I think my husband put it best when he said.... Better Beautiful Women. This comment to me means that all women are beautiful and to distinguish between big and small or tall and short or blue eyed and brown eyed or light skinned and dark skinned is just plain ignorant. So I've grown up with this "weight problem" all my life. One day I woke up and said problem???? who's actually got the "problem" here... me or the ones that don't accept me for who I am. My conclusion at first was me... it must be me... I'm not like everyone else around me. Then I got thinking about it and I realized it had nothing to do with me at all, it had to do with the people out there that can't see what's right in front of their faces; a woman, an individual, someone just as special as they were. I find it laughable all the people out there that wanna "help"... yeah, you wanna "help" alright... and take a bunch of my money while doing it. Gotta love the diet industry... let's make em feel guilty enough to come and get "help". Do I still feel self conscious about it... you bet I do. Does it bother me anymore... no. Does it anger me... sometimes. I like to put it this way... if I were say 150 pounds lighter would I be a better person than I am now... not on your life. That would be like asking if I had brown eyes would I be a better person. Kind of a ridiculous concept when put that way don't ya think? I see so many gorgeous people out there, people I commend for their individuality and beauty, inside and out. Wouldn't it be great if we could get everyone together for one big world wide party for, say, a weekend? hhmmm... maybe not; who would get to choose the music. I really hope I didn't sound angry in the paragraphs above 'cause that was never my intention. I just wanted to tell you my feelings on what it was like to feel like a "freak" for entirely the wrong reasons.(that was a joke by the way) One more thing; thank you to my parents for always believing in me and for always being there when I need them. I love you mom and dad !!! Go back to our main page! E-Mail Us! This page hosted by   Get your own Free Home Page