Chip sigh

Mostly I don't talk about romantic entanglements. I have always considered love to be a very personal and private subject. I don't want to hurt anyone I love. Please know that before you read on. I have received so much from all of you. I want to give something back by sharing a very different side of myself.

I met him first at a party. I saw him across the room at the snack table. The first thing I noticed about him was his big brown eyes. I am mostly attracted to men who have blue eyes, but this was different. I wanted to melt into those eyes and have them become one with me.

I fell hopelessly in love from the minute I savored the sweetness of his being. No words need pass between us. It was an all-consuming, passionate love that you only read about in romance novels. My heart longed for my next meeting with Chip. The minutes that we were apart ticked by so slowly. I was hungry for him constantly, and all I could think about was the next time that my lips would touch him.

The affair peaked rapidly, and I realized that it could not continue. I couldn't live my life just waiting for the next time I could hold him. So I said goodbye.

But my heart still yearns for him with a longing that will never be satisfied by anything other than Chip. All I have now to remind me of him are a few crumbs of memory. Sure, we still see each other from time to time, a chance meeting in the all-night grocery, or our paths cross at the local movie theater, or perhaps sometimes I see him at lunch.

It's over, though.

It can never be the way it was in the beginning.

Never again.

You see,

he was a

chocolate

Chip

cookie,

and I loved him.

Note: inspired by a greeting card and a very special person in my life What day is this anyway? Anyone know?

*giggle*

April 1, 1998