So sorry I found out too late

How could I have been
so afraid to admit
how important your love was to me?

How could I have been
so unwilling to give,
and so blind that my heart couldn't see?

How could I have been
so unsure of myself....
so afraid that your heart wasn't mine?

How could I have been
so surprised at the pain....
and why won't it fade now with time?

I wish I could tell you
I need you - I want you.
I wish it was a mistake...

Still living - and learning.
Still searching for something.
So Sorry, I found out too late!