Forbidden Hearts
	Part 4/?
	By Elisabeth James
	ejames000@ameritech.net

	I proudly present Forbidden Hearts Chapter 4!  NINE pages
of Serenity and Endymion and their forbidden love!  YAY!!!  I
really hope I get more feedback on this chapter than I did on
#3.
Come on everyone!  Just drop me a line and tell me what you
liked/hated about this chapter.  *begging and pleading on her
knees* this EMSIT needs a real self esteem boast!

	Disclaimer: I don’t own Sailor Moon, BUT Raina (however
evil she may be) and the never appearing Adonis are mine :)
Please ask permission before using.  I’m not sure why anyone
would want to use them though...



	“Mother you can not tell me to stop seeing him, he is my
friend!” Serenity’s anguished cries resonated through her room.
Tears of anger and sadness streamed down her cheeks in rivers.
	Queen Serenity narrowed her eyes at her youngest
daughter, “You will obey me Serenity, my word is law in this
castle.”
	“He is the only person who understands me, why are you
doing this to me?” Queen Serenity sat down on her daughter’s bed
and placed a hand on Serenity’s trembling shoulder.
	“He is to marry Raina and you are ruining everything.  I see
the way he looks at you during dinner.  I know about the
numerous
visits to your bedroom that have taken place.  You are stealing
his
heart.”
	“We are just friends!  Nothing has ever happened, he does
not love me.” her heart broke speaking those words, she knew
they
weren’t true, he did love her.  It was like shunning away the
sun
after years in darkness.
	“But you love him do you not Serenity?” under the cool
gaze of her mother she couldn’t deny it.  The silence turned her
in.
“I can not allow this interlude to go any farther, I am putting
a stop
to it right now.  I do not want to see you near him Serenity or
the
penalty will be far worse than the crime.” the queen rose slowly
from the bed, the conversation was finished, nothing could be
changed now.
	“I’ll see myself out.” Serenity only nodded, her body was
numb and her heart ached.  The chamber door slammed shut with
an air of finality.  After a few short moments she heard the
curtains
slid open and footfalls across the carpet.
	“Sere...” his voice was like velvet thunder, crisp and full of
fire.  She closed her eyes, if she looked upon him she wouldn’t
have the strength to let him go.  He reached forward to comfort
her, his fingers brushed her shoulder and she moved away from
him.
	“Please go Endymion.” she was surprised at the coldness of
her own voice.  She felt him pull back, and her body cried for
his
warmth, his love.
	“She can not do this Serenity, she can not control me-
control us.” he corrected himself and sat down on her bed.  “I
love
you.”
	The words should have made her heart sing instead the pain
only got worse.  “I love you too, but I can’t sacrifice my
people
just to be with you.  By marrying Raina you can save this world
Endy.  Hundreds are already dead and many more will be killed
before this is over.  I can not place my personal needs over
everyone else’s.” she whispered firmly, trying to convince
herself
of the words along with him.
	“So we will spend our lives wondering what would have
been.  Pining for each other, never happy.  You are marrying my
brother, we will not be able to avoid one another forever.”
	“Yes, but I would rather miss you forever than to have
another person die on that battlefield.  You are the future king
of
Earth, you can honestly tell me that you would relinquish the
lives
of your subjects to be with the girl you loved?”
	He sighed softly, “You are right.  As heir to the throne of
earth I could never do such a thing.  But this is destiny
Serenity,
we are meant to be together, we are fighting fate.  We are
battling
our heart and souls.”
	“Then let the war remain within us and stop the killing that
rages on around us on the exterior.” she kissed his cheek
lightly,
her lips brushed against his smooth cheek.  He took her face in
his
hands and kissed her gently on the forehead.  He took one last
lingering gaze and released her.  He rose from the bed and
walked
toward the door.
	He stopped to look at her one more time, the words just
ached to be said, “My heart will always be yours Sere, nothing
can
ever stop me from loving you.” he opened the heavy door and
slipped silently out into the corridor.  It clicked shut behind
him
and Serenity let the tears start to come again.
	With all of her strength she walked out onto her balcony
and collapsed into the wicker chair that she painted in.  The
painting of Endymion sat on the easel silently begging to
completed.  With a trembling hand she picked up her paintbrush
and began to finish what she had started earlier.

