Tired...Dead Tired...Tired of all the loneliness.. tired of the
lies and the pain. Make it stop, I'd give everything I have.
My mind can't take it. I'm ready to shutdown. A final shutdown. I long for peace, and I
can't find it anywhere.
I sit here... completely alone, reaching out to world once again. Everybody has somebody
to love and be with..except me.
I just want to be held, I want somebody to love me. Hold me, Don't ever let me go. The
sound of your heart beating and your arms wrapped around me is all that I need.
But you won't give me that, and Neither will anbody else. I'm destined to be alone
forever, just me.
Walking through the abyss of despair and anguish. No one is here to be my shelter. No one
is here to save me. I have to face the storms alone. The lightening cracks and hits the
ground right in front of me. It's getting closer and I don't know what to do. Don't know
how to handle this.
My guiding light has burnt out. Nothing but darkness remains.
I'm so alone.
puppy - 4/23/98