My Cyber-Journal
This is my journal of my life's adventures
All material here may be dull, but it is Family Rated
September 21, 1998
Saturday September 19th I enrolled in a Shaolin Kung
Fu school to learn the art of, you guessed, Kung
Fu . This is the school my daughter has been going to for
some time. Why Kung Fu, you ask?
My life is pretty well balanced in all areas except
the physical. I read so much at work that I don't read anymore
at home for recreation... the reading part of my brain has
been worn out by nearly constant use during the day. The analytical
part of my brain, well that's also beaten silly by the end of the day as
I do software PC and Macintosh desktop support and after 8 hours of having
my brain strained it does a nice flat-line impression.
So I watch entirely too much television as a result and after 8 hours of
work "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" is really about my speed ;-)
I'm a washout in disciplining myself to exercise.
I like taking long walks and I even found a nice park by the beach to do
an after work walk. I even kept a T-shirt and pair of shorts
in my truck to eliminate the clothing excuse. But,
alas, the lazy side of my nature prevails often enough that
I sometimes go walking only twice month when I really need two or three
a week.
So I'm going to try Martial Arts. Shaolin
Kung Fu, or as it's often called Gung Fu,
is one of if not the most disciplined forms of the Martial Arts.
Discipline will be annoying but good for me. Another reason
is it's something that my daughter and I can do together. I'm
sure that will help get me there. I'll let you know how things
go...
"Clinton: the Video Testimony" came out today.
I wasn't surprised. In fact I wouldn't have been surprised
4 years ago as I don't depend on the mainstream media for my perception
of current events. I won't say much except to Quote Rush Limbaugh...
He Said : "I told you so"
September 23, 1998
Last night I did it. I went to my first
Kung Fu lesson. I was surprised... I didn't pass
out, get sick to my stomach, or die.
A "friend" asked me "Kung Fu, At your age?
This another Mid-Life Crisis?" Maybe... However,
It's a healthy one and a bit of strict discipline won't hurt me at all,
even at my age. Another "friend" asked me why I couldn't have
a "normal" mid-life crisis and buy a sports car or date a woman half my
age. I responded "If you still think there's anything
normal
about
me you haven't been paying attention." Thanks to my "friends"
I'm beginning to get a complex about the mid-life crisis thing.
Yeah... Thanks "friends".
My first advice about the Martial arts is:
Start when you are young. Getting my 40+ year old body to kick
shoulder level was a challenge. By the end of the lesson I
was kicking chest high, to my great surprise. Of
course after an intense 1 hour workout I was hardly able to stagger to
my truck and today I know where EVERY muscle in my legs are.
I met the other Master at the school.
I had only talked to him on the phone before. Grace,
another "friend", had told me that Martin (pronounced
Mar-Teen) was like a Marine Corps Drill Sergeant in the way
he barked orders out and was very strict in his discipline.
Well, Martin is strict but nothing like a Marine Corps Drill
Sergeant. I know exactly what a Drill Sergeant is like as I'm
an ex-marine. All DIs (short for Drill Instructors) have to
have a mandatory brain operation to remove all kindness, and
nothing is left except pure meanness. Now that's just my own
pet theory but I wouldn't be surprised to see an X-Files episode on it.
Martin is strict and does bark orders. He also is an excellent
teacher, having great patience and is very good at demonstrating
things so that they are grasp able. Maybe some would find Martin
a bit mean but, hey, I'm not studying charcoal
drawing and Martin fits my idea of what a good Martial Arts Instructor
should be.
I'll continue to update as often as possible now
that I've decided to turn this former "What's New" page into a public journal.
If you are looking for steamy details, you will have to go
to the Starr Report or elsewhere as I'm not a steamy sort of guy.
September 25, 1998
This will be a short entry as it's Friday at 5:30
pm and after I'm done I'm going home for the weekend. I didn't
make it to Kung Fu thursday night as I had planned. Did some
re-evaluation of my fitness level and this weekend I need to revise my
diet, get some good exercise in, and change some
bad habits like watching too much TV.
I'm not giving up on Kung Fu. My daughter
is depending on me for Tuesday nights so I'll be there at least once a
week. This weekend my kids are going to Yosemite National Park
with their mother which they are jazzed about. My daughter
was asking if possibly she could live there some day and I told her about
the student summer ranger assistant program they have. It's
room & board and only in the Summer but if I were young I'd do it in
a flash. My daughter was heartbroken by the bad news that she
has to be 18 to do it.
It will be a quiet weekend without my kids and if
the boredom doesn't kill me I'll survive it. Let's see, new
tires for the truck (they are embarrassingly bald), front brake
pads, and new wiper blades should do it. You know
you're a Geek when you have to "survive" the weekend. ;-)
October 1, 1998
It's past mid week today and the first day of October.
After a cruelly hot summer that had been proceeded by the worst rainstorms
in six years it's finally acting like Fall now. One pet peeve
I've always had with Southern California is the weather. In
summer it's predictable... Hot. But in the Fall,
Winter, or Spring anything can happen. For instance,
you leave for work wearing a coat and end up carrying it around all day
after about 9 am. Or it doesn't rain for ages and the one day
you leave your umbrella at home... Okay, Okay,
It's out of my system now.
Monday when I got up I noticed a slight swelling
just under my jaw on both sides. It felt very slightly tender
although I felt completely fine otherwise. I was a tiny bit
concerned yet my Manhood ;-) prohibited
even the vaguest thought of seeing a doctor at that point.
After all, I wasn't dying! Well, to
continue my ramblings... Tuesday morning was different.
I hadn't slept at all well and woke up with one of those dull just barely
there types of headaches. When I looked in the mirror I was
really startled. I was very definitely swollen under both sides
of my jaw and also back on either jaw joint by my ears (I'm a computer
tech... NOT a doctor). I looked like some sort
of alien, mutant man amphibian I was swollen so badly.
Mumps? At my age? I went to work and after
doing my e-mail, returning phone messages and all the drudge
stuff of office work I visited Sumi, the on-site company nurse.
So I bit the bullet and saw my doctor that same morning.
Actually, to be perfectly honest Sumi, the company
nurse made me leave and not come back until I had seen a doctor and was
okayed to return to work. Wasn't Mumps. And wasn't
dangerous so I went back to work yesterday and except for a constant ecccch
taste in my mouth and the swelling around my jaw felt perfectly fine.
Doc did forbid me from going to Kung Fu Tuesday night and I didn't,
which surprised me as I'm not normally so compliant. By this
afternoon the swelling has gone mostly down and I'm feeling well.
Even the eccch taste is fading.
I'm looking forward to a fun weekend with my kids.
Last weekend they were at Yosemite so I had to do things like new tires
on truck, etc. This weekend I get to play.
I've found that a man acting silly and immature by himself ends up getting
the stares with head wagging routine, whereas a man acting
in an identical or even worse way with his kids gets smiles of approval.
I love to play with my kids!