	The sun had rose that morning like it always had, but to
Serenity the sun was a superficial orb floating high in the sky. 
She
felt no real warmth, the world remained dark in her eyes.
	She sat in the middle of the garden with a large book open
in her lap.  She was bathing in golden rays and lost in the
world of
Greek mythology.  The flowers danced happily in the breeze
tickling her arms and legs.  It played with her hair making it
flap
gently along the side of her face.  Her silver rimmed glasses
reflected the sunlight that shone down upon her.
	“Serenity, can I speak to you for a moment.” a soft male
voice interrupted her train of thought.
	Endymion was her first thought but when she glanced up
she saw Adonis’s worried face staring back at her.
	She nodded, she had not spoken very much to her future
life partner but he reminded her of Endymion in many ways.  His
longer dark brown hair fell carelessly over his eyes which
silently
begged for answers.
 	“Raina told me what happened between you and
Endymion.  I do not think what she did was right.” she smiled
warmly at him.  Life could be good with him, he would care about
her and perhaps in time she could grow to love him.  It would
never be the same though, no one, not even his own brother,
could
replace Endymion.  She closed her book after marking her place
and removed her glasses.
	“Thank you Adonis.” she patted the soft ground next to her,
“Would you like to sit down?” he lowered himself down next to
the silver haired princess and stared at the ground in front of
him.
	“I am sorry that things could not go as you wished.” he was
reaching for the words, not sure of what to say.  They hadn’t
spoken to one another very often.  She was always disappearing
or
with his brother, there was very little time for them to really
talk
and be alone.
	“My only wish is to be free to make my own choices, and
marry who I wish to marry.” she told him wistfully, “My mother
was forced to marry at 15, she thinks that all arranged
marriages
will turn out like hers did.  She was so happy with my father,
they
loved each other with everything they had.  When he died, I
think
he took my mother along with him.” she smiled sadly at him.
	He stared back at her, his face was troubled, “You would
marry Endymion if you could, would you not Serenity?”
	She bit her lower lip and looked up at the birds flying
overhead,  she nodded slowly.  Her movement was unhurried and
prolonged.  She listened to him sigh next to her.
	“Does he love you as you love him?” she nodded again, the
silence felt safe to her, she hoped that not speaking the words
out
loud that Adonis would not feel hurt.
	“I am sorry Adonis, I never meant for this to happen.  Love
is something that is uncontrollable.” she whispered.  She
glanced
over at him, his face betrayed his feelings.  Unease settled
slowly
over them.
	“Can I not make you happy like Endymion could?” she
closed her eyes briefly and laid down.  Everything was weighing
her down, she wanted to relax.  She took his hand in hers and
held
it tight.
	“Adonis, I am sure that you will be a fine husband.  I am
sure that our life together will be stable and there will be
good
times.  But you and I- us, we deserve more than just stable.  We
deserve unconditional love, unbridled happiness and everything
in
between.  That is what makes life worth living, having someone
beside you to share all the good things with, someone you love
with all of your heart.  That someone can not just be a stranger
who you do not know.”
	“Could you ever love me like you do my brother?”
	“Your brother is my soulmate Adonis, no matter what my
heart will always be his.  My love for you could never match my
love for him.  Just like your love for me could never match the
love you have for the soulmate you have out there somewhere.  We
are trapped in this relationship that neither of us really
want.”
	He sighed and nodded in agreement, “I like you Serenity,
but I do not want to be the man you come to hate for blocking
you
from your true love.”
	“I could and will never hate you Adonis, this is how it has
to be.  It is the peace of the moon that blocks me from my true
love.  There is nothing either of us can do, we are powerless to
stop the world around us.  We can be friends first though, I
would
like that more than anything right now.”
	“I would like that as well.” she sat up and hugged him
tightly.  “Everything will work out in the end, I am sure of it
Serenity.  Maybe I could talk to my mother...” he trailed off at
the
shaking of her head.
	“My mother would never allow it, there is too much at
