He saw me look out and into the sky
he saw me drown,
and then swim frantically to shore
yet he watched, and then smiled some
didn’t try to save me
didn’t try to rescue me

and I fell in love with his smile
and I fell in love with his words

but what had he whispered the night,
that I had silently died?
And how had the winds brought me those words?

I dressed myself up, all alone
I paced, I took care of my day and of my duties
what had to be done, was done cause of him
nights spent alone in my bed,
was spent from the lack of his honesty.

And believe it or not, I still loved
and with those occasional spur’s of truth,
I kept on loving.
I cant do this anymore
I imagined his life.
I imagined his life with me
then I grew silent. Made my heart silent.
Didn’t know what to say to calm myself down.

But what made him so cruel not to help?
And how had those insights saved,
him while he was in danger?

Truthfully, my ambitions were something bigger..
something brighter,
but his eyes seemed to be the best light to rely on
something to comfort,
and his smile was much more than that

My comfort became my fear
that pain became my death trap

while I nearly reached death,
he didn’t give a second glance
anyhow, who am I to question these petty thoughts?
Promises and lies, over and over.
My thoughts of betrayal will kill my fantasy

now I smile with my deception and take upon
the adventures of the night sky
I ride the night so fast, that I forget the ocean
the sea that lies beneath me

His eyes still look at me,
his eyes have the brightest light
they pierce through my thoughts,
and I cant help but miss his moves,
the divinity of love, brings me back.
Back to my shore, back to my island.
And into the memories of my love poem.