Play Thing (Contradictions)

You have made me into your toy that you can pick up and play with whenever you like. Then you simply put me back on your shelf.

FUCK THIS! I am not your play thing. I will not sit here alone and wait for you. I have been down this road before and I will NOT go back.

I refuse to let you dictate my happiness. I want to be with you, and when you are with me I feel so alive. I am happy - but you are never here. I have to chase you around and beg for your attention.

You are hurthing me - and you don't even seem to notice, or you do notice and you don't care.

My mind wants me to be strong and walk away from this. My mind wants to forget about you and simply move on with my life.

But my heart longs to be with you. My heart will not let me let you go.

What should I do?

puppy
12/27/02
1:12 pm