October 7, 1998
Things are slow at work, the pre layoff
sort of slow. It's a busy time in my life, though.
I just got published twice, once in my company's newsletter
and once in the computer club newsletter, which is quite a
thrill every time it happens. Plus I found the local newspapers
had printed one of my letters to the editor. I'm not a fan
of Clinton and I tend to write very opinionated letters to Congresspersons
and Newspapers.
Kung Fu is going well. I'm doing things
now I couldn't three weeks ago. I really enjoy my Tuesday evenings
at Kung Fu being tortured by the Master. Charis is progressing
so rapidly she may be a black belt before she's 18.
Got another picture of the kids to put up here.
It's one of Charis feeding her pet T-Rex with her brother.
I'll put it up as soon as I can get it scanned.
October 20, 1998
It's been almost two weeks since the last update.
Been busy, and that keeps me out of trouble. November
6th, 7th, and 8th is the Men's Retreat for my church.
It'll be up at Arrowhead Springs, which the term "God's Country"
describes well. I'm really looking forward to it.
I suspect it will be a good one as all kinds of minor, annoying
things have been happening lately and when one is a Christian such things
do seem to happen to spoil a good thing. Awareness and prayer
works.
It is said that the Mothers nurture the children
and Fathers play with their children. I take being a Father
very seriously with always the fear that I did this or that wrong.
However, I also have loads of fun. This weekend
we did everything from watching a Blacksmithing (that's right...
1800's style) Class to visiting the "Teahouse on the Internet"
to do some cyber-surfing. It was interesting that there were
more women students in the Blacksmithing class than men. My
Daughter, when asked about if she'd like to learn Blacksmithing
said "Maybe some day" My son thought this Web site was "cool",
especially when I downloaded (which he insisted on calling
"Stealing") some pictures of Godzilla, Titanic,
and a Red Classic Mustang and added them to this site before their eyes.
Just don't tell them I'm a geek... they don't know yet
;-)
Kung Fu is getting easier. Well,
either easier or I'm numb or not getting as sore now. I'm still
at the very basic of exercises yet but the benefits of fitness and honing
my balance make it worth every torturous moment.
October 29, 1998
Plans have solidified for the Men's Retreat.
I'm going to take off work early on Friday the 6th (my boss said OKAY)
and meet 8 or so friends at church to go up in a Motor home.
If we leave at 1pm we will be up there about 2:30 and plan to hang out
at a coffee shop until the other 30+ men arrive. The weather,
if it stays like it is now, will be perfect.
Had a nice experience earlier this week.
I always park on the 3rd level of the parking structure as I have a semi
desk job and I need every bit of exercise I can get. I started
walking down the stairs without holding on the rail or even thinking about
it, like a person with "normal" balance would.
I hadn't been able to do anything like that since 1978 or so.
It's great to have a normal sense of balance even if I really can't claim
normalcy in any other area.
This Halloween Charis and Isaac will Trick or Treat
with their Mother in their new neighborhood. I plan to stay
home and pass out goodies to the little urchins that brave the long walk
up my driveway. I'm going to make a spido-lantern,
in other words a jack-o-lantern hung from the porch roof having eight scary
legs attached. To top it off some dry ice in water for horror
movie fog effect and me answering the door in full Klingon makeup and costume.
It's easy to get into the Klingon part. All I've got to do
is be in an eternal bad mood, have zero manners,
and growl a lot. My kids say I'm a natural. My
kids won't be with me but I'll have fun anyway.
November 11, 1998
Had a great time at the Men's retreat. There were
well over 200 men at the retreat, 32 from my church alone.
Thursday the 5th I decided not to go to work Friday morning and work until
noon as I had planned. So I got up "Whenever" and walked
across the street to get aboard the motor home at 1pm My church
is a 5 minute stroll from my house.
We arrived at the Arrowhead Springs conference center
shortly after 3pm. Good time considering we even stopped for
a snack in San Bernardino. By 4:30 I'd already done the very
steep 5 minute climb up to the main hotel for sightseeing with some friends.
Arrowhead Springs is a really beautiful place. Some brief highlights:
Friday and Saturday nights there were meetings with good speakers and music
by a little known but very talented vocal group called "Poor Baker's Dozen"
I wouldn't be surprised to hear more from "Poor Baker's Dozen" in the future.
Those 6 guys (get it? "Poor Baker's Dozen"?) are kinda like a barbershop
quartet + 2 but sing modern music. One song they did use instruments.
They beat the drums, or more precisely one plastic and one
metal trash can.
Saturday I swam in the pool, a large
one built in the '40s that is naturally heated by the water from the hot
springs. I stayed in until hunger finally drove me out.
The water was nice and warm but in winter even California gets cold and
the pool is outdoors. Sunday I had the pure joy of singing
in the choir for Sunday Morning Service.
So I had some good spiritual soul therapy,
met new friends and deepened others, and brought back a cold.
Remember the Saturday swim? I had to walk down the hill in
wet trunks after I'd finally gotten out of the pool. It
was all worth it.
The elections were a big disappointment.
Well, here in California with the new liberal governor we can
expect higher taxes and more big brother in our lives. Too
bad the conservatives didn't turn out to vote.
Yesterday I didn't feel well enough to go to Kung
Fu. Instead of calling my daughter Charis to cancel I dropped
by for a hug. Charis talked me into taking her out to dinner
(didn't take all that much talking) and so we waited for Isaac to get home
and we went to Carl's for burgers. I missed my kids even though
I'd seen them only a week and two days before.
November 17, 1998
Weekend is over. Knott's Berry Farm,
a Southern California amusement park had a "Veterans Day",
or more precisely a Veterans free admission week(s) from Nov 3rd to Nov
17th. Last year I'd taken my kids by myself and ended up not
going on the best rides as my son is a bit intimidated by the scariest
rides (he's only seven) This time I asked a friend,
Dimitri, along as my guest and the four of us got in free.
Dimitri brought one of his friends, Sydney and her three children
in. All 8 of us had a great time. We got there
at about 2pm and didn't leave until almost midnight. Took plenty
of pictures with my new camera.
I got to go on all the best rides. My
Daughter Charis, Sydney's two children Candace and Arthur and
yours truly went off to find the ultimate ride.
I believe I've found the ultimate (for now) ride.
It's called the "Supreme Scream" and it's about a football field high.
The ride lifts you to the top sitting hanging out over space and then blasts
you towards the ground. I'm not exaggerating the "Blasts" bit,
The ride slams you at the ground with at least a G of acceleration.
It's far faster than you could fall the same distance. I and
my pack of little friends rode many other rides.
Friday night, before we went to Knott's
I bought a Camera. It's one of those point and shoot 35 mm
pocket cameras that my kids will be able to use also. Seems
the feature wars in the 35 mm market has made even a less than $100 camera
full of every feature I could want. It's got all the right
stuff like 32-70mm Zoom, 6 mode flash, auto focus,
auto film advance, and even came with a rugged shoulder strap/belt
loop carrying case that survived the "Supreme Scream" and all else Knott's
had to throw at it.
