To Sheila

twilight fades through blistered avalon
the sky's cruel torch on aching autobahn

into the uncertain divine
we scream into the last divide

you make me real
you make me real
strong as I feel
you make me real

sheila rides on crashing nightingale
intake eyes leave passing vapor trails

with blushing brilliance alive
because it's time to arrive

you make me real
you make me real
strong as I feel
you make me real

lately I just can't seem to believe
discard my friends to change the scenery
it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
but now it's just a matter of grace

a summer storm graces all of me
highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light
and take you home into the night

you make me real / lately I just can't seem to believe
you make me real / discard my friends to change the scenery
strong as I feel / it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
you make me real / but now it's just a matter of grace

Ava Adore

it's you that I adore
you will always be my whore
you'll be a mother to my child
and a child to my heart

we must never be apart
we must never be apart

lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find

and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head

we must never be apart
we must never be apart

lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left to die

drinking mercury to the mystery
of all that you should ever leave behind
in time

in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart

drinking mercury to the mystery
of all that you should ever seek to find

lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
in time

we must never be apart

and you'll always be my whore
cause you're the one that I adore
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me

in you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
in you I feel so pretty in you I taste god
we must never be apart

Perfect

I know
we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends

we are
reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel
that something has been lost

but please
you know you're just like me
next time
I promise we'll be perfect
perfect

perfect
strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind

so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was

angel
you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
but the letters have been sent on

so please
you always were so free
you'll see
I promise we'll be perfect
perfect

perfect
strangers down the line
strangers on the street
lovers while we sleep

perfect
you know this has to be
we always were so free
we promised that we'd be
perfect

Daphne Descends

with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion

it's the perfect hassle
for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home

you love him
you love him more than this
you love him
and you cannot, you can't resist

you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him
and no one, no one else

past sidewalk ashes
a last lovers arc
you come apart to intertwine

it was all so simple
as you watched him move
across the darkness in your room

you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him
and no one, no one else

and to the winding vines
the pretty boys dive
and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind

will you lose him then
on some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone

you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him
and no one, no one else

you love him
you love him more than this
you love him
and you cannot, you can't resist

you love him

Once Upon A Time

Mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go

Fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes

Fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Tuesdays come and gone
restless still I drive
try to leave it all behind

fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leves
I got crawlin', crawlin' over me

Once upon a time in my life...

I went falling

Mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mother's tears grown cold

Tear

the lights came on fast
lost in motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal
but you knew all along

you laugh the light I sing the songs
to watch you numb

I saw you there
you were on your way
you held the rain
and for the first time heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to blame
for taking you away

do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't do?

where is your heart?
where is your heart gone to?
tear me apart
tear me apart from you

you laugh the light I cry the wound
in grey afternoons

I saw you there
you were on your way
you kissed me cold
and for the first time heaven seemed insane
for taking you away
cause heaven is to blame
for taking you away

the lights came to pass
dead opera motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal
in nitrous overcast

do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't choose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't lose?

tear me apart
tear me apart from you
where is your heart?
where has your heart run to?

Crestfallen

who am I
to need you when I'm down
and where are you
when I need you around

your life is not your own
and all I ask you is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance

once again

who am I to need you now
to ask you why, to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

and you may go
but I know you won't leave
too many years
built into memories
your life is not your own

who am I to need you now
to ask you why, to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I to you?
along the way I lost my faith

and as you were you'll be again
to mold like clay, to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I?

Appels + Oranjes

what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?

what if the wind refused to blow?
what if the seas refused to wave?

what if the world refused its turn?
what if the stars would hesitate?

what if what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

what if the silence let you dream?
what if the air could let you breathe?

what if the words would bring you here?
what if this sound could bring you peace?

what if what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
digging for the feel of something new
what if what is isn't you?
what are you gonna do?

it came from your thoughts
your dreams and visions
ripped up from your weeks
and indecisions

what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?

what if the world refused to turn?
what if the clocks would hesitate?

what if what is isn't true?
what are you gonna do?
what if what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

does that mean you've got to choose?
the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to lose?
the thoughts you cannot use
what are you gonna do?

