids arrow under your coat

and in the land of star crossed lovers

and barren hearted wanderers

forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull

we seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable

our hopes dead gathering dust to dust

in faith, in compassion, and in love

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galapogos

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child

softly stolen under our blanket skies

and rescue me from me, and all that i believe

i won't deny the pain

i won't deny the change

and should i fall from grace here with you

will you leave me too?

carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree

and hold me for goodbyes-and whispered lullabyes

and tell me i am still

the man i'm supposed to be

i won't deny the pain

i won't deny the change

and should i fall from grace here with you

will you leave me too?

too late to turn back now, i'm running out of sound

and i am changing, changing

and if we died right now, this fool you love somehow

is here with you

i won't deny the pain

i won't deny the change

and should i fall from grace here with you

would you leave me too?

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muzzle

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i fear that i am ordinary, just like everyone

to lie here and die among the sorrows

adrift among the days

for everything i ever said

and everything i've ever done is gone and dead

as all things must surely have to end

and great loves will one day have to part

i know that i am meant for this world

my life has been extraordinary

blessed and cursed and won

time heals but i'm forever broken

by and by the way...

have you ever heard the words

i'm singing in these songs?

it's for the girl i've loved all along

can a taste of love be so wrong

as all things must surely have to end

and great loves will one day have to part

i know that i am meant for this world

and in my mind as i was floating

far above the clouds

some children laughed i'd fall for certain

for thinking that i'd last forever

but i knew exactly where i was

and i knew the meaning of it all

and i knew the distance to the sun

and i knew the echo that is love

and i knew the secrets in your spires

and i knew the emptiness of youth

and i knew the solitude of heart

and i knew the murmurs of the soul

and the world is drawn into your hands

and the world is etched upon your heart

and the world so hard to understand

is the world your can't live without

and i knew the silence of the world

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porcelina of the vast oceans

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

as far as you take me, that's where i believe

the realm of soft delusions, floating on the laves

on a distant shoreline, she waves her arms to me

as all the thought police, and closing in for sleep

the dilly dally, of my bright lit stay

the steam of my misfortunes

has given me the power to be afraid

and in my mind i'm everyone

and in my mind

without a care in this whole world

without a care in this life

it's what you take that makes it right

porcelina of the oceans blue

in the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts

the light of all that's good, the light of all that's true

to the fringes gladly, i walk unadorned

with gods and their creations

with filth and disease

porcelina, she waits for me there

with seashell hissing lullabyes

and whispers fathomed deep inside my own

hidden thoughts and alibis

my secret thoughts come alive

without a care in this whole world

without a care in this life

it's what you take that makes it right

and in my mind i'm everyone

in my mind i'm everyone of you

you make it right

it's all allright

you make it right

porcelina of the oceans blue

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take me down

billy corgan & james iha

© 1995 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

take me down, to the underground

won't you take me down, to the underground

why oh why, there is no light

and if i can't sleep, can you hold my life

and all i see is you

take my hand, i lost where i began

in my heart i know all of my faults

will you help me understand

and i believe in you

you're the other half of me

soothe and heal...

when you sleep, when you dream,

i'll be there if you need me, whenever i hear you sing...

there is a sun, it'll come, the sun, i hear them call me down

i held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun

and you're all i see...

