ept. 5th, my mom lost her struggle with Alzheimer's Disease. This day will forever be engrained in my memory. It is the day I realized how much I could hate and love at the same time. I never could say that I hated anything before now, but I hate this disease. Not for just me, but for the millions of other victims and their families. I so love my momma, I use present tense because she is not totally gone from me. I still have her memory and I have her spirit all around me and I guess to be honest it is still hard to accept that she is gone.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond’s glint on the snow.
I am the gentle autumn’s rain,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
When you waken to the morning’s hush, I am the swift uplifting rush of
quiet birds in circling flight,
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.


When I think of my mom before she had Alzheimer's, I am able to remember her when she was well, happy and full of life. In the recent past, when I would think of her, it was her illness that consumed me. Now that she is gone, I am able to once again think of her well. Those thoughts and the memories she gave me will be a guiding force in my life, forever.

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The beautiful memorial placque was made by Lady J