Talking with fellow Keanuphiles makes me feel good. It gives me credibility and confidence that I'm not crazy and that my emotions and feelings are real. Being a Keanu fan, as you all know, is not easy. In fact, it can be exhausting, frustrating, but also exhilirating, exciting, fun, and better than the best therapy any amount of money can buy.
I probably love Keanu for the same reasons you do. He is the most beautiful man on the planet, has a gorgeous body, and seems comfortable with his looks and doesn't play it up or appear too "clean cut". It's a NATURAL BEAUTY; the best job God has done. He is sweet, sensitive, a perfectionist, who works incredibly hard and has tremendous ambition. He's intelligent, multitalented, and genuine. Basically with Keanu what you see is what you get. He can be serious when he needs to be, funny, and when he smiles my heart skips a beat. He has to have the greatest smile and sweetest laugh that ever was. He can be goofy and at times it may be difficult to interpret his meaning. But, this mystery is what attracts and keeps me (us)coming back for more! Also, Keanu is full of surprises, and he continually shocks, amazes, and thrills me. Imagine Hamlet and all those Dogstar tours, not to mention all the movies, in less than three years! I just hold my breath in joyous anxiety and wait for the next adventure to occur!
Keanu has inspired me and given me a great deal of HAPPINESS. Through him I have been able to find my place in the world, achieve in my career, get through lonely and difficult times, find interests I never knew that I had, and find the happiness I was lacking. I no longer will suffer from depression or low self esteem. If Keanu can do it, so can I. His life has been a role model for mine.
On a lighter note, I have been thrilled and entertained by his films and the characters he has played have been very special to me. So, who cares if I never get to meet my dream man personally and find a friendship or something more intimate (though I wouldn't complain! ). My fandom belongs to me. It is something I own, it is precious, and nobody can take it away. It doesn't control me. It adds to my life. I feel that it is a lot more about me than it is about Keanu. Though he is the object of my passions and fantasies, I have them for a reason. I need them! Though I would like to share my life with Keanu like I do my other family and friends, he is not responsible for my emotions and I can't expect him to understand or take action on them. When I met him once and went up to him, I started talking to him like a best friend. It's me, Keanu!! I suddenly realized that he doesn't know me and is not going to respond in that way.
Fandom is a wonderful experience. Take it seriously and don't let anyone tell you it doesn't mean anything and change the subject when you bring up Keanu for the millionth time. Tell them to stop golfing or going to all those darn football games!!!!!
Obsession can be a good thing. I refuse to deny myself happiness I
deserve when it is hurting nobody. Enjoy!!!!!
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