I would call you up, pretty much daily, just to hear the sound of your voice, and to let you know someone was thinking of you. You always cut me short, having more "important" things to attend to.

I would touch you when we met, passing in the halls or on the street, say a kind word, and just give you the gentlest of touches. Not in a romantic way, since you did not feel that way, but just a touch of friendly warmth. You would always smile distractedly, smile ghost of a smile, and be on your way.

I would see you tense. and spend just a minute of two massaging your neck and shoulders, till you were able to relax. You would relax, and then go along your way to whatever business was at hand.

I would ask you to join me in excursions and fun. Just to spend some time with you, and to bring some happiness into your life. You would put me off, seeing if something better would come along, and only go for fun in your loneliest of times.

I was ever there, when you needed a ride, got stranded somewhere late at night, or just needed some help with things mundane. You would always call on me when you needed something, but I seemed to not exist at other times.

I would see something I knew you would like, and pick it up for you. You would wear it, or place it around your home, forgetting where exactly you had gotten it.

I would smile whenever we met, whether I was happy or sad, just so you could see a friendly face. You would sometimes smile, and always just go on your way.

I have always wanted to be with you, as your friend and so much more. To share, to bring light, laughter, happiness and contentment into your life, and cherished having you as a part of mine. To you, I was just another guy/girl, nothing special at all.

But now I'm gone. I didn't want it. I couldn't help it.But accidents happen, and they seem to collect random victims at times.

You heard that I was gone, and said "That's so sad, isn't it?", and then moved on.

But now I'm gone, and I stand here in this place, and look thru this sorta window at your life as you go on.

As days go by, you notice that the phone doesn't ring nearly so much, and wonder why.

As days go by, hallways and streets seem to be lonely places. You get jostled, but no one lays a hand on you in passing

As days go by, work stresses you out, and you wonder why the tenseness will not leave you as you remember it once did.

As days go by, you find yourself with the occassional weekend with nothing special to do, and wonder why you feel so alone.

As days go by, you wonder why every place seems so much colder than it did before. No one seems to smile any more.

As dyas go by, you feel yourself being sadder and sadder, and tears spring into your eyes, tho you know not why.

As days go by, your car breaks down one night, and you wonder who to call for help.

As days go by, you need help moving your furniture, and pick up the phone to call me, But Now I Am Gone.

You hardly knew I existed, and you never knew of my love for you. As I see your tears, my heart opens up even more fully than before. I realize that my love for you has created a bond with my soul that is unbreakable.

Now I am gone, and I can no longer pick up the phone. I talk to you in your dreams at night, and when you wake up, in that little corner in the back of your mind, you know things are okay

Now I am gone, and you cannot feel the touch of my hand, but I touch your arm in passing, and somehow things just don't seem so unfriendly.

Now I am gone, and you cannot feel my finger work your tense muscles. but I can still rub your neck. You feel a warmth spread thru you, relax, and go about your business.

Now I am gone, and you cannot see the smile on my face, but I smile to you nontheless. You find a smile creeping to your lips, and don't know why, but it doesn't really matter.

Now I am gone,and I can't take you to the park when nothing better is open to you. But as you sit in your living room on a saturday night to watch a video, I sit next to you and hold you,and you are at peace, even tho you are alone.

But, you are not alone. You are loved in many ways, and I will forever be your friend.

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