an alternate reading
Beata Maria
You know I cannot find my way
I've looked so long and yet I cannot see
Beata Maria
I cannot find the words to say
The horrors that have long been plaguing me
So tell me, Maria
Why I pray yet find no peace
Why no soul on earth will hear my cry
I'm lusting, I'm burning
Will this evil never cease
Won't this knot inside my soul untie?
Like fire, Hellfire
This fault that eats within
God's words won't inspire
Some one to purge my sin
I'm not a man
I am a beast
Somehow this evil
From my heart has been released
It isn't right
It can't be true
For all along I have
Been listening to You!
Forgive me, Maria
Remake me pure within Your sight
Redeem me and I will not go astray
I ask only one chance!
To rid my being of this blight
Or let me have the sin
and hold it tight
(You have abandoned me, Maria. My life to you seems to be nothing. Very well. If I must burn, then it shall be the hottest flame in creation!)
Hellfire, dark fire
You answer with your flame
My being, entire
Will join the Devil's game!
Maria, cure me of this
Maria, cure me of her
If prayer is dead,
I join the
flame!
copyright Covielle 1998.