No Longer

As time rushes forward, I find myself no longer the child I once was. Life is not all fun and games anymore, and I am afraid that I can not hide in the shadows of my mother anymore, cryng for her to come scare away the monsters hiding in my closet.

The teddy bear that used to protect me as I slept is now just another item clutter up my room. Monsters aren't demons anymore, things like responsibility and debt now keep me awake at night.  Christmas used to be a source of great joy, but now it only reminds me that I have no money to buy things for the people that I love.

Why do things have to change? Can't I stay a child forever where the only injustice I might bear is not being able to stay-up late at night or being able to buy tickets to go see scary movies?

If I had known of all the horrors that lie here in the adult world, would I have been in such a hurry to grow up?

There are so many things that I want to do with my life, but so many obsticles standing in my path, and more and more is piled up everyday.

10/27/99

puppy.