These are two poems I wrote shortly after I lost Taylor....
I'll never get to
hear,see,smell
He's gone
I never got to hear
him cry, laugh,
say "Mommy"
I'll never get to see
him learn to walk,
first day of school,
him become something,
someone
I'll never get to smell
the baby powder smell
All newborns have
I'll never get to tuck him in at night
Assure him that there's no
monsters
Under the bed, in the closet
I never got to hold him
change him, dress him,
bathe him, feed him
And I'll never get to.
WHY ME
Why me
What did I do wrong
To make Him
Take my baby from me
I tried to do
everything right
It's not fair
My baby was healthy
He was fine
Just born to early
Why did he die
Yet other babies
born to druggies
every day
Who should the blame
be put on
Me
did I do something wrong
The doctors,
they said everything was fine
My family,
the pressure I was under
was unbearable
Maybe the blame is for
everybody, yet nobody
Only one thing is certain
My baby is gone
and I can't do
anything about it
Maybe it's better
This way
For them, not me
Society's wrong
has been righted
I'll never know why
He took my baby from me
I never will
I just wish
I did know
Why me
You are listening to "Wind Beneath My Wings" by Bette Midler