Feeling for so long that I had to compromise/downplay my power, intelligence or talent in order not to threaten and lose the affection of those that I loved. There being this underlying belief that somehow both people couldn't share the power, that one person had to win and that the other had to "lose." My wanting for it to have been possible for both people to "win." With being in the public eye since I was young, those that were close to me often felt as though I was being inundated with praise from so many people that they (the people that I was closest to) themselves stopped giving it.
