I love you with all my heart,
More than I could have ever
Expected from the start.
We started off just friends,
Two intensly diverse people
Only trying to make the lonliness
And confusion end.
After a period of time
We became so close,
How was I to know
The feelings and obstacles
That lay down the line?
If only I had known how you felt,
We could have been together, forever
The way it was meant to be.
But the way I feel now,
These feelings are too much for me to bear.
Knowing that I could have had you
Breaks my heart.
It makes me cry.
So all I can wonder now is
Why?
Why didn't I see?
I just could not believe
That you would ever want to be
With someone like me.
But now it's too late.
I can never hold you,
I can never touch you,
I can never kiss you,
I can never have you.
That was before he and I had gone out. I had no idea that we would ever be together at all, not to mention that he was going out with my best friend at the time. Everything was so mixed up, I didn't know what was going on. Then all of a sudden, he told me he wanted to end his relationship with my friend, after he found out that I liked him of course. We had been friends for a while before that, best friends. One day I just realized I liked him, a lot. Oh well, then he asked me out, or we just agreed to go out. Him and I went out for a month and two days, but who was counting? :) He broke up with me telling me we were going to get back together in a few months maybe. He just needed alone time. After about a week of slight arguing and tension, he finally let me know that I should just forget about what he said. Then I believe another week later, he was going out with the girl that I heard he was cheating on me with on New Year's Eve. I don't really believe he was, but come on, thats a crock of you know what. Alright, enough with the novel already, cuz I could go on forever, which is not good :) This next poem is after he dumped me. Maybe some of you can see the connection between these poems. That, of course, is the purpose of this separate page! Ok, here goes...
One Last Measure Of Love
Even though I know you're there,
I know at least anymore, you don't care.
It's just so hard for my eyes to believe
That all this pain, all this hurt
Could happen to me.
I know there is nothing I can do
To change your mind,
To prove that you made a mistake.
I love you.
Don't you see?
Can't you tell?
We were meant to be.
Any other path I take than that
Will be my own personal Hell.
But you don't care.
You don't see.
My love wasn't good enough for you.
How can that be?
I gave you my all
But you betrayed me,
You weren't there
To cushion my fall.
You told me that you loved me.
You said I made you happy.
I thought it would last.
But I was wrong,
Because all it took was that one line to be crossed
And I knew the impression that had been cast.
No thanks to you
My life was shattered,
My dreams were diminished
And my thoughts were clattered.
And now this poem must end
At least until you have finally seen
The message I have so desperately been
Trying to send.