stake with Raina and Endymion’s joining.  Things are not going
to
change no matter what we do, we are at the mercy of our
parents.”
	Adonis smiled at, “I will make you happy Serenity, I
promise.  Maybe not like Endymion would but I will.” she nodded,
his promise was pure.  He could always try.
	A dark shadow fell over the pair and the two looked up to
see who was listening to the tail end of their conversation, “I
am
sorry for interrupting but Queen Serenity does not wish anyone
to
be outside the castle walls while the battle is so close.”
Endymion
looked down at Serenity who was clutching a book to her side and
held a pair of glasses in her hand.  His face was like a mask,
hiding
the pain of seeing the girl he loved but not being able to talk
to her.
Serenity nodded and stood up.  She brushed the dirt from the
back
of her skirt and rushed into the house.  She looked at him for a
moment before she shut the door behind her.
	“I am sorry Endymion, I meant no harm.” Adonis stood up,
even at his full height he was a good six inches shorter than
his
older brother.
	“I understand Adonis, there is no need for apologies.  She
is your fiancée, I can not stop you from talking to her, even
though
I can not.” his hands clinched up into fists.  This was killing
him
inside, at least before he could speak to her freely and touch
her.
He wanted her more than ever right now.
	“She may be my fiancée, but she loves you.  She will
always be yours, there’s a part of her heart that I will never
be able
to touch.” he patted his brother’s shoulder and walked up toward
the house, “Love will find a way Endymion, it always does.  Even
in the harshest conditions it flourishes, just don’t give up.”
	Endymion nodded and continued to stare out at the endless
field of flowers before him.  He could still see signs of the
battle
raging on near the mountains.  It wouldn’t be long now.  He
reached down and plucked a white rose from the garden.  He
brought it to his nose and inhaled the sweet scent.
	“That is Serenity’s favorite flower too.” a voice spoke up
behind him.  He looked quickly over his shoulder and watched
Raina make her way toward him.  “That girl loves flowers.” she
snatched it from Endymion’s hand and tossed to his feet.  She
stepped on it and ground the elegant petals into the
cobblestone.  “I
have always preferred the blood red ones, they mean true love
here.  Is it any different on earth?” she smoothed her hand
delicately over his face.  He reached up and slowly pushed her
away.
	“Keep your distance Raina, I am not in the mood for
games.” she narrowed her eyes and laughed softly.  She clutched
his arm tightly and leaned toward him to whisper in his ear.
	“She may hold you heart Endymion, but you are mine.” she
brushed her lips against his and ran her hands over his chest. 
“My
you certainly are strong, do you work out much?” he shoved her
forcefully away.  She gasped and her green eyes narrowed in
anger, no man had ever rejected her as blatantly as he just had.
	“You are pure evil, I will never be yours.” he spat, the
words sounded venomous as they spewed forth from his mouth.
	“On the contrary Endymion, come next week we will be
together forever.  And you will have to admire your little
Serenity
from afar.” a wicked grin spread across her face which only
infuriated Endymion further.
	“Why are you doing this?  You know there was nothing
going on between Serenity and I.  She loves you too much to hurt
you like that.”
	“I know but would have been if I would have let it.  She
needed to feel what it was like to long for something she can
never
have.  She was my father’s favorite, they did everything
together
and I was always left alone.  I watched you two together and I
see
my childhood flashing before my eyes again.  She stole you away
from me just like she did father.  But I’m no longer 10 and I no
longer have to stand by and watch.  I can make you very happy
Endymion, we will rule side by side the two most powerful
kingdoms in the universe.  Nothing can oppose us, planets will
be
crushed trying.”
	“This marriage will never be what you imagine it to be.  I
will never love you Raina, nothing will ever change that fact. 
You
hold so much power as future queen but you will never have power
over my heart.” he told her coldly, he turned away from her and
walked toward the castle.  She shot an icy glare at his
retreating
back.
	“This is not over yet Endymion, I will have you heart some
day.  I will make you love me.” she silently vowed as she
watched
him disappear inside the castle.

