Ok to start this i've been really depressed. If you care about me you will read what is listed below it will help you understand the way I have been acting lately. It will help you to understand that I've been in depression. When I was with my Ex Tiffany (My Son's Mother) I loved her with all my heart. She meant everything to me and I would do anything for her. However over the 6 1/2 years that we were together. She treated me like shit. She cheated on me. Everything I said or did she turned against me and made me feel like I was worthless. Like my singing. Alot of people say that I can sing and should become a professional and I mean alot of people. Not Tiffany, I love to sing but she would always tell me to shut up and that I sounded like crap. This tore my self esteem down. We met David in August of 1999 and he started hanging out with us and eventually living with us. We were were both good friends with him so I thought. In October of 2000 Tiffany while visiting her Dad in New York tells me on yahoo messenger that she had cheated on me with David. We had been together for almost 2 years and I was really hurt.
I immediatly kicked David out and he's lucky I didn't beat his ass being the nice guy that I am I told him to pack his shit and move. Which he did. Later that night he called me up drunk telling me that Tiffany loved him and that I was stupid for sticking with her because she was his and there was nothing that I could say or do about it. This was his plot with her to put me down I'm assuming. Cause it really did put me down. When Tiffany got back and we were back together for a while she talked me into letting David move back in because he was living on the streets.
Not long after we all moved out to my parents house for the time being to get away from the city life. Tiffany began to ignore me half the time I would try to tell her what was bothering me she would not even acknowledge what I was saying. She put everyone over me like if I wanted to talk to her alone just one on one wasn't happening. Everything we talked about she would tell all of her friends. I felt like nothing I said to her meant anything but she was there for me and I stuck with her. When her friends came over I suddenly did not exist no more. She would tell me to shut up if I tryed to talk to her. And yet my heart didn't want to let her go so instead I just got more and more depressed. I started to avoid going out into public. And just let myself get back into deeper depression.
We then broke up as I didn't want to be with her at the time. She started threatening me with her brothers and doing everything in her power to make my life a living hell. So I moved to the states to get away from her. I traveled everywhere but couldn't find a job worth working anywhere. So eventually I wound up back in Fairbanks.
On May 17th, 2003 my drink was spiked and alot of shit happened so I ended up talking to Tiffany click here to see more on the May 17th, 2003 incident. We ended up trying to work our relationship out and I told her what I expected her to work on in our relationship if I was going to be with her and for a few months things went well. Then she turned back into her self again and I put up with it until June of 2005. I told her when we moved to Colorado Springs, Colorado that David was not to come down there as that was the whole point in moving was to get away from him. But soon after he did move down there and it seemed they were doing everything together and I was left out. I finally said fuck it and ended it. This time for good
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