Sunday we went to the Kellogg house (no relation
to the cereal Kellogg's), which is a museum now.
It was built in the late 1800's after the California gold rush and people
started settling in what is now Santa Ana. Mr. Kellogg was
an Architect and Amateur scientist who designed and built his dream house
and raised his family there. The house has a very beautiful
spiral staircase in the center that is designed around a ship's mast and
has all the 1880's style features such as gables, a porch with
columns, and a Widow's Walk on the roof. Took some
pictures of Charis and Isaac dressed up in 1880's style clothes and doing
1880ish things.
Found out a secret to feeling young...
run with a pack of kid's a quarter of your age and go ahead...
do an insane thing or two, like the "Supreme Scream".
I believe most of "old age" is psychological. Regardless of
all that I REFUSE to grow up! I'm having too good a time.
November 25, 1998
Found that additions to the Web Site with the new
Office '97 I just was upgraded to, well let's put it this way...
I might soon be in danger of running out of space on this web site and
have to upgrade that too.
I've added this week a Fun Places! and a PHOTO
ALBUM from Monday to Today (3 days). It may not be quite
as high quality as by hand but I'm able to do weeks of work in two days
The ShaoLin Kungfu has really changed everything
about my health and balance. I don't have any ethical issues
as the ShaoLin way is far surpassed by what Christianity demands of me.
It's interesting how what ShaoLin teaches: character,
non-violence, and discipline is right along with the stuff
I ought to be doing anyway. Strange that overall mankind sees
value in the same things and calls wrong the same things...
I'm not sure what I'll be doing for Thanksgiving
as I don't have any plans yet. It won't be hard to find plenty
to be thankful for
Have a Happy Thanksgiving
December 11, 1998
I've been busy. Last Journal Entry was
"Have a Happy Thanksgiving" and now it's only 14 days until Christmas!
It's been busy at work and we just received a rumor that part of the plant
may stay open indefinitely. And after I finished the dreaded
Christmas shopping I can start really enjoying the Season
Got the Christmas Tree up. The kids and
I found one of those Christmas tree farms and hunted down and bagged our
tree. Named it Pokey the Tree as it didn't move very fast to
try escaping. Perhaps it was too fat. ;-) Then the day after
the Christmas tree went up, last Sunday in the wee hours of the morning
a "micro burst" took the shade tree with the almost 2 foot trunk down.
Broke it in half about 12 feet up the trunk and the tossed the top half
into the driveway almost on top of the cars. The same "Micro
burst" took the next door neighbor's carport and collapsed it onto his
cars. The news people called it a "Micro burst",
which to a X-Files fan like me says they have no clue what happened.
They said a "Micro burst" is similar to a tornado without the funnel.
A tornado IS a funnel so... What are they saying?
So about 4:30 in the morning me and my room mates were standing outside
looking at the mess and trying to blame it on someone so it would get cleaned
up ;-)
I joined a Single Parent's Club on Yahoo.
Then in what may have been a momentary bit of insanity I joined a Single
Parent's Dating Club on Yahoo. I don't know if
I'll date but I met a great bunch of people I can relate to,
get crazy with, and work out personal issues.
I'm taking a month off of Kungfu. I'm
not really sure where I want to go with it and I need to get into better
shape and loose some weight. Besides, the monthly
fees could be put to better use this season. Now all I have
to do is get the exercise and stay away from the Christmas Cookies.
Sure thing!
Next week is my company's Christmas Party.
Not the company I work for but the company that pays me. Never
mind... It confuses me sometimes! It's going to
be at one of those Dinner Mystery Theaters when during the 3 course dinner
there is a murder and then all the fun of sleuthing it out.
(The play's the thing) It's going to be fun...
I just know it
One last bit of news. The "Ghostrider",
the over a mile long wooden roller coaster has just opened at Knott's Berry
Farm. Me and my fellow extreme ride lovers just gotta do it
soon.
A word of explanation. The picture of
that Creature in the Christmas Card with my two kids... that
's what happens when I put on my makeup before my morning cup of coffee
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
January 11, 1999
It's been a whole month since I've updated this Journal.
The Holidays were so much fun I didn't have time to. Did some
major work on my truck and now it's running great. The kids
had a great time and the weather was Sunny and Warm the whole time.
So far I've only had to void one check because of the wrong date.
This year I took PAID vacation for the whole
week from Christmas to New Year's. Was nice to get up "whenever"
but sure was rough the first week back at work. 5:30 in the
morning felt more like 2am when that nasty sounding alarm clock went off.
Last year (two weeks ago) was the first year I got
the dreaded Christmas shopping done two weeks before Christmas.
One Saturday when stopping by Wal-Mart to pick up the developed film we
even paused in the doorway and snickered at all the shoppers scurrying
about with their lists.
One of the presents Santa brought was a Youth Compound
Bow. My son is in Cub Scouts now and the deal I got on it was
just too nice. When my son saw it he said "Just
like Rambo's Bow". So much for how Hollywood Doesn't
influence
kid's. After strictly explaining to the Kids that the Bow was
NOT
a toy and strictly charging them never to shoot it anywhere
Except
on a range I proceeded to loose one of the arrows in the backyard
after they had gone with my ex to their Grandmother's house.
So I sheepishly had to explain to the kids what happened and how daddy
had been "Stupid in a no-stupid zone" My son found the arrow
a week later... it was about 6 feet from where I'd aimed, buried
23 inches in the grass with only an inch showing. Well,
they believe me now when I say it's a powerful Bow... but my
Daughter chided me about not doing what I say.
My kids wanted me to take a picture of myself as
a Klingon. I do the latex and stage makeup for Star Trek alien
species as sort of a hobby. So I did the makeup one morning
and posed for a picture with my kids.
For fun I put that picture up in my Yahoo profile and now I'm getting invitations
to join every Trekker club on Yahoo... Arrrgh!
I kind of miss the Martial Arts. Kung
Fu is overly athletic for me (44+) and I'll be looking into a less demanding
form that I can excel in. Something my size and weight is a
plus in. My brother Mike has a Black Belt in a
different form and I think I'll have a chat with him.
As for the Murder Mystery Dinner... the
Italian Ex-Con did it with a selective poison, one that would
work on one particular person and was harmless to everyone else.
Was really fun!
February 22, 1999
I'm now studying HapKido . It's
a Korean form of the Martial Arts from the 14th century that was handed
down from generation to generation in the Korean Royal Family.
It means The Way (DO) of Power (KI) and Coordination
(HAP)
.
I've been studying for a month now under Timothy Nguyen.
Hapkido
is a comprehensive martial art, emphasizing kicking and punching as
well as joint locks, throws, chokes, take-downs, and the use of pressure
points. It's strenuous but that's what I need.
