Kevin and I knew early in our marriage that we might have problems conceiving children. I had already had two surgeries for endometrious. After 8 months we decided to consult an infertility specialist. She met with us, looked over our records and prescribed a series of tests which were to begin the next month.

About 2 weeks after our initial consultation with her, we discovered we were pregnant!!! (Some doctor, huh !!) There were problems though, and we lost the baby about 6 weeks into the pregnancy. We were very upset, we had wanted this child for so long that we had really bonded with him/her even though we were together such a short time. We tried to deal with our grief as best we could and take some comfort from the knowledge we could conceive.

Over the next three years, we tried every fertility drug and procedure that medicine had to offer. During many cycles, Kevin would give me a shot every night and then I'd go to the doctor every morning for bloodwork and an ultrasound. Based on the bloodwork, the doctor would prescribe the medicine and dosage for that nights shot. For a while I had scars from all the injections. I even had 2 more surgeries but that didn't help either. Finally we decided to try in-vitro fertilization and took a couple of cycles off to prepare for the long, expensive, and emotional procedure. On the Monday before our Wednesday in-vitro consultation we discovered we were pregnant again!!!!

We were ecstatic!!!! So were all our doctors!! They followed the pregnancy very closely. I went in every other day for blood work and we all watched in awe as the hormone levels continued to rise. However, 5 weeks later, with no explanation, we lost this baby too. Our grief was almost more than we could bear. For years we had invested every spare penny and all our hearts trying to bring our child into the world, only to arrive at this conclusion.

Our doctor told us there wasn't much reason for us to continue with in-vitro. The odds of a "normal" couple miscarrying a baby conceived by in-vitro are about 25% and ours would be more like 75%. He suggested we look into treatments for miscarriage and suggested a doctor in Miami.

And so... We traveled to Miami.
Twice.
   It was on one of these longs trips that we discovered our need to "have a baby" wasn't so important. We just wanted a child. It became clear to us that our child was not going to be born to us no matter how hard we tried.

We began the adoption homestudy process in December 1995. We signed up with an adoption agency and told everyone we knew that we wanted to adopt.  That spring we had another miscarriage. 

That summer, an acquaintance told us of a young girl who was pregnant and considering adoption. We met with her and brought her to our home for a visit. Although it was early in her pregnancy, she committed to placing her baby with us. About two months into our relationship, she changed her mind, then changed back again, but in the end decided to parent.

Ok, enough of the sad story, go back to previous page and pick up the story there.