God gave Cotey to us to take care of for such a short time, but He gave him to us to love for a lifetime. My time without him has been so full of pain. My arms have ached since the day that I lost him. I am a Christian woman and have always had a strong faith in the Lord. Admittedly, in the past, I did not always live according to God's Will. With much rejoicing, I am proud to say that I am now living for Christ each day. To continue, I always assumed that He was with me through this tragedy, though I had never ASKED Him there. Only recently, did I realize that I must invite the Lord into every aspect of my life. I could not heal from my pain without Him. I asked the Lord to please help me with this unbearable pain. Instantly, I felt a peace that I have never felt before.

That night, the Lord spoke to me. He said, "Do not Dwell on the Despair of this tragedy, use your experience to help others." God did not stop there. The next night, He sent Cotey to me in a dream. I heard a little voice say, "Mommy." I sat up and there was my son. He said, "My mommy is a survivor," and then he was gone. I knew that I was going to make it and I know that you will, too.