A fellow student informed me that I'd likely be sore all over until I attained
Yellow Belt. I'm sure she meant well
Well, that deal that was just "too nice" on the Youth
Compound Bow just ended up costing me $375. I'd taken the Youth
Compound Bow down to the archery range to adjust the sights and at least
get them into the ballpark and found out that archery was really fun.
So I got to thinking I'd like a full sized bow of my own to play with.
Pondering it I decided wanted a high powered hunting bow so started looking
around. Then a friend showed me a $480 Compound bow in a discount
catalog for $179. So after buying the bow and all the little
things that go with it (sights, a quiver, arrows, arm guard and shooting
glove) I'm now $375 poorer but hey, men and their toys... I've
put it together and adjusted it, all I need to do now is learn
how to shoot it!
It's the year of the cat. Saturday the
kids and I went to Little Saigon (about 2 miles away) and joined in the
Tet Festival (Chinese New Year). It was a beautiful day and
we had a great time. Got almost trampled by a Dragon (all in
fun of course)
I'm back to singing again. Since I started
going to Nutwood Street Baptist I've wanted to join the worship team,
yet I just somehow felt it wasn't time. Then last Sunday the
Pastor remarked (again) how there wasn't much representation by men in
the worship team. So I spoke with Mike (a friend and the drummer)
and asked him when the practice was. Right after the service
Tim, the Guitarist stopped me and told me he was looking forward
to having me in the group and this AM I got an e-mail from Gayle,
the Pianist welcoming me also. Being in the Worship Team is
considered a "Ministry" but I love singing so much that to me its's a whole
lot of fun.
I was thinking yesterday about all the changes that
have happened to me, especially in the last year.
My family of origin didn't give me a whole lot of tools with which to deal
with life. Lately I've been very stable, starting
and finishing projects and feeling peaceful when obstacles come my way
(like they always do). I feel very free of emotional hurts
that had plagued me in the past. Y'Think I might finally,
at 44, be growing up?
April 1, 1999 (April Fool's Day)
It's been more than a month again. Guess
that will be the average for my journal updates. I've been
busy, which is good. Keeps me out of trouble and
makes time go by quickly. In the past month there has been
3 birthdays, a camping and volcano exploring trip, the completion
of my compound hunting bow, and of course Hapkido and singing.
I've joined a number of hunting and archery clubs on the Internet and am
really looking forward to this weekend... it's Easter Sunday,
of course but also it's the "spring forward" day (end of daylight savings)...
I'll get back to that.
Our Birthdays all fall within 2 1/2 weeks (Feb 28th-March
17th). Three birthday cakes make it a rough time to diet.
Then there's that 2 1/2 week period where both kids are either odd or even
which causes strife with who gets to sit next to Daddy, ect.
This year for my birthday presents to my kids I took them each on $50 shopping
trips. Isaac wanted toys. Cars, walkie talkies, airplanes,
kites, and a few odds and ends made up his shopping spree.
My daughter, being a bit older, bought some shoes,
some beauty supplies and a cassette tape or two.
The 2nd weekend of March we went on a camping trip.
It was to a real live Ghost Town named Calico. It was
a weekend camp out with my son's cub scout camp and since their mother
had a all weekend class that weekend I took him. My daughter
came along as it's allowed. We all had a great time.
Saturday of the camping trip we all caravanned our
cars (trucks, vans, ect) to Pisgah volcano, which was about
30 miles East along I40. We learned from the troop leader,
a fully qualified geologist/vulcanologist, all about the various
types of lava. The first serious scientific studies of volcanos
were done in Hawaii. So it follows that the names for all the
varied types of lava are Hawaiian. An example is Aih! Aih!
,
which is the sound a typical Hawaiian would make while walking barefoot
across a field of this rough type of lava. I'm NOT kidding!
Aih! Aih! is the official scientific name!
My Daughter and I also did some serious volcanic
spelunking (underground exploration), which was quite an adventure.
Lava is either blown out of the top of a volcano or flows out at the base
of the cone. When it flows out of the base it commonly creates
lava tubes where the outside lava cools and hardens while the inner lava
drains out, leaving long mostly straight tubes that you can
crawl down into and explore. My daughter and I went all the
way to the end of such a tube (about 300 yards of very rough crawling),
took pictures and signed the guest book. The guest book was
standard school notebook paper with about a year's visitors per page.
Not exactly a frequent tourist spot.
Calico Ghost town was fun. There were
old mines to explore, gunfights to avoid, and even an awesome gent who
played a really mean ragtime piano. (I consider anyone good
who knows the Basin Street Blues) He even knew the Lyrics!
My daughter did some gold panning and my son and I enjoyed the many gunfights
and brawls (one per hour). I'd recommend Calico Ghost Town
to anyone who happens to be in the Barstow, California (desert)
area. It's lots of fun and it's so far out of the way it's
not crowded like Disneyland. I'll put a Fun Places page up
here some time soon.
My singing in the worship team is something I really
look forward to. There is now about 7 regular singers.
Being so exposed vocally like that took a little getting used to but I'm
there and I really look forward to Sundays.
Hapkido is a bit rough now. I've had
this lingering chest cold that really takes the wind out of my sails on
a workout and has been really slowing me down. After I work
out I reap all kinds of benefits, though.
It had been a really long time since I last camped
out. The first night we were there it got down to 37 degrees.
During the night I half woke up feeling cold and it seemed for the longest
time I was "trying to reboot the environmental computer" which had "locked
up and disabled the heater". Finally I woke up fully realizing
I was in a sleeping bag in a tent and there wasn't any heaters,
environmental control computers, nor even electricity!
So I found a low tech solution to my dilemma, putting my coat on and crawling
back into my sleeping bag
This weekend we loose an hour of sleep as daylight
savings time "Springs forward". Next week I'll have almost
two whole hours every day after work I can stop by the Archery range on
the way home. I'm really jazzed about that.
It's been a fun day with all the "April Fool" practical
jokes going around. I really won't go into it here but...
well you just had to be there.
So until next time
April 12, 1999
Almost tax day. A Quote by G K Chesterton:
Nowadays a citizen can hardly distinguish between a tax and a fine,
except that a fine is generally much lighter. This year
I'm only short $600 and it won't torpedo my whole summer like it did last
year. Not that taxes are less this year... I just
had more taken out. Enough of that vile subject.
I'm really looking forward to getting off work today.
Not that work is totally abhorrent, but there are things that
I would much rather do. Last week I made it to the range twice
after work and all morning Saturday with my kids. My bow is
complete now. All the adjustments to fit it to me have been
done and the only down side is my shoulder is sore. The bow
is consistently accurate and very powerful. My goal is to be
able to hit a 3" circle consistently from all hunting distances by fall.
Easter Sunday was a great service. We
had a breakfast at the church before the service and the Pastor's message
was on second chances. Two people gave their testimonies on how God
had given them a second chance at life. I can relate...
this is a great second chance that I'm living now.
