Lindsey...What can I say about this precious, precious child who is considered our tiniest Angel. Her Nana came crashing into my life on November 22nd bringing with her energy, love, and enough descriptive details to make me feel as if I were right there...witnessing each day of Lindsey's life. I pictured Lindsey, felt her struggle, and ultimately fell in love with her all because her Nana had the courage to reach out and bring her to life for me. Then Lindsey was gone. The loss of one of our own.....so very devastating for most of us....it made us face the reality that life is very precious and should be cherished. I know that Lindsey had a purpose here on earth....we may never know what that purpose was...maybe just to bring her Nana into our lives so we could experience her enthusiasm...feel her love. I do know that I believe with all of my heart that Lindsey must have had such a "special little spirit" that God could not bear to part with her for very long and that is why he called her home so soon.....he missed her....as we will. The tears I shed for this precious Angel....that we all shed....were a symbol of the closeness of our group. Of the love that we feel for our CdLS kids ...a love that bonds us together as kindred spirits. Lindsey was a big part of that bonding....the grief we felt at her passing left it's imprint for us to wear....a gathering of hearts that beat as one for our tiniest Angel.

Dear Sue...I will never, ever forget turning my computer on and reading email from you which said, "Lindsey died tonight....god help me." That shook me to the core. I honestly felt like I had lost a family member, and cried off and on most of that day. As people in the group began reading their mail, many of us IM'ed each other or called each other on the phone to talk about the loss. That's when I realized just how special our group is. I think Lindsey's passing brought us even closer together. Though I wish it could have been any other way, I will always remember Lindsey, and can't help but think that we have our own little angel watching over the group. God bless you for being such a wonderful grandma to her while she was here.

I will never forget the day I read Sue's message..."Lindsey died last night. God help me" I can't begin to tell you the feelings I had, because we had shared with Sue in all of the little gains that Lindsey had made, in order to be released from the hospital. I remember feeling so much for the family in finally being able to have her home, but also the fear in caring for such a fragile child, with so many problems. I thought that if we could just send them the prayers and the good wishes we had for them, everything would be alright. But God had other plans for his little angel, and we missed out on sharing her special life with her very loving family.

God gave you two a very special little girl for such a short time, and then He took her home to make her whole again. It's hard to let go without wondering why He enticed you with this little girl and then said...."Ok, I want her to come Home, now." You may think that it's cruel on His part and then wonder why He takes some and leaves other. I don't have that whole picture yet, either! I do know that while Lindsey was with you for a short time that that's a time you wouldn't trade for the world!! God saw fit to give Lindsey to two loving parents and two loving sisters and a loving extended family. It's so hard to be parents no matter what the circumstances and you were two wonderful parents by showing your love and care you gave Lindsey....a special little angel!!

Where do I start....I can't do poems as others can (I will leave that speciality to Vicki-*grin*) and I usually have no lack of words except when it's to do something like this, takes me a while to get it just right. ;) I can truly say you are a wonderful mom and nana!! You found us and didn't feel alone and got answers and encouragement and then brought it back to Heather and Rusty. How did we ever cope without this concept of the internet?! I am happy to have met y'all and only wish that Lindsey could of stayed on this earth longer. When I had come in that night from working on the fence and saw those 6 sad little words in your email, I was devastated....it was as if I had lost a family member when in fact I had! I know those times with Lindsey here thru everything will always hold a special place in your life and heart as well as in the "cdls internet" extended families heart and lives. Thank you for sharing your granddaughter with all of us and thank you for becoming a dear, dear friend to me!! Looky there, lack of words??--NOT! hehe:)