My daughter was born in 1996. My father (whom I loved and was well
respected in the community) was the one person I didnt want to know. What
could I do 18 and constantly through my whole pregnancy denied I was
carrying a baby. I went from NJ to Iowa to attend college knowing in my
subconcious that I was pregnant but denying the whole problem. I was
thrown out of college and on the night I flew out of Iowa to NJ I went
through labor. My father picked me up at the airport, still not knowing I
was pregnant and left me off at home. After 2 hours I went to my mother
and told her I was in pain. I have to tell you that my parents nor my
sister and brother had any idea that I was pregnant.(Sack dresses were in
style, great for hiding pregnancy) I was taken to our local
hospital(Newton N.J) and our family doctor of many years told my mother not
only was I pregnant but I would have the baby in a matter of hours. I was
in labor for 10 more hours. When the baby came I was not able
to think ractionally. My father came into the room the next day and
said it would be my decision, however our family doctor had another doctor
friend who knew a family that already adopted a baby boy and wanted a baby
giirl. They too were respected members of the community. What could I do??
I agreed to the adoption.
I have to say on another note. My sister who was married at the time had
her baby son 1 day before I had my daughter. She came into room not
knowing who I was and asked me for a match, she looked me right in the eyes
and did not know me. That is how much of a shock it was to my family that
I had a baby.
Im now 50 and there hasnt been a day I havnt thought about Jill Ann
Woolwich. Yes, I know her name because I had to sign the papers in her
adopted parents lawyer and the name they gave her stuck in my mind.
Problem??? Yes. If she ever found me there is a lot of questions I
cant answser. From the start, Her father's last name.............and a lot
of other things.
I guess I wasnt ment to be a mother. My first one I adopted out. The
second one died in a car acciident with her father. And the third one I've
just disowned because of the life she has chosen..No she's not on drugs or
anything like that. As a matter of fact she is a christian and she
graduated with honors and she is now a teacher. However she is engaged to
a man who is a member of the KKK. God bless Texas and their bleifs.
Anyway that is my story. Sometimes I feel that I am toatlly alone. I ask
God for help and he gives me answers on stuff concerning what I should do
(Im very involved with the community and on several groups on of which is
the Antelope Valley Hate Crime Task Force) but I have never receivd an
answer when I ask about Jill Ann and when and If Ill ever find her. Im
begining to get the answser NO.