Pug

kiss and kill me sweetly
come and drive me home
drag the miles in me
I am yours alone

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

desire me so deeply
drain and kick me hard
whisper secrets for me
try to go too far

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into...

please don't change
please don't change at all
bring your rain
bring your rain to fall

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

come and kiss me sweetly
ride the telephone
drag the miles to me
I am yours alone

yours alone
yours alone on the telephone
yours alone looking for a kiss kiss
yours alone

The Tale Of Dusty And Pistol Pete

dusty screams
through doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?"

pistol pete
removes the final breaths from her unkind
and she is shaken

what does this mean
in love or in peace?
with you lying next to me
so faithless serene

and she calls to him

let the waste
cross the ancient trails to you
far out
beneath the sorrow clouds

let them taste
the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out
through your rusted scars

alone he roams
inside the ordinary catacombs
of her waiting

with raven hands
she steals and staggers towards her man
still scorned by his demon

because he's undone
become the language of
disaster and love
vengeance and dust

and she calls to him

let the waste
cross the ancient trails to you
far out
beneath the sorrow clouds

let them taste
the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out
through your rusted scars

dusty screams
through doors and imaginary scenes
of hurt and teardrop

as he holds her down
in the cold lonely winds
together again
her inside him

and she calls to him

let the waste
cross the ancient trails to you
far out
beneath the sorrow clouds

let them taste
the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out
through your rusted scars

Annie-Dog

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face
her velvet spleen, her shackle spine
her diamond curse, it comes with mine

a vessel she for violent I
confession arms awake
mine mine, your were always mine
possessed by my taste

and below the angel dog
combs her hair and sings her psalms
the bombs go off, she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong, she sets things tragic
she is venus, she is mars
she's electric, and the struggle of

upon her face we leave no trace
but in her stomach mercury aged
she holds the blood, she carves the knives
she digs the wires in our babies

amphetamine annie-dog
pulls her trash and her stories
from place to place and bed to bed
gives of herself and the magnet head
another floor, another ceiling
counting stars with double meanings

is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in her
to give to her the priceless peace
of giving up control

we tumble out into the streets
and annie-dog, she drags her leash
pretty face, ugly mouth
bitter bred and so released

and by the no and in the yes
annie goes if you couldn't guess
a simple man, a sycophant
her elephant with the laughing cough
she wants clean sheets and fresh flowers
her dental shots and the hong kong glue

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face

Shame

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the time

shame

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is good all the time

hello goodbye
you know you made us cry

Behold! The Night Mare

I've face the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease you
the wind blows, and I know

I can't go on digging roses from your grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
you'll find me

the coarse tide reflects the sky

and the night mare rides on
and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalm
and the night mare rides on

what I fear is lost here
the wind blows and I know

all you have to do is run away
and steal yourself from me
become mystery to gaze into
you're so cruel in all you do
but still I believe, I believe
you

so may you come with your own knives
you'll never take me alive
with all the force of what is true
is there nothing I can do?

I can't go on digging roses from your grave
to linger on beyond the beyond
where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
you'll find me

and the night mare rides on
and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalm
and the night mare rides on

I've face the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
to hold the flower I can't keep

For Martha

whenever I run
wherever I run to you lost
it's never done
just hanging on

the past has let me be
returning as if dream
shattered as belief

if you have to go, don't say goodbye
if you have to go, don't you cry
if you have to go, I will get by
someday I'll follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

your picture out of time
left aching in my mind
shadows kept alive

if you have to go, don't say goodbye
if you have to go, don't you cry
if you have to go, I will get by
I will follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
who'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

long horses we are born
creatures more than torn
mourning our way home

Blank Page

blank page was all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest

got dressed, drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
stop sign told me stay at home
told me you were not alone

blank page was all the rage
never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest

you haven't changed, you're still the same
may you rise as you fall

you were easy, you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes

I catch the rainfall through the leaking roof
that you had left behind
you remind me of that leak in my soul

the rain falls, my friends call
leaking rain on the phone

take a day, plant some trees
may they shade you fromme
may your children play beneath

blank page was all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest

got dressed, drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up
you are a ghost of my indecision
no more, little girl

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