I was living my life in darkness
Full of spite, anger, hate and fear
These things I felt a need to hide
Especially from those I held so dear

I knelt down to earnestly talk to God
As I had done so many times before
But this time something happened to me
I let God enter a hidden locked door

This was a step that scared me so
I felt so naked as He entered in
It was something I had held on to
Not aware that it was a great sin

Slowly God keeps opening doors
To things I would not let Him touch
One was to anger I had for my Savior
I thought He had let me down so much

I said I was sorry for the hatred I felt
He wrapped His arms around me and said
"I loved you even before you were born
Now let me into your heart, not just your head"

I've been brought back from the dead
Though His work is not yet complete
Words can't describe the way I feel
I'm alive again and won't accept defeat

It is more than just reading God's Word
It is growing with every lesson learned
Prayer is for more than answers to problems
It is to give God the praise He has earned

by Debbie Fletcher
November 1996