Good-night! I thought as I shut off the T.V. The Spice marathon 
just ended, a full two days of Spice, starting with five and by
the second day four. I never was really sad, scary was always 
my favorite, but now in a way I felt like I wanted to cry.
I lay in bed wondering why Geri left...and how happy they looked 
yesterday..and now I could see behind Emma's baby face and Mel G's
Scary face that they WERE sad in a way. Their concerts were different
something was missing the spice....the zest of girl power..even
though they did have girl power their images...are changing.
I guess after Geri left they decided to be mature.....
   I couldn't sleep so I shut my door and played "Viva Forever" quietly.
Just as Emma started to sing I felt a tear drip down my face...
and just like that I was crying my eyes out.  I knew I was never 
gonna sleep so I put the timmer on my C.D player even though I was not 
going to fall asleep any time soon!
  I lay down on my pillow, crying made me real tired.
"Wake up you Tard..we are going to be late for our concert rehersal!"
This loud British voice yelled at me as she shook me.
"Oy, Get off!"  I yelled...remebering my fav saying from
Spice World.  I opened my eyes... 
"Holy Shit!?!," I dropped my mouth open, "you....your Mel G!"
"What the hell are you talking about, Sometimes, I swear Geri.."
"Geri...Geri...?" I looked a my arms and legs feel my hair...
and my face. I stood up and looked in the mirror. Oh...My God...I am Geri.
Mel G comes towards me and pushes me to the closet and says,  
"We are already late hurry pick out your outfit!"   I look through
her closet and pick out one of my fav outfits I saw her wear.
We run downstairs and are geeted by Emma and victoria.
"Where's Mel?" I ask trying to act like Geri. 
"She's already on the bus.." Emma says calmly.
"Oh...well what are we waiting for?" I ask them.
Emma puts her arm through my arm, just before I start to
walk behind Mel B and Victoria, Emma pulls me back.
"Geri, what happended to you last night??""What...?"
"Well you came in at like 5 am..is that why you sleep in??"
"Oh..yeah...I felt sick so I went for a walk."
"Ok...I thought you were sick or troubled."
"No..fine..we better get on the bus, Mel's yellin at us" 
   Whew! That was a long 5 hours....I get back in my room floop 
on the bed. Mel walks in with Emma,  "I'm gonna have a shower"  Mel yells to us.
Emma sits on the bed with me give me a gentle kiss on the forehead.
"Has Mel been mean to you?""No..not at all why?"
"Well, you just seem so scared of her...and.."
"And nothing...don't worry babe....I'm fine, if anythingshe's helped me!"
"babe.....huh...you havn't called me that for a long time, you've been
so distant latly....""Well...I feel...so different...so much older.."
"But you're only 25....""I know....I know..can we just sleep...I'm tired.."
"Well one more thing..why don't you wear any of your old clothes it's 
like you don't want to dress like that anymore..did the press
print another article about you being a slut...I..." She maked a fist
"I....Swear one more story about that I'm going to sue them...."
"No..no.....I just don't feel like myslef in those clothes...."

Me and Emma fell asleep on the bed, when Melanie came out of 
the shower, she took a blanket form her bed and placed it on us.
I woke up partically, and thought to myself, 
why does eveyone think shes mean...??
I woke up at 5am...I felt sick, like I needed some fresh air, 
so I walked out on the balcony  the air was wet and damp,
I sat down on a chair, found a magazine, 
Peoples....weird, I never knew Mel read that....
I opened it, and saw a section on Girl Power, " Who has the most Girl Power?
Ginger, Scary, Sporty, Posh or Baby??"Weird...I read more
 "We took a nation wide survey, and most people, when we mentioned 
"girl power"  thought Geri, Sexy or Ginger?  Now there is no doubt
that Geri Halliwell is the most popuplar Spice Girl"
 Wow! I never thought me, little short Geri would be the 
most popular spice girl, out of five!  I thought that I
would be the least popular...I can't dance, sing, all 
I'm good at is sloving problems, all the girls come 
to me with their problems...I haven't even had enough 
time to think about myslef....I feel so..so.....so
sad.  I started  crying and than ran to the bathroom, 
maybe a nice cold shower, I undressed, and turned to 
grab a towel an noticed myself in the mirror, I lookawfull!!!
I got in the shower..and I thought to myslef, maybe I should take
time off, not just from the "Spice Girls" the group, but aslo
from the girls, I need time to think about me, myself an my thoughts...
After my shower it was already 7:00am, Emma was just waking up,
Mel was in the kitchen cooking, 
"Any Hot whater left for us?" Mel said in her usual rude voice.
But this time it didn't bother me....
"Yeah, I took a cold shower!!" Emma looked at me surprised and puzzeled.
"Cold....cold...." I coul tell Emma knew what was wrong,
She always knew what was wrong with, sometimes even before I did,
and this was one of those times.
That afternoon, Mel C came in and asked us if we 
wanted to go get some chips, or go to the Deli.
Everyone left except me, I stayed and for no reason
started to pack my stuff up, I figured, I was going to go
for a vacation, why not go now, and pack now.
By the time the got back I was gone. 
Emma was the first to come in the room, the rest followed,
"Hey, Geri we brought you back som....." She looked around
and noticed I had cleaned up,but didn't know I had left, she looked
around and when Victoria walked in she said "what's wrong em...you
look like you just saw a ghost!!" She noticed right away
that the room was half empty, the other two talking in the
doorway did notice until Emma started crying.
They sat there for five hours waiting for me to come back,
But little did they know that I would never return.
"So..miss....Geri Halliwell or do you prefer Geraldine??""Geri's fine...."
"So you want to leave the Spice Girls...Thats a shock!!" Geri's lawer
look down at the papers."Why....I mean do you mind if I ask why?"
"Well...I feel that I have grown up, from the Spice Girls..
I feel that I need to move on..but I really still love them.."
Geri's voice got lower as she glared in to space.
"Well!," The lawers loud voice woke her up from her little day dream.
"We have to get started.."It took Geri 2 hours to get out of there,
"I can't wait to get out of these clothes..so buisness
like..." Geri got to her mums house walked upstairs and flooped on the bed
she felt so free, yet she feels like she let the girls down...
"I regret to inform you that I am leaving the Spice Girls..."
Geri's lawer reads her statment
"And I wish the girls the best of luck in the future"
Geri watched the confrence on the Tele, she felt happy, she didn't 
have any resposibilities, only she felt sad,not for herself but for
the girls....if she could only talk to them, would they be sad, or mad?
Geri picked up the phone dialed Mels room,
"hello" A voice answered a voice you can tell the person was sad.
Geri couldn't answer."HELLO?!?!" The voice yelled.
Again Geri couldn't get her self to talk.
The phone hung up, Geri was mad at herself for not talking,
I'll call them when I'm ready to talk to them....in a while, 
I just hope they can forgive me.
Geri looked at the clock and remembered that she had to go pickup her mother.
I got out of bed still thinking I was Geri but as I passed the mirror
in the hall I thought,What am I doing?? It was just a dream....I ran to
the t.v turned it on but relised, that the Spcie Grils did break up,
the only dream was that I was Geri, maybe, it was a sign, maybe they'll
get back together maybe that was the truth all i can do is hope it
was and that Mel didn't beat her.....