Greta was sitting alone in Salem Place, thinking about her life. She was going through a rough time and it was an emotional roller coaster for her. She hated being in this position, but her closest friends were there for her. Especially Eric. Eric was amazing, he was kind and gentle with her. He let her talk about her problems, he let her cry, he didn't care. He was always there for her when she needed him.
She had been pondering her relationship with Eric also. Eric was one of the most fascinating men she had ever met. She had fallen in love with him instantly, even when he was still in love with Nicole Walker. When he touched her or brushed past her, she felt electricity and her stomach developed butterflies. When he talked to her gently, or whenever he talked to her, she had the same gut- socking, dizzy feeling she always got.
It was always the same with Eric, he was always talking about them as just friends. Friends. That's all they were, that's all her ever wanted to be. But Greta couldn't blame him, Nicole had broken his heart. He was so sure that things with him and Nicole were going to work, but when she married Lucas, his world came crumbling down. And she was there to catch him, help him dust himself off, and bring him to his feet again.
Greta felt anger towards Nicole for hurting him. Nicole had explained that she did it out of love for Eric, but she begged to differ. Every time she saw Nicole, or Lucas, she wanted to just confront them about their mascarade. She wanted to ask them if this was entertaining for them to watch Eric suffer. She wanted to ask them if they enjoyed seeing Eric tumble downwards when he saw them together. But she couldn't tell them that, she couldn't tell anyone her feelings. Especially if Eric didn't feel the same way.
She could see it in Eric's eyes every time he saw Nicole. It was the same look she got when she was around Eric. She could tell he longed to take Nicole in his arms and never let go. But he was stronger then that, and she knew it. He was trying his best to move on with his life and forget about her. But, as easy as it sounds, it's as hard as hell. Greta was saying from experience.
There was a song named "Have You Ever?" by Brandy. It reminded Greta so much about her feelings and relationship with Eric. She had caught it on the radio once and recorded it onto a cassette tape. And from that time on, every night she would play it over and over until she fell asleep. Sometimes it made her cry, sometimes it made her angry, but whatever it made her feel, she still loved the song.
"If only he could love me back," she said softly to herself. She slowly stood up from the hard park bench and gave a sigh. She was fighting back tears as she placed her head in her hands. It was painful, love. Love was supposed to be a magnificent experience for everyone to encounter one time or another in their life. But not for her, she was one of those people who would probably never find the right person. She hated herself for thinking that way, but she knew that in the end it would probably be the truth. The hard, cold truth.
She wrapped her arms around her body as she strolled along through the small shopping center. It was a chilly December day in Salem and the temperatures were suppose to be dropping steadily. She breathed hard, causing a cloud of air to form. It was lightly snowing and the snowflakes tickled her nose as she walked along. Christmas was only two weeks away and she still had a bunch of shopping to do. She had to get gifts for all her friends, but she didn't know exactly what to get each of them. This was always a magical time of year for her. She loved Christmas when she could sing carols, hang decorations, or just sit by the fireplace and drink hot cocoa.
Sami was going to be coming over to her apartment tomorrow afternoon and help her hang decorations But Greta was going to put up the tree by herself, she didn't know why she wanted to do it alone, but she did. Sami was one of her newer friends and practically her only woman friend. Now she could talk to another girl, heart to heart, and not worry about what the guys thought. Of course, she would never tell her about her feelings for Eric, considering Eric was Sami's twin brother. No, she'd have to keep those thoughts to herself for now, and maybe forever.
The fresh snow crunched under her feet and she wrapped her scarf tighter around her neck. There were children playing in the middle of Salem Park as she passed by.
"I wish I could raise a family," she said, "all I ever wanted was to have a loving husband and kids, but it looks like that will never be."
She continued on, glancing over her shoulder at the children once more. They were so happy, just playing in the snow. It would take more then a snowfall to make her happy. Then, when she turned back around, she saw someone approaching her. It was Bo, her other closest friend. Eric, Bo, and her had once tried to search for Greta's past with Princess Gina, but they hadn't come up with anything solid. This had saddened Greta, but she had decided to start a new life with or without her mother. She had to go on, she couldn't dwell on the past.
"Well hello Greta," Bo said pleasantly. He had a few shopping bags in his hands.
"I see you're Christmas shopping, get anything for me?" she joked.
"Actually I did," Bo replied, " so you haven't started yet?"
"No," she shyly admitted, " but I'll get on it."
Bo smiled, then looked at his watch, "It was nice talking to you Greta, but I've got to get home, bye."
"Bye Bo," she said, "I'll see you at the Salem Ball on Christmas Eve."
"Not unless I see you first," he called over his shoulder.
Greta laughed to herself. He was always cracking jokes. He was always happy now. Hope had finally come back to her old self. They were now engaged and they were getting married in Janurary. She was so happy for them, they were finally getting what they've wanted for a long time. If only she could be that lucky.
Austin and Carrie had gotten back together and Mike had left Salem because of the lawsuit placed against him by Ali. Ali had definetly put a whopper on Mike, it had made him so upset, he had left Salem. She felt bad for him, considering all he's been through. He had lost the love of his life, Carrie, forever. She just prayed she wouldn't be that unlucky.
She couldn't wait to get home and just lay in bed and watch t.v., maybe listen to the radio. She could pig out on chocolate and drink coffee. She could rent a movie, maybe a love story. She loved love storys with romantic endings. The guy gets the girl and all is happily ever after. She had seen the movie Forces of Nature, but been majorly depressed with the overall movie. It ended wrong.
Greta had always imagined writing a romantic story. It would be perfect, with the perfect ending. It wouldn't be too sappy, too long, but just right. In her imagination she could do wonders. She often dreamed about Eric, sometimes it would be good, sometimes it would be bad, but however it ended, it was still pleasant. Just to see his face made her tingle.
When she finally got home, she unwrapped herself of the layers and layers of clothing she had bundled up in to go outside. She walked into the kitchen and poured herself a large, cold glass of milk. She walked into the living room and noticed the flashing light on her answering machine. She pressed the play button, hoping it might be Eric.
"Greta, this is Abe down at the Salem P.D, we have a man we're interrogating that maybe you should question. Come down by nine tonight."
She glanced at the clock. Good, it was only seven, so she had plenty of time. She had recently gotten a job at the Salem Police Department. She helped with investigations and interrogations, but she never went into a dangerous situation, Abe had made sure of that.
She once again bundled up and headed for the Police Department, not knowing what lie ahead for her, but she would soon find out. And the results may not be that bad...

Here are the lyrics to " Have You Ever?". Since I included the name of the song in my fanfic, did you think that I wouldn't add the lyrics?

Have You Ever
By: Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same way
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all you life
You've do anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've giving your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta do to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'coz baby I can't sleep

Chores till fade