With Daylight Saving time ending it's officially
spring. All last week it rained off and on. Saturday
was absolutely perfect. Then Sunday comes along and it rains
all day. Well, maybe California weather isn't all that bad.
Seems that we had sunshine when it was really needed.
Sunday A police officer knocked on my front door.
He just stopped by to let me know I'd left my headlights on.
Does Garden Grove, California have a great police force or
what?
Looks like the weather is finally going to warm up
for good. Now that I've got all the stuff for camping we will
be going as often as can be.
Gee, ran out of things to say.
Either that or I'm just not remembrin' too good. Must be that
Monday virus that's going around. Yep, must be
the Monday Beginning of Spring Bug.
April 20, 1999
With tight budgeting I've managed to pay the $250+
I owed on state taxes. I filed an Automatic Extension with
the Feds to take the financial pressure off. There are 4 months
to save up the about $300 I owe there.
Archery has been a learning experience.
I've been going to the range three times a week and have even upped my
bow's draw weight 4 pounds (to 60#). Found that it's just about
impossible to shoot a high performance dual cam bow without a mechanical
release. Also found the Camouflage arrows are very hard to
find in the grass. Next order will be bright Orange!
I'm getting tight groups now and learning to adjust my bow correctly,
which with a dual cam compound is tricky.
Put some photo new albums on the web site.
I have figured out a better way to use Microsoft Power Point '97 to create
photo albums. I'll add more albums as I get the time.
My daughter, 11, loves Power Point. She also wants to do some
web page work so I'll spend some time with her to get her started.
Maybe I'll even put Office '97 on her Mom's laptop so she can get creative
on the Internet.
The weather is great. I usually eat lunch
in my truck on the top floor of the parking garage. The view
of the beach from there is awesome. After work I'll be stopping
at the archery range until it gets too dark to see. Then I'll
go home.
April 30, 1999
On the 20th I said "The weather is great".
Stopped being great the next day. Funny how spring in Southern
California is far colder than winter was. I just put another
photo album up here with a picture taken in Early December with the kids
wading barefoot in a stream.
The "Taxing Season" is almost over. Next
week the cash flow thing gets back off the ground and "God willin' an the
river doan rise" (Quote by the Duke, John Wayne)
we will have warm weather AND the funds to enjoy it. What a
concept! Just had a laugh. I typed "casK-flow"
instead of "casH-flow"! "K" is sort of next to
"H" Hope that wasn't a Freudian slip.
I just figured out that I'm too busy for dating.
So I "unjoined" the two dating clubs on Yahoo I'd joined a while back.
Wasn't participating anyway. So I joined several hunting clubs
and a church musician's club.
In July my son's cub scout troop is camping in the
Sierras. I'm looking forward to it. I've also got
two days vacation now and when it warms up me and the kids are heading
for the beach for a long weekend.
My archery is going very well. My shooting
is getting consistent now. I've been cranking up the bow's
draw weight 4 pounds a week. It's been getting very difficult
to pull the arrows out of the target, which is what I want.
Need more arrows as out of the first dozen are now only four left.
The high points of my week are Wednesday night and
Sunday Morning. I love singing in the worship team/band.
My daughter likes to join us during practice and sing with her "daddy".
We'll have to do a duet sometime
May 5, 1999
This will be a short update. Several
good things have happened since last week.
I've got a new computer on my desk. I
had to fix it first (that's what I do for a living) but it's got twice
the speed and twice the memory. A virus scan that used to take
30 minutes on my old PC now takes about 8. The extra power
is nice with Graphics and I can open many things at once. With
my old PC often I'd have to close programs to open others.
In the last week things fell into place in a big
way with my bow. I've been very consistently hitting the target
from all ranges from 10 yards to 30 all week. It's months before
hunting season starts so I think I'll be ready. My brother
has a hunting bow and hopefully we can get together on the range soon.
It's Cinco de Mayo, the Mexican Independence Day.
The defense contractor I work for put on a feast (free food) with a Mariacachi
band on the patio. The weather is almost perfect today and
the shindig is out on the patio in the sun. The food is great
(there goes the diet) and the Chili Rellano was to die for.
Perhaps I'll go for thirds ;-)
May 21, 1999
It's been a little over two weeks since "Cinco de
Mayo" or the "5th of May" or Mexican Independence day. My new
computer is working well. I also have a new Macintosh.
My previous MAC died a very sudden death so my boss told me to pick a MAC
that was going to surplus and upgrade it with whatever I wanted from other
surplus MAC's (scavenge). So I went crazy and now
have a very "built" MAC. Next thing is to take over the world!
Just Kidding!
Weather has been warmer. Not beach warm
but great hiking weather. Last weekend the kids and I went
to Santiago Oaks park and hiked about 10 miles, skipped rocks
on the water at the old dam, avoided Poison Oak and Rattle
Snakes, and generally had a very nice day. Santiago
Oaks park is only 15 miles from my home. I'll put up photos
soon.
Santiago Oaks Park has a trail that goes to Irvine
Park, the other big regional park in the area.
Soon the kids and I are going to arrange to be dropped off at one so we
can hike to the other.
Charis was in a play at her Elementary school called
"Krazy Camp". She sang very beautifully a cute song about how
boys were always playing pranks and how utterly hateful they were.
It's almost time to pick up my kids so...
gotta go.
June 18, 1999
I originally started this update on June 11th (
LAST Friday ) but I was so overwhelmed by a huge flood of problems
with the new e-mail system (Lotus Notes) that I never got it finished until
now. So I changed the date and here it is.
It's final. The place I work will be
closing it's doors in 8 months. I may be here for anywhere
from 2 months to 6. I work for a really good (best I've ever
heard of) contract agency and I'm not worried about unemployment.
It will be sad to leave the friends I've made over the last couple of years
and I do love to watch the surf while eating lunch. Lately
my marketable skills have increased considerably and I doubt if I will
get much time off between assignments.
My EX and I will likely end up in court.
I won't go into it as this is a public forum and my Daughter reads this
but withholding visitation is not tolerable.
I joined a Christian Single Parents club earlier
this week and when typing in the address for this Web site as an introduction
to who (or what) I am I made a typo and typed 8278 instead of 8279.
Weird typo as a fellow member in the club found it was His church's web
page... in Florida! This virtual
stuff is somewhat unnerving at times.
I'll try to update more frequently as times are treacherous.
Pray for me. I need to take the EX to court over withholding
visitation and I miss my kids, who are the most important to
me.
June 29, 1999
It's slow here at work. The network just
went down in a major way. I can't even get the Macintosh in
my office to talk to my NT workstation.... That just changed.
Now I can get across my office and even to the big computers in the next
room. Oh well, I was hoping to go home early.
The visitation issue is "sort of" resolved with my
EX. I don't think I'll write anymore about that issue.
I probably shouldn't have put it up here in the first place.
It's summer... officially.
Tomorrow I'll be playing Volleyball at the beach. Some of the
ladies from church challenged our men's group to a match. So
we are doing the beach cookout/volleyball thing. The winner
gets to play the youth.