and trumpets blew, and angels flew on the other side

and you're all i see, and you're all i'll need

there's a love that god puts in your heart

DISCO 2

where boys fear to tread

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

candy cane walks down

to build a bonfire, to break my fall

my baby, my sweet thing

just maybe we could lose ourselves this time

king of the horseflies, dark prince of death

his tragic forces are heaven sent

in sweet things, in a lovers breath

in knowing this was meant to be the last

a go-go-kids, a go-go-style

a suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile

as always, in young need

a veiled promise to never die

on dead highways, her black beauties roam

for june angels, so far from home

for a love lost, a faded picture

to tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies

so get on the bomb

get back where you belong

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bodies

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need

come into my life forever

the crumbled cities stand as known

of the sights you have been shown

of the hurt you call your own

love is suicide

the empty bodies stand at rest

casualties of their own flesh

afflicted by their dispossession

but no bodies ever knew

nobodys

no bodies felt like you

nobodys

love is suicide

now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace

you can't help deny forever

the tragedies reside in you

the secret sights hide in you

the lonely nights divide you in two

all my blisters now revealed

in the darkness of my dreams

in the spaces in between us

but no bodies ever knew

nobodys

no bodies felt like you

nobodys

love is suicide

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thirty-three

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

speak to me in a language i can hear humour me before i have to go

deep in thought i forgive everyone

as the cluttered streets greet me once again

i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table

tomorrow's just an excuse away

so I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own

the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet

at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk

steeple guide me to my heart and home

the sun is out and up and down again

i know i'll make it, love can last forever

graceful swans of never topple to the earth

and you can make it last, forever you

you can make it last, forever you

and for a moment i lose myself

wrapped up in the pleasures of the world

i've journeyed here and there and back again

but in the same old haunts i still find my friends

mysteries not ready to reveal

sympathies i'm ready to return

i'll make the effort, love can last forever

graceful swans of never topple to the earth

tomorrow's just an excuse

and you can make it last, forever you

you can make it last, forever you

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in the arms of sleep

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

sleep will not come to this tired body now

peace will not come to this lonely heart

there are some things i'll live without

but i want you to know that i need you right now

i need you tonite

i steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves

cause i'll always miss her wherever she goes

and i'll always need her more than she could ever need me

i need someone to ease my mind

but sometimes a someone is so hard to find

and i'll do anything to keep her here tonite

and i'll say anything to make her feel alright

and i'll be anything to keep her here tonite

cause i want you to stay, with me

i need you tonite

she comes to me like an angel out of time

as i play the part of a saint on my knees

there are some things i'll live without

but i want you to know that i need you right now

suffer my desire

suffer my desire

suffer my desire for you

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1979

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time

on a live wire right up off the street

you and i should meet

junebug skipping like a stone

with the headlights pointed at the dawn

we were sure we'd never see an end to it all

and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues

and we don't know

just where our bones will rest

to dust i guess

forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

double cross the vacant and the bored

they're not sure just what we have in the store

morphine city slippin dues down to see

that we don't even care as restless as we are

we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts

and poured cement, lamented and assured

to the lights and towns below

faster than the speed of sound

faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope

justine never knew the rules,

hung down with the freaks and the ghouls

no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it

to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues

and we don't know just where our bones will rest

to dust i guess

forgotten and absorbed into the earth below

the street heats the urgency of sound

as you can see there's no one around

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tales of a scorched earth

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights

and let me be, let me die inside

let me know the way from of this world of hate in you

cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back

and we're all dead yeah we're all dead

inside the future of a shattered past

i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel

why do the same old things keep on happening?

because beyond my hopes there are no feelings

bless the martyrs and kiss the kids

for knowing better, for knowing this

cause you're all whores and i'm a fag

and i've got no mother and i've got no dad

to save me the wasted, save me from myself

i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel

why do the same old things keep on happening?

because beyond my hopes there are no feelings

everybody's lost just waiting to be found

everyone's a thought just waiting to fade

so f*** it all cause i don't care

so what somehow somewhere we dared

to try to dare to dare for a little more

i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel

why do the same old things keep on happening?

because beyond my hopes there are no reasons

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thru the eyes of ruby

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes

your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death

your innocence is all i have

breathing underwater, and living under glass

and if you spin your love around

the secrets of your dreams

you may find your love is gone

and is not quite what it seemed

to appear to disappear

beneath all your darkest fears

i believe in never, i believe in all the way

but belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith

and faith can't help you to escape

and with this ring i wed thee true

and with this ring i wed thee now

and with this ring i play so dead

but no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you

if you spin your love around

the secrets of your dreams

you may find your love is gone

and is not quite what it seemed

to appear to disappear

beneath all your darkest fears

to the revelations of fresh faced youth

no one will come to save you

so speak your peace in the murmurs drawn

but youth is wasted on the young

your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate

my love for you just can't explain

why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,

forever lost inside ourselves

the night has come to hold us young

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stumbleine

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

boredoms in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth

sally's in the stirrups claiming her destiny

and nobody nowhere understands anything

about me and all my dreams

lost at sea

jack it up judy set your heart alight

mayfair mistress of the satellites

misspent youth-faking up a rampage

to hold off the real slaves

paid off and staid

and what you never knew

can never get to you

so fake it

i'll be your stumbleine

i'll be your super queen

and make you

jukebox f***up hanging round the drugstore

no matter what you say he'll be back for more

mommy's in the manger with the little kids

she's got her reasons, got my forgets

of tears and idle threats

misplaced

and no matter what they do

they can't get to you

so fake it

i'll be your stumbleine

i'll be your super queen

and make you me

come around ruby i could never sleep alone

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x.y.u.

