Oh! You are here, huh? That previous one sure is long, isn't it?
Hmmm... however long it is, I am glad that when I looked back, I often thought of it fondly.

Anyway, there are more to share with you and certainly, they are all true :) The Lord is good, isn't it?
Oh, let's say Amen to that. Amen!
By the way, if you do not know what Amen means, it refers to "let that be so" :)
We learn new things everyday, don't we?

Ok now, hear what God has done for me in this upsetting situation at one point of my life. Witness this salvation and give God the clap of praise!



As you have read earlier that I do not grow up with my parents and learning to live with them is hard. I thank God for the care my maternal grandma showered on my brothers and myself. May God bless her.

My brothers and myself aren't close to our parents and many complicated situations took place. Often, this is what is normally known as a 'dysfunctional' family. On the other hand, it could be a common issue to hear of parents quarrelling over money matters. Simultaneously, my brothers were meeting with some ill-influenced company of friends.

Since I am the eldest child, I struggled much with all the happenings and unwanted attentions from those incidents. I did not like my father as I believe he has not care enough for the family. In a way, I hated him and this hatred almost cost my freedom and sanity.....



My brother got into trouble again that day and he has not been home. With the toil of the previous accumulation of tension at home, everyone was on the verge of breaking down mentally and emotionally. I was not spared as well.

I had just came home from school and my domineering father started to grumble and curse. I felt sad and sngry. I was sad at the calmities that had been hitting home and angry at my father's cursing and swearing. His controlling behaviour only 'adds fire to the oil'.

I remembered that I was in the kitchen and my father was seated some feet away in full view of me. I had this surge of urge to hurt him with one of those sharp objects. At that very moment, many thoughts ran through my mind but I was not borthered. All I wanted to do was to hurt him and relieved my family of anymore sadness that he was already inflicting. I was so insistant that not even thoughts of a death sentence dawned me.

In that critical split seconds before I grabbed hold of anything, I suddenly remembered this verse that I had read in the bible before... "Honour your father and mother... honour your father and mother.. honour your father and mother...." These words kept repeating in my mind. I was not wavered and I was bent to hurt him. I was sorry that I thought that way and even felt that God should not have chosen me. However, these words echoed more intensely in my mind and that vision (read previous testimony) flashed across. I thought I felt God almost to tears and pleading with me. Surely, God knew the pain I underwent. My heart softened. It really did and tears trickled down.

It was then that I realised the impact of my thoughts. I praise God that He has saved me from a condemned thought. He has preserved my father's life. I believed that it is for a purpose. He loves us too much.



I know this is a very wrong thought I had before but I hope to bring across to you, my friends, that God is real. If God did not softened my heart, if those tears did not fall, I cannot imagine the consequences of that rash thought. God loves you.

Yes, YOU!

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