Post Natal Depression

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My second diagnosis

I was 5 months pregnant with Lucas when we
moved back to Adelaide. The main reason for the shift
back was so I would have family around me.
Basically we were trying to eliminate PND occuring.
 
The stress of finding a house, shifting, being pregnant was
getting to me, but the anxiety that I felt being back in the
city was overwhelming. I felt myself slipping, losing control.
It all felt familiar but I kept fighting my feelings. Some where
along the line I must have recognized the feelings. I spoke
to my obstetrician who referred me to see a phyciatrist.
Once again I was prescribed Zoloft, much to the disgust
of the phyciatrist on hearing how I had just stopped
taking them.
I was reassured that being on the anti depressant I would
make life easier not just for myself but husband and
son too. I didn't like my phyciatrist so needless to say I
didn't go back too many times.
 
In July, Lucas was born.
It felt like the beginning of the end. I was not ready for the
journey that Lucas and I were about to encounter.
He was screaming the moment I met him. He was a very
unsettled baby. Lucas found it hard to feed, I tried to feed
him myself for 11 weeks. I sought help from the Breast feeding
clinic at the hospital, but it wasn't helping. Lucas' weight
gain wasn't good.
Like every good mum I decided to take Lucas to the childrens
hospital to find out what was going on. By the end of the
visit the paedatrician had me seeing a counsellor. The
next day I some how had an appointment to see another
physciatrist. By that evening I had been admitted into
Helen Mayo House.
 
My Symptoms
I didn't care about myself
I hated myself
I hated life
I just hated everything and it was
everyone elses fault!
 
The Doctors Verdict
My doctor believed that the following contributed to my PND.

 

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