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1 SEPTEMBER 2001
My parents although divorced for the last 25 years celebrated their 50th anniversary tonight at Ruby Tuesday. They even got serenaded with the Happy Anniversary song from all the workers and were a strawberry sundae for two. I think that is just too sweet! And I'm so happy that they have found that even after a turbulent marriage, they can still be friends.
2-5 SEPTEMBER 2001
Dad is visiting and he is taking his nap so thought I'd write a few lines ;-) We've been on a bike ride, fixed the headlight, and my rearview mirror so far. This afternoon we are going to swing by the fraternity house and pick up Jonathan before going to KFC for their buffet. This will be Lupper as he calls it ;-) Nothing else has been planned so don't know what tomorrow will bring us… in other words, there won't be any special celebrating because it is Labor day except for maybe a bloody mary after I get off of work ;-) I still think it sucks that I have to work on a holiday that is supposed to be a day of not having to labor ;-) oh well… I'll probably take off a couple hours on Tuesday morning to make up for it so that we can go have breakfast somewhere. Apparently, he is staying until Wednesday morning, although I did warn him that I have to work Tuesday night… so we will see.
9 SEPTEMBER 2001
Well, I actually had fun this afternoon with Carissa. She got here about 12:30 pm and I basically let her call the shots. She decided on McDonalds for lunch where she played on the toys afterwards… then we headed to the dollar store and picked out some arts and craft kind of stuff… went to Walmart for some cookie dough and then headed back to the house. All that shot a good two hours so only had an hour left to make the cookies and do the arts and crafts… worked out PERFECTLY!!! She was very good, but then I gave her my undivided attention ;-)
11 SEPTEMBER 2001
The most tragic event in US history occurred on September 11th. I'll remember this day for the rest of my life. Watching the World Trade Center towers collapse brought tears to my eyes… my chest was tight with anxiety… It was like watching a movie, but knowing it was reality, scared the shit out of me and still does. I was most worried about my sister when I heard that the Pentagon was hit…when she finally called me and told me she was safe, my chest loosened up some.
Here are some email excepts that I wrote today:
1) Yes, a very very very sad day… I was so relieved to hear that Iva and Steve and Martine were safe. Thank you all for reaching out and letting us know!! As you've probably already heard, all military bases are in the highest alert status - Threatcon Delta - and mission essential personnel are working 12 hour shifts… including me… so off to bed I go. May the Lord be with us all…
2) Our base is on high alert… Delta… 24 hour operations… 12 hour shifts… barricades… pretty scary stuff… stressful… surreal…
3) Yes, we must make each day count! And I shall once these darn 12 hour shifts are over, in the meantime, I try to smile and laugh when I can… although I almost feel guilty when I do enlight of all the people who are suffering with their pain of losing loved ones.
21 SEPTEMBER 2001
A new attitude is rising… this is what brought it about… here's an email that I sent to my Mom and my brother Mike yesterday:
I need some thoughts or words of wisdom from both of you… I am facing a situation that I can't seem to put into proper perspective… as you know I have been overly stressed lately because my 5-man office has been brought down to 3 people… and now it will be going down to 2 for several months… and for a week and a half it will just be me. I am basically a Type A personality and with that comes the notion that I think I have to be super woman and be able to handle everything that comes my way including hating to be behind… Most of the time, I feel that I'm inadequate when it comes to network/computer problems which just adds to my stress. I've been working very long hours lately, 10 because I have to, and 2+ because I hate being behind... I'm exhausted to say the least because I can't sleep at night for worrying about all the work that faces me the next day. The thoughts or words I need are ones that can help me answer these questions--How do I not give a shit that something is not done on time? How do I not give a shit when people ask for something that I can't give them right away? How do I not give a shit when I have to say that "I don't know how"? HOW DO I CHANGE AFTER 41 YEARS????
26 September 2001
Long story short, they TRIED to make me do first sergeant duties on top of everything else I'm supposed to be doing and I stood my ground and REFUSED. I was even willing to lose a stripe over it if I had to, but thankfully it didn't come to that.
29 September 2001
My weekend retreat has begun…I'm going to do nothing but rest up and relax this weekend…starting right now! J I didn't even bring any work home with me… now that was an accomplishment in itself! ;-)
30 September 2001
I think I'm going to design another web page for my son… it seems he is not done fighting… I still refuse to totally support him though… mainly because I don't want him to get hurt… a mother's struggle I know.
Where did the month go? Time has just flown by…
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