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I'm doing pretty good. The last couple of months I've been real busy, both at work and in my personal life, but things have slowed down a little now which is nice. At least I have my weekends again to relax some. It seemed like I was traveling somewhere every weekend, either to Keesler AFB, Pensacola or down to Panama City Beach. Sounds rough huh :-) But really, life is good, no complaints whatsoever.
SEPTEMBER 11, 1999
Hi there :-) I actually found time to write again, hopefully this will make up for the neglect I've shown this journal the last couple of months...
Today I'm deliriously happy! Want to know why? Well, because I'm finally where I want to be. Or at least where I can be at this present moment in time.
I have my health back… meaning no signs of that dreadful cancer that once consumed my life.
I have a great loving man in my life… although we are in a long-distance relationship, I still feel very loved and fulfilled emotionally. Something that no man in my life has ever been able to do even in close proximity.
I have a great job which is both challenging and even a lot of fun… I didn't think I'd like to be back in the hot seat again as "the boss", but it hasn't been bad at all, but then again I have two great guys working with me that makes it so much easier. We are even going into work tomorrow, a Sunday yet, and I don't mind at all. That's what you call teamwork!
I have my place just about the way I want it. I'm renting and it's an old house that needs some TLC, but it's comfortable. I have my computer room that is filled with my awards and atta girl plaques, my bookcase full of books, and of course my computer set up that even includes a scanner now. All I need now is a video cam so that I can see my man close up and personal whenever my heart desires ;-)
I now have a fabulously brand new treadmill for my much needed exercise routine. In fact, I just finished my first workout on it and it helped to put me in the fantastic mood of mine. Yes, after agonizing over spending the money on it, I do believe I made the right decision. No more excuses to not get in shape!! I also just joined our squadron bowling team that starts the end of this month. Now this really marks just how far I've come as several months ago I wrote about how I wanted to do just that to help fulfill my social needs. I'm not one to have a lot of friends because I'm too much of a loner, but everyone, including me, needs some kind of social outlet other than work and family. And I'm pretty sure this will be it… hopefully, I remember how to :-)
Let's see… what else is wonderful in my life-My family!! As you already know, I divorced my last husband last year, yet I still have friendly contact with him and his new wife, with his daughters, and with his sister. Yep, Tanya still contacts me every once in a great while to see how I'm doing. Now how many divorces end up like mine?? I learned from the best though… my parents! After 25 years of being divorced, they are still civil to each other and even get together every once in a while ;-) Although my brothers and sister live in all parts of the country, we still try to keep in contact as much as possible. They are as busy or even busier than I am most of the time. I still think it was wonderful that we were able to all get together this past summer for Steve's wedding. A cherished time was had by all.
So you see, life is good!!
SEPTEMBER 26, 1999
I QUIT SMOKING!!!! Yep, last Sunday at 7:44 AM I smoked my last cigarette. I am sooooooo proud of myself for being able to do this finally. Now I won't have to worry about carrying that oxygen bottle with me as I walk down the beach hand in hand with my significant other.
It hasn't been as hard as other times I've tried to quit so this tells me that this time is for real. I'm not fighting that little voice telling me that one cigarette won't hurt. Because this time I know it will. You can't just smoke one! The patches are really helping a lot, however, they mess up my sleep because I have these really vivid dreams at night so it's like I don't get enough rest and I'm always tired. But, hey, you have to pay some kind of price, right? Anyway, I'm very proud of me :-)
IF THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY!!!!!
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