	She scrawled her name across the bottom of the portrait.
She smiled despite her terrible mood, it was the perfect
likeness of
him.  She traced her fingers along the curve of his handsome
face
and dreamed of touching the real thing.  The canvas held little
likeness to the silken texture of his skin.  She picked up the
painting and carried it carefully into the main part of her
bedroom.
	Serenity plopped down onto her bed and stared into the
painted eyes in front of her.  They lacked the glow and
excitement
that seemed to sped through his even in times of calm and
relaxation.  Who was she kidding, this painting, no matter how
good could never take the place of the real thing.
	Not when the real thing held her so tight and had power to
take away all of her fears.  She sighed and placed the art work
next
to her and laid back.  She could still see him walking through
that
door to talk to her about her mother, to offer comfort about the
situation with her sister.  His essence was still here, hanging
in the
air like a strong perfume, unwilling to leave her alone.
	She hugged a pillow to her chest and felt the tears run
down her cheeks for the second time that day.  She felt dead
within, her insides had been wretched out and left dangling in
front
of her face.  Another form of torture her mother had discovered.
The thought of Endymion in the next room placed another dagger
through her already bleeding heart.  She should have kissed him
when she had the chance, she never should have pushed him away
as she did.
	She closed her eyes and tried to sleep, it would numb the
incredible pain that held her body tight since the news last
night.
She dozed off into a deep slumber, the sweet nothingness of
darkness held the agony at bay.  Her thoughts remained focused
on
her dear prince, he haunted her even in her dreams.  She didn’t
hear the door open and shut softly or see Endymion walking to
her
bed.
	“Endy, don’t leave me...” she whispered softly into the air,
on some subconscious level calling out for his help.  He sat
down
next to her and took her hand in his own to attempt to comfort
her.
Her skin was clammy and pale.  He kissed each fingertip with
great care waiting for his princess to awaken.
	Her eyes fluttered as he slowly moved up her arm taking in
every feature of her beautiful face, kissing every inch of her
slim
appendage.  He ran his fingers through her silver hair and
stared at
wonderful image before him.  He was breaking every wish of
Queen Serenity, if anyone were to find out about this visit he
would be punished for sure.  Somehow the consequences didn’t
seem so bad after looking at the face of his love.
	Her eyes snapped open and met his blue ones.  Confusion
crossed her delicate feature before pure joy took over.  She sat
up
quickly wanting to know what was going on.
	“Endymion!  What are you doing here?!” she exclaimed
without thinking.  He placed a single finger over her rosebud
lips
and shook his head.
	“You make too much noise my love, I can not have you
give me away.” she giggled softly and started to speak again, “I
shall just have to keep you quiet myself.” his lips were upon
hers
in an instant.  Pure bliss wasn’t far behind.
	She immediately responded and kissed him back with
everything she had.  Their mouths parted and kiss went deeper,
every desire pouring out and distributed between them.  Passion
overtook him like a wave washing over the ocean shore.  Finally
he
pulled away to gaze into the eyes of the woman he loved.
	She smiled dreamily at him, her face was flushed and her
eyes sparkled with the excitement of forbidden romance.  “What
are you doing in my room without my permission?”
	“I did not think I would need it.” he grinned and kissed her
cheek, “Are you angry?”
	“Of course not, anger does not begin to describe my
feelings right now.”
	“Should I leave?” he looked toward the ominous door, and
then back at her.
	“Not yet my prince.” she pulled him forcefully down next
to her.  “It’s royal law, you can not leave until I give you my
consent.”  His head hit the pillow and she leaned over him.  He
planted a quick kiss on the tip of her nose.  She laid
perpendicular
to him, her head rested on his stomach.  He lightly brushed the
hair
away from her face, using any excuse to touch her.
	“Will that be any time soon?” he asked her softly, knowing
very well what the answer would be.
	“It is an eternity away.” she giggled as his mouth
approached hers once more.  “Kiss me again Endy, do not stop.”
he happily obliged.  As he sat back, he noticed the painting
sitting
near the end of the bed and reached for it.
	“You finished it without me Sere?” it was looking in a
mirror, except the expression he wore in the portrait was no
where
as happy as his was right now.
	“I am sorry Endy, I did not know when you I was going to
see you again.” she apologized softly.  He shook his head and
set
the painting carefully down next to the bed.
	“It is wonderful, now you will always have something to
remember these times after next week.” her smile dropped a notch
remembering the impending wedding looming silently in the
distance.  This time she didn’t care, her sister and mother were
the
last thing on her mind.

	The moon was peaceful that night, the battle seemed to die
down for the time being.  The prince and princess fell asleep in
one another’s arms, neither of them aware of the trouble that
the
approaching dawn would bring with the sunrise.

	~ To be continued... ~

	It’s not a cliffie!  *rereads ending* well it might be a little
but nothing like last time!  Next chapter: expect war and death
with a little bit of romance mixed in for fun!  Be there!  Why
am I
using so many exclamation points?!  I don’t know!

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