Again

Why do I do this to myself? Why do I jump into everything without ever examing the ground below? Why do I never listen to people who try to warn me about the jagged rocks that are going to rip me to pieces? What do I think I am doing?

Why do I let my heart guide me in everything that I do and completely ignore what my brain is telling me?

I dropped my every defense at the slightest howing of affection. I exposed my pink fleshy heart and placed it right under your feet, and gave you every reason to jump. They say the definition of insanity is to repeat the same actions over and over and expect different results. Well, I am fucking certifiable. And it's not just me this time. I have dragged everyone else over the cliff with me. I got everybody else's expectations up and made them happy - and now I am going to let them all down. but that is a choice.

it seemed like a very easy choice, but the good and the bad are closer to balance now, and even though balance is good, it's not very convincing.

puppy
04/01/03
1:49 p.m.