The 14th through the 19th of July is the Cub Scout
camping and fishing trip in the mountains. We have our new
poles, our camping equipment, and we can hardly
wait.
My bow's string broke two weeks ago.
I had just drawn back the bow to shoot when I noticed the arrow had slipped
off of the string. Before I could let off pressure on the string
it fired. It's called "dry firing" and can be dangerous.
A hi-tech bow like that can actually shatter, imbedding shrapnel
in the shooter (me). So I was very lucky all that happened
was the string broke. Luckily there's a good archery shop right
down the street that does repairs. They not only replaced the
string for a reasonable price but even "tuned" the bow, which
is all the adjustments you have to make to get the bow to hit the target.
With a modern hi-tech bow it's a bit of an art.
Last weekend my kids and I did many things.
We went to a nature preserve and hiked, picked and ate wild
blackberries, rented a boat and took pictures of birds that
live on the bird sanctuary in the middle of the lake, and of
course ate, horsed around and the norm. Summer's
fun.
July 13, 1999
Tomorrow I start my vacation and won't be back until
next Monday. The kids and I are going to Huntington Lake,
which is in the mountains at 7000 feet. There's hiking,
trout fishing (really good!), swimming, canoeing,
and of course camping. We're going to have a blast.
July 26th, 1999
Vacation was awesome. When Sunday afternoon
came and it was packup and leave time, well we just didn't
wanna leave. Weather was perfect, campsite was
really beautiful, lake was great, fishing wasn't
good but all-in-all we had a great time
It was a long drive. We left at 5 in
the morning Friday and drove 2 hours to the top of what is called by Californians
the "Grapevine", which is the freeway pass over the mountains
to the north on Los Angeles. We stopped and ate breakfast at
the top.
After about 5 more hours of driving we arrived at
Huntington Lake at 7,000 feet in the Sierra mountains. Next
morning we rented a fishing skiff and motored around the lake for 5 hours.
We didn't catch any fish but we had fun with the boat and even ate lunch
on an island in the lake.
Camping was so fun we are going again this weekend.
Not to Huntington Lake (I Wish) but someplace much closer for an
overnighter.
Last weekend at Huntington lake I got my legs sun
burnt while boating. This weekend we went to the beach and
my feet now match the rest of my legs.
This weekend we will have 'Smores for desert after
dinner again. Interesting how kids never tire of 'Smores.
I've got my entire camping kit (complete kitchen + tent stuff) all packed
permanently in two 36 cubic foot stack able containers with large handles.
Takes me 5 minutes to load the truck for camping.
Summer is my favorite time of the year
August 6th, 1999
Our third camping trip worked out perfectly.
It took me 10 minutes to load up to leave before work on Friday and at
noon I left work to pick up the kids and by 1pm we were parking in the
campsite.
O'Neal Campground is not the nicest campground in
the area but it has the plus of being non reservation first come, first
served. We got one of the last few campsites left but, hey,
we were in.
So we did 'Smores, took a night hike (scary but exciting),
did some BB pistol shooting, ate, took showers to cool off often, and generally
really enjoyed the 24 hours we were there.
I got curious about what Netscape Composer did.
It's part of Netscape 4 and I found out it's a really cool HTML editor.
In fact I'm using it right now to update this.
I've been thinking. I don't recall ever
having so much fun in a summer before.
Just found out that 1) Netscape Composer has a spell
checker and 2) my spelling in the Journal has been really pathetic.
Sorry! (for the spelling)
September 14th, 1999
Finally I've moved into a decent place. I'd been having trouble for
sometime with my landlady and roomates. Won't go into it except to say there
was a lot of illegal activities that I didn't go along with nor participate in,
which made them uncomfortable.
I've got a room in a real nice mobile home in a family mobilehome park.
Two pools, 9 cats, a dog and Central Air conditioning make the place far nicer
than what I had. The kids will love it. I plan to not mention it this friday when
I pick them up. I'll just drive there and surprise them.
I have to buy furniture. My previous room was furnished so I'll need bedroom
stuff. Since I'm a bachelor I'll just do it in the modern batchelor style; Posters,
mismatched garage-sale furniture, cinder blocks with planks, and of course baseball
caps hangin' on the wall. Y'Know, a look that hides Pizza stains ;-)
Job's going okay. It's real slow as there aren't many people left to have computers
breakdown. I probably will be here untill next year as I'm the only PC tech left here.
Charis and Isaac are both back in school. My "little" girl isn't so little anymore...
she just started Junior High (they call it "Middle" school now)
Life is going well for me. I'm busier than ever with Worship band, my kids and
all the other oddball things I do and that happen to me each week.
So Bye for now and God bless
October 1st, 1999
I'm competely settled now. I found and bought all the furniture I needed, a bed,
a desk, and a dresser. The bed is a really neet single bed over a full size bunk bed that
really fits our needs. None of that "sleeping in a cave effect" when on the bottom bunk.
We are doing more exciting music in the worship band. We lately started having
longer practices and ocassionally even a Saturday practice and the results have been happening. This Sunday we will be singing several verses of "Amazing Grace" acapella (or Acapulco as some of us put it)
I'm hoping it will get hot next weekend so we can go camping at Doheny Beach.
It's working out living with Skip and Kelly. They love my kids (they have none
of there own... Yet) and the kids love them. The cats are even getting used to us.
I won't actually get to go Bowhunting as I'd hoped this year. For sure next
year. Too many things happening now that I just won't be ready for the Season start
this month. I'm getting quite good now at the shooting end of it. I hit the 3"
bullseye most of the time now at 30 yards WHEN I concentrate. Of course when I loose
my concentration... the arrow may go anywhere.
October 25th, 1999
Got the news last Monday (the 18th). I'm being "Downsized" this Friday.
Can't complain about the job, though. This "3 month" assignment lasted 3 years
and I am now experienced with just about everything having to do with personal computers.
I've got about 2 months pay saved up and I'm not too worried. This has been coming
for quite a long while so I'm ready for it.
I'll miss the people. I made a lot of friends here and over the last few months
I've said goodbye to many. The way I see it, loosing my office, computers, and job
is a small thing. Saying goodbye to all the friends is another story.
I actually feel okay this time. Being downsized has in the past been a real disaster.
The difference is that, knowing myself, I've been praying about the inevitable for 6
months now. God does answer prayers. Hope I'm off work at least long enough to sleep in
a day or two!
Oh, Yeah... Geocities just added another 4 megs space to my website... Free!
Guess I'll have to add some more stuff! Perhaps I'll give my daughter and son a bit of the
space. Would be fun.
October 29th, 1999
Today's the day. Yesterday was my farewell luncheon. Tradition is that the person
leaving gets to choose the restaurant. So we had lunch at Sabatino's in Newport Beach.
