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***RECAP: But it was too late. Nick had broken free from Howie’s grip, and was now standing face to face with Brian. "Oh, please Brian," Nick said, rolling his eyes, "you think I’m gonna take this? This from the guy who has been jealous of me all his life?!"***
"What the fuck are you talking about?" Brian asked, narrowing his eyes, as the five stood in the center of the tour bus, "what are you saying?"
"I’m saying," Nick slurred, "that ever since we formed this Godforsaken group YOU have been jealous of me!"
Brian clenched his fists in rage. "You don’t fucking know what you’re talking about!" he screamed back, "you’re making this up out of your own self-consciousness!"
Nick laughed and shoved Brian. "You WOULD say that....like you’re ever gonna admit the truth! Face it Brian, you’ve wanted to be me since you met me! You’ve been hiding in my shadow since I was thirteen! Don’t you tell me that I’m nothing, Brian.....because I KNOW I’m something!"
Nick took a breath, as Brian fought to find the right words. "Nick," AJ said sternly, "I think you’ve had enough..."
"Get outta my face," Nick snarled, "don’t even get me started on you."
"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?!" AJ replied, startled, at the same time that Brian said, "You are the biggest fucking piece of shit, Nick! How could you even make up such bullshit?!"
Nick blinked twice, looking at the group of four which had crowded around him. He felt as though he might fall over, but continued to rant. "Brian....just come to terms with yourself...it’ll make you feel better...." Brian lunged, but was stopped by Howie. Nick laughed, and turned to AJ. "And you! Mr. Johnny No-Name himself! You’re so....."
"Don’t even say it!" interrupted AJ, stepping closer to Nick with an evil look on his face, "don’t even open your fucking mouth! No one is interested in what you have to say! No one wants to pay attention to you anymore, you drunk bastard!"
Nick raised his eyebrows. "You would say that," he hissed, "God forbid we should take the attention off of Mr. Ego-trip! You know you ALWAYS wanna be the center of attention...it’s been that way since day one and you know it!"
"You better shut up right now!" screamed AJ, grabbing Nick by his collar, "before I pound you!" Nick shoved AJ off of him and said, "Oh fuck off, AJ.....go find yourself some thirteen-year-old to fuck around with."
AJ was about to make a move, when a small noise could be heard. AJ whipped around and saw Kevin trying his very hardest to stifle a giggle. "What’s your problem?" AJ hissed, looking Kevin straight in the eye. "Nothing," Kevin said, biting his lip to keep from laughing.
"Why the fuck are you laughing at me?!" AJ demanded, momentarily leaving Nick and turning his full attention to Kevin. Kevin wiped his eye and said, "Nothing personal, dude, but what Nick’s saying is true!"
Fire burned in AJ’s eyes. ‘Oh shit,’ thought Howie, rubbing his forehead. He knew AJ lately had a terrible temper. "You asshole," hissed AJ, "how dare you say that!"
Kevin giggled again, looking to Nick for help, who just had disgust in his eyes. "Well I’ll tell YOU something Mr. Personality! There’s absolutely NO reason you should be making fun of me!" AJ yelled.
Kevin stopped laughing, narrowed his eyes and said, "And why is that?" AJ cracked his knuckles and said, "Because, Kevin, at least I don’t dwell on things that have happened over ten years ago! You’re the most unapproachable person I know! And you wonder why none of our fans like you! It’s like talking to a brick wall!"
Kevin took a sharp breath. "You may think that, but I happen to disagree," he said sharply, his voice choking up a bit, "it’s not my fault you’re insensitive!"
"There’s a difference between being sensitive and crying your fucking eyes out every time someone mentions their father....I mean, fuck! It’s been over ten years! When are you ever gonna get over it?!"
Kevin opened his mouth, but nothing came out. "I don’t talk to my father, but you don’t see me crying about it! Hell, take him...he’s all yours! HE may as well be dead for all I care!" AJ finished, getting satisfaction from the hurt in Kevin’s eyes.
"ENOUGH!" cried Brian, glancing evilly at Nick and the rest of the guys, but was interrupted by AJ who said, "Shut up, church boy....no one is interested in whatever it is you have to say either!"
Brian’s mouth dropped open and came to his own defense. "What do you mean, ‘church boy’?! What exactly are you implying?" he asked, eyes flaring. "I mean that maybe you should take a step away from your fucking religion and be normal for once!" AJ yelled.
"My religion and what I believe is MY OWN business, and has nothing to do with you, all right? Let’s get that straight now....just because I don’t go out and fuck every girl that comes along doesn’t mean I’m not as good a person as you!" Brian screamed.
"JUST SHUT UP!" interrupted Howie, stepping in the middle of the argument, "everyone, stop! Enough! This isn’t the time to be fighting with each other!"
"Oh please," Brian answered, rolling his eyes, "you’d think that you’d become less of a pussy as the years went on! You can’t even stand to listen to this for a second! Grow up and stop being such a baby!"
Howie clenched his jaw in anger, trying to refrain himself from saying something he was going to regret, but he couldn’t stop himself. Here he was, witnessing his friends tear each other apart, and this was the one time he couldn’t stand idly by.
"Fuck off, Brian!" Howie yelled, shoving him aside, "don’t take your insecurities out on other people! And AJ? Just because the girls think you’re hot shit doesn’t mean you are, okay? Kevin, who do you think you are trying to pretend you’re so much better than the rest of us?! You AREN’T a model, and you never will be! Face it! And Nick? Just because you think all the fans love you and you’re the favorite doesn’t mean you can sit here, drunk like shit, bashing everyone else! You AREN’T better than us, people DON’T love you more, and if they knew what a huge asshole you were, they’d probably kill you!"
There was complete silence. No one knew what to say or do. Everyone was just shocked. "Well ya know what?!" AJ said loudly, interrupting the silence and causing everyone to jump, "I don’t care, Howie. I just don’t care. I can’t believe I’ve put up with you all for this long! It’s amazing I haven’t gone insane!"
"Fuck off!" Nick said, "you’re such a fucking liar and you know it! If you weren’t here, you’d be at McDonald’s or something flipping hamburgers! You’d be a nobody!"
AJ gritted his teeth and turned to the four other boys. "From the moment I met you all, I’ve thought you were all the biggest losers. Just because I haven’t said it out loud doesn’t mean it’s not true....I’ve kept my mouth shut for this long, but not anymore. I’m successful, and I know now that I can be successful minus all of you."
"What are you fucking saying, AJ?" Kevin said, rolling his eyes.
AJ shrugged. He looked at the others. "You tell me," he said, shooting everyone dirty glances, as he retreated to his small bunk.
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