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When will the insanity stop??? What drives someone to do something so horrible??? This ribbon will remain on my page in honor of all the innocent victims who lost their lives on 4/16/07
Many people don't understand what depression is or even believe there is such a thing. As a person who lives with depression on a daily basis I would like to tell you parts of my story. While there will be those who will feel that I am doing this to bring shame to them and those who will think I am making the whole damn thing up, if this writing helps just one person then it will be worth the effort that was put in to it. PLEASE, if you see yourself or someone you love in what you read, don't just sit idly by. Seek help!!!
In most cases, depression is caused by a chemical imbalance. Many times this chemical imbalance is hereditary. Other times it is caused by things such as an accident or stroke. If untreated or under treated it can cause life to become a living hell for the person living with it. I refer to living with depression as being on a never ending roller coaster ride because there are so many ups and downs that come along with the disease.
I had suffered from depression for years but was unwilling to admit it to myself or anyone else. In 1997, I went for my yearly physical for work. I told the doctor that I was having difficulty sleeping. Sleep was something I was always good at. Once I managed to get to sleep, I had no trouble staying asleep. The problem came when I tried to wake up. However, now I could not even manage to stay asleep. I would fall asleep only to wake up after a couple of hours and not be able to get back to sleep. When I told the doctor this he started asking me a series of questions. I remember wondering what any of them had to do with my sleep problem. After what seemed like forever the doctor finally told me that my problem was depression. He prescribed an antidepressant and a sleeping pill. My days of denying my problem were over. I finally had to admit that I was another freak in the world and not the strong person I had always tried to be.
On the way back to work from my physical I called my husband and told him what the doctor had said. I was in tears. He was worried that he had done something to cause the problem. I assured him that he did nothing to cause this.
In most cases, depression is caused by a chemical imbalance. Many times this chemical imbalance is hereditary. Other times it is caused by things such as an accident or stroke. If untreated or under treated it can cause life to become a living hell for the person living with it. I refer to living with depression as being on a never ending roller coaster ride because there are so many ups and downs that come along with the disease.
I had suffered from depression for years but was unwilling to admit it to myself or anyone else. In 1997, I went for my yearly physical for work. I told the doctor that I was having difficulty sleeping. Sleep was something I was always good at. Once I managed to get to sleep, I had no trouble staying asleep. The problem came when I tried to wake up. However, now I could not even manage to stay asleep. I would fall asleep only to wake up after a couple of hours and not be able to get back to sleep. When I told the doctor this he started asking me a series of questions. I remember wondering what any of them had to do with my sleep problem. After what seemed like forever the doctor finally told me that my problem was depression. He prescribed an antidepressant and a sleeping pill. My days of denying my problem were over. I finally had to admit that I was another freak in the world and not the strong person I had always tried to be.
On the way back to work from my physical I called my husband and told him what the doctor had said. I was in tears. He was worried that he had done something to cause the problem. I assured him that he did nothing to cause this.
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MY POW/MIA PAGE Updated 12/9/98