Sabatino's is one of those hole in the wall places that has just plain awsome food. Did
I say hole in the wall? Sabatinos is located in a business building between the small and
large shipyards on Lido Peninsula. The only reason I knew about it was I had worked in the
next building for 3 months. Sabatinos makes their own Italian Sausage, Breads and
Marinara Sauce that's, well one person at the luncheon who is a Gourmet food Connoisseur
told me I had seriously underated the place... and I'd felt like I was raving.
Today my daily access to the Internet ends. I'll try to update things as often as
possible and hopefully be able to fill the extra 4 megs of my webpage. I just checked and
it's been over a year since I've been doing this Journal. Time sure does fly!
I'm looking forward to the week after next. It's the annual Veteran's Day free
admission all week long at Knott's Berry Farm, our favorite amusment park (better than
Disneyland, IMHO). So me an' the kids are going at least once if not several days during
the week.
November 17th, 1999
Today I started a new job. I was contacted Monday by the contract agency I was
working for with a phone interview for PairGain. Yesterday I signed the contract paperwork
and today I started. I'll be working from 4pm 'till Midnight for a few days untill the Y2K
project is over and then I'll be doing the normal day shift. It certainly is nice to have
a skill that's in demand
Last week the kids and I spent most of the week hanging out at Knott's Berry farm.
All week Veterans and families got free admission so basically whenever the kids weren't in School we spent riding extreme rides.
The GhostRider rollercoaster, which hadn't been completed last November was now open.
Over a mile long and with several wieghtless drops I agree, it's got to be the best
roller coaster around.
So things are going well. Actually, it's good to be back at work as I had so much
to do when unemployed that I don't mind at all just working 8 hours a day!
January 26th, 2000
The clocks rolled over at midnight without a hitch. So I can feast on canned food
for the next 6 months. ;-) Actually, I didn't feel there would be much of a hitch
and I even said so in an artical I wrote on Y2K. The artical is here on the site.
My present contract job will end Friday of this week (The 28th) Myself and another
tech are being let go and tomorrow we are being taken out for Chinese at lunch.
Christmas and New Year's were fun. My church had a "Milleniun Celebration" Me and
my kids ate a great potluck meal, my daughter swing-danced untill she dropped, we sang and
prayed untill Midnight and then set the Church's parking lot ablaze (with legal fireworks!)
"Santa" bought me a CD player and a VCR. I found plenty of neet stuff to buy for my
kids.
Now it's doing the job search thing again. Last time I was only out of work 11
working days and God taught me to trust him. I hope I can find a permanent job somewhere
but I'll be happy with what I can get.
January 28th, 2000
Today's my last day at PairGain. This will likely be the last update for a while.
February 28th, 2000
First day at the new job. Just started at GR8RIDE.COM ( Great Ride )
as a Macintosh technician. Just love the license plate style name! GR8RIDE
is a part of McMullen Argus publishing.
I have been transferring back magazine issues from backup disks (Jazz) to
a Macintosh and then reducing the photo resolution by 2/3rds with Adobe Photoshop, a nifty
new program to use. G4 Macintoshes are sweet to work with.
Saw the Superbowl. On a 7ft by 12ft screen, thunderously loud through a
professional sound system, on one of a half dozen couches in the fellowship hall
of my church. We all brought football game munchies and all had a great time.
And the game couldn't get any better literally down to the last yard at the last second.
Pastor said we'll do it again next year!
Last Friday I stopped by the Salvation Army store across the street to look for
50's style clothes for a dance with my daughter. Found instead a Compaq Pentium 75
Computer for $149. A complete system including monitor! After spending another
$82 on a 52X CD drive, a sound card and speakers I now have a nice home computer that
I'm writing this on.
I'll finish telling about the last two weeks in a day or two. Some very amazing
things happened with God answering prayers in very generous ways (I'm so undeserving)
March 21st, 2000
The Original contract with GR8RIDE.com is ending this Friday the 24th. However,
I'll be working starting Monday at the Anaheim offices of GR8RIDE as a workflow manager
of some sort. I say some sort as they don't really know what needs to be done, it's
such a new company and such. I'll be pretty much creating my job and that's both exciting
and very scary. Yet somehow I trust that if I am here then I'll be ready. So Monday is
going to be all brand new.
Charis and Isaac both got bikes for their Birthdays and so I thought I'd check out
the 10 speeds at WalMart. They didn't have ANY ten-speeds. At least I didn't
notice any. So I started looking at the Mountain Bikes. And I bought one. 21 speeds,
front and rear spring suspension, Bright Yellow color, and lots of nice engineering.
All for $149! I had to do some major ajustments and spend some time riding but now I'm
ready to ride the Santa Ana river trail to the beach (an easy 12 miles). The kids and I
are planning to ride to the Beach next Saturday.
March 26th, 2000
My Daughter, Charis, needed to sing in a concert on Saturday, so we didn't
bike to the beach I'd planned. So my son and I rode all over two large parks in the area
for about 5 hours. I'm sore but I really enjoyed it. Next weekend my Daughter won't be
tied up so we will be spending Saturday up in Irvine park, a large park with a Zoo,
many trails, a river bed (no water this time of year) and picknic areas.
Today I had a day off from the Worship Team. A group from Cornerstone Christian
Fellowship in Chandler, Arizona contacted our Pastor and asked "What can we do for you?".
They stayed overnight with some of our families and yesterday painted the inside and outside
of our church. Today they put on a mini-concert while leading worship in Sunday service.
I was moved to tears (that's not easy) by several of their songs. Their WebSite is at:
Cornerstone Christian Fellowship
May 21, 2001
It's been a long time since I've updated this...
The economy took a plunge with the dot-com bust and now it's been
since last August without work. I have no truck now, was homeless all of April
and God seems to not care... I haven't seen my kids for months now.
A number of people betrayed me. Didn't have any choice in most cases. It confuses
me when I hear that God is so "Loving" yet doesn't seem to care about how things make me
feel any more that my alcoholic and abusive father did.
I'm now in a homeless program. If I can get a job I can stay in the program. There
was 1 month to do that, of which 3 weeks have already passed without a peep of interest.
Don't know what I'll do next week. This "Trusting in God" is getting decidedly dicey...
October 31st, 2001
I don't even know how to begin. My Career
in computer support gone with the tech/dot bomb, my Ex-Wife filing a false police report saying I had assaulted her (I had blocked her punch), the Orange County, California DA's office
garnishing my pay and then adding court orders for health insuranc thus destroying me
financially... even unto homelessness, vicious betrayal by a roommate, and
I haven't seen my kids since Father's day (over 3 months)
All that since Y2K
Then September 11th...
So now I have serious misgivings, to say the least.
Starting with the DA's office. Do they bother to see if adding
court ordered medical insurance to the maximum garnishment just might put someone on the
street? Not in my case. Guess it's just not their job.
The Ex-Wife. Why not lie about an assault? She lied about her
marriage vows, her weekend in New York with Shlomoh Sherman, every time she said she
loved me, and when she pretends to be a religious person every Sunday leading worship.