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

she didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know

she couldn't run away cause she was crazy

she gave it all away, she saw her baby break

and in the air it hung that she was dull razors

and i said, i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up

from one another, another one should come to one another

no one should come between us

still i was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only

knows that she could never hide

i couldn't feel her, and it was just a game,

cause i was lonely and she was crazy

rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this

cause i'm a watcher, and i'm a doer of none

come to save you, cause you're all mine

i hurt where i can't feel, i feel where i can't hurt

i know where i can't know, i bleed for me and mine

ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss

cause i'm a sister, and i'm a motherf***

i am made of shamrocks, i am made of stern stuff

i am never enough, i am the forgotten child

and i said i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up

from one another, no one should ever come

in between us, between us and our love

mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow

and everywhere that mary went i was sure to go

now mary's got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl

mary's got some deep s***, and mary does not forget

and this is how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts

and into the eyes of the jackyl i say ka-boom

now we begin descent, to where we've never been

there is no going back, this wasn't meant to last

this is a hell on earth, we are meant to serve

and she will never learn [she will never learn]

bye bye, baby goodbye [bye bye]

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we only come out at night

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

we only come out at night, the days are much too bright

we only come out at night

and once again, you'll pretend to know me well, my friends

and once again, i'll pretend to know the way

thru the empty space

thru the secret places of the heart

we only come out at night, the days are much too bright

we only come out at night

i walk alone, i walk alone to find the way home

i'm on my own, i'm on my own to see the ways

that i can't help the days, you will make it home o.k

i know you can, and you can

we only come out at night, the days are much too bright

we only come out at night

and once again, you'll pretend to know that

there's an end, that there's an end to this begin

it will help you sleep at night

it will make it seem that right is always right

alright?

we only come out at night

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beautiful

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun

wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come

and i can't help but feel attached

to the feelings i can't even match

with my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you

beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky

wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I

and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't

but you just can't tell

who'll you love and who you won't

and i love you, as you love me

so let the clouds roll by your face

we'll let the world spin on to another place

we'll climb the tallest tree above it all

to look down on you and me and them

and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't

but you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't

don't let your life wrap up around you

don't forget to call, whenever

i'll be here just waiting for you

i'll be under your stars forever

neither here nor there just right beside you

i'll be under the stairs forever

neither here nor there just right beside you

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lily (my one and only)

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

lily, my one and only

i can hardly wait till i see her

silly, i know i'm silly

cause i'm hanging in this tree

in the hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me

and thru her window shade

i watch her shadow move

i wonder if she.......?

lily, my one and only

love is in my heart and in your eyes

will she or won't she want him

no one knows for sure

but an officer is knocking at my door

and thru her window shade

i watch her shadow move

i wonder if she could only see me?

and when i'm with her i feel fine

if i could kiss her i wouldn't mind the time it took to find

my lily, my one and only

i can hardly wait till i see her

oh lily, i know you love me

cause as they're draggin me away

i swear i saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)

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by starlight

billy corgan

© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

by starlight i'll kiss you

and promise to be your one and only

i'll make you feel happy

and leave you to be lost in mine

and where will we go, what will we do?

soon said i, will know

dead eyes, are you just like me?

cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas

dead eyes, are you just like me?

and all along, we knew we'd carry on

just to belong

by starlight i know you

as lovely as a wish granted true

my life has been empty, my life has been untrue

and does she really know, who i really am?

does she really know me at last

dead eyes, are you just like me?

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farewell and goodnight

billy corgan & james iha

© 1995 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music/cinderful music (bmi)

goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tite

may it hold you through the winter of a long night

and keep you from the loneliness of yourself

heart strung is your heart frayed and empty

cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love

it's unsung, and i say

goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day

goodnight, always, to all that's in your heart

goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your

head lite with the wishes of a sandman and a night light

be careful not to let the bedbugs sleep tight nestled in your covers

the sun shines but i don't

a silver rain will wash away

and you can tell, it's just as well

goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day

goodnight, always to all that's pure that's in your heart