"My Choice"

What have I become?
I am pitiful and helpless.
Never understanding why things happen.
I have no friends,
Only people who pity me.
I have let down my family.
I am not good enough--

Survival.
I cannot survive
Without love and affection.
I have a large beast inside of me
That I know I must slay
But I feel that I might just let it
Devour me.
Death comes closer
Day by day,
Minute by minute.
Hopefully it will take me soon.
I can't bear this agony anymore.
I have a fire inside of me.
Only I can put it out
But I choose not to.