Of course I don't really think it's God's doing. The (unknamed denomination)
church my EX attends has very minimal standards of conduct. Basically looking
well-dressed on Sunday and singing on key is good enough.
My Ex-Roomate? She also pretends to be a good person, too.
There are religious plaques hanging all over her mobile home (the phrase "trailer trash"
might apply to her) and she lied to my children saying I assaulted her. The roomates
husband, I guess comfort is more important to him than the truth or what's right. Another
impressive "religious" person.
Interesting how both my EX-Wife and the ex-roomate are "bi-polar"
(the psychological illness)
So what's happening with me?
I don't have a vehicle now. If the DA's office should suspend my
driver's license, So what? The only ones it hurts are my kids. Now I can't tranport
them anywhere. My own transportation needs are covered by my bicycle and occasionally
the bus.
I won't live in anyone else's home (and probably never again).
Between drug users and the "Mentally Ill" I've had my fill. So I have to live in my
own place and the only place I can afford... the rules are: NO KIDS or
VISITORS.
Frederick Nietzche is quoted as saying "God is Dead" He came to that
belief after seeing the immorality of other Seminary students. Yes, Neitzche once
believed in God and was on his way to becoming a clergyman. Alas, Frederick was brought
to unbelief by being disgusted by other's hypocritical ways. The rest of the "God is
Dead" quote reads: "for the church has killed him" I wonder if my misgivings will
blossom unto unbelief?
I have a place to live and a job. My health is good. I'm riding
60+ miles a week on my bicycle. I still really love being in the worship band yet I can't
sing a solo... anything that grabs me enough to want to sing it also tends to choke me up.
At this time I'm just a bit too emotionally fragile for solos.
The first week of December I'm going to the mountains with some of my
friends. Perhaps something good will come of that.
November 2nd, 2001
Work is a real drudge. Data entry, filing, keeping the office flowing... If it wasn't for the people I'm working with it would be really unbearable.
Right now it's not a good time to change jobs with the war on and all the fallout of September 11th. So I must be patient (a very difficult thing for me) and not get too discouraged.
It's really hard considering I don't see any way to restore what I so wish I had back, my children.
So this Web site will serve as a memorial to what used to be.
November 13th, 2001
Real bad news today. Life just keeps on getting better each day.
Just bought a cell phone yesterday. If the bad news plays out the way I
fear it will it won't be long 'till I'm homeless again. Won't that be a riot... homeless
with a cell phone. I bought the phone to help with the seeing my kids.
Just got my PC loaded with Windows NT. Should be happy but why bother?
If I care about anything it is used to hurt me.
November 18th, 2001
I decided to take out the reference by name of the denomination my EX
attends. They may quite honestly not know what she is really like. She fooled me for
9 years.
November 22nd, 2001
Today I ate Thanksgiving dinner over at Pastor Paul's house. Then Pastor
Paul, his brother Tim, and I took a twelve mile bicycle ride. We went to a large park (half
dozen square miles) rode around a bit there, making it home as the street lights were coming
on. Then we had dessert. Several desserts.
After a traumatic day of trying to get my cell phone initialized last
night at 8pm it worked. Used up only 95 cents of the $15 starter card... and I've got another
$50 dollar free one on the way. The phone has text messaging, which is internet e-mail.
E-mails cost only a nickel to send so I send lots of e-mails.
Tomorrow I'm going to give my bicycle some needed mechanical attention,
do the library (Internet) and grocery shopping. It may be the traditional first day of the
Christmas shopping season (and the biggest shopping day) but that's one tradition I'll pass on.
I even know some men who are going shopping, for hardware, tools, and bicycle stuff but
it's still shopping...
I'm a bit more cheery now. If all goes well I'll see my kids this
weekend. That is what cheers me the most.
November 24th, 2001
Saw my kids for the first time since Father's day (June 17th). It was
rainy so we didn't do much beside take a quick ride on our bikes (Charis Rollerbladed) to a
nearby donut shop. We had to wait there for quite a while as the rain started really
falling hard. Didn't mind, though. Was a perfectly good excuse for hanging out longer.
Yesterday I'd intended to go to the library. The library was closed
when I got there for Thanksgiving. So I ended up going to a nearby wildlife reserve and
mountain biked for almost 15 miles. It's really great to have that much stamina.
December 5th, 2001
I'm going to take a break for awile from church and christians. In
the last 2 years christians have gossipped about me, one spit in my face, one told lies to my
kids about me, another told lies to the police about me, and just this weekend one several
times said insulting things to me and when I told him I was annoyed he started talking loudly
about how he doesn't loose fights. The old saying goes "The louder they talk, the harder
they fall" Trouble is, he's the breadwinner for his family and one shouldn't hurt
children, even indirectly.
Wonder if he treats his kids that way. Wait, I've heard him verbally
abuse his kids. Reminds me of that person who begat me.
This weekend was good, except for the one individual. The air was
crisp and cold, the lakes, rocks, trails, woods and waterfall were awesome. The cabin,
roomates, and food were great. Alas, that one individual. Wonder if god blessed him.
I brought home a rock about the size of a cantalope. It's shaped
like a pyramid and made of granite. A little piece of Forest Home.
Also brought home a CD. It's a tribute album to Keith Green by 12
different "alternative" bands, which means metal, rap, hip hop, and whatever else is wild and
fun. The interesting part was reading the blurbs each group wrote for the liner which
told of influence by and admiration for Keith Green.
I won't see my kids Saturday as I'd planned. I have to work.
Somehow a phone call just won't be the same. I wonder if atheists feel less pain when
they don't see their kids.
December 9th, 2001
Didn't get to see my kids this weekend. Christmas is going to be
really fun this year. Yeah, one non-stop warm fuzzy.
Skipped church today. Haven't missed church for years. I
really need a break.
I rode my mountain bike 25 miles. Went to Fairview park in Costa
Mesa. Tried a performance aid called Creatine. It might have been me, the stuff
seemed to have no real good effect. I'll try it again some other time.
December 15th, 2001
Another weekend. In one way I prefer working, even as dull as
that is to having time off with nothing to do.
My I've become the dismal one lately. I read back through my journal
and since Y2K I haven't been at all fun to read anymore. Wonder if it's permanent.
And what to do about Christmas? My kids got very little from me last
year because I was so impoverished. I want to do better this year but it's all I can do
to stay sheltered and fed. Life is good. Whatever.
December 29th, 2001
I went to one church service since the first of December. The same individual that ruined my mountain trip walked up behind me and "playfully" put a choke hold on me. He was damn lucky I thought it was a friend horsing around.
Haven't seen my kids since the 24th of November. I'm worthless as a provider or father so perhaps it's better this way. Perhaps if thier mother sleeps with enough "good" churchgoers she can get a daddy for her children.
Won't be long untill the OC DA catches up with me and I end up homeless again. So I guess it really doesn't matter.
I'm not quite at the point of saying "the hell with God" but who knows if tomorrow might be the day.
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