Why is this necessary? Well, hell if I know...it seems like the thing we should do I suppose. Sue me, I got issues and someone needs to be let in all the fun. No sense in letting all my high minded thinking and aimless supposition go to waste, shit no, lay it on an unsuspecting public...can't be any worse than anything else I've done.
This has been one hell of a month so far...who would've ever thunk it. All those geniuses that Asia is supposedly producing in their schools can't quite seem to come to grips with fundemental economics that any inner-city school kid with a 7th grade reading level would be able to comprehend. The nations leading cat lover goes ga-ga over a puppy, and while it snowed in the South like they hadn't seen in forever, it was quite balmy up North, thanks to that convienent bogeyman, El Nino...hell even Iran wants to be our friend and with friends like them...well, move over pard, there's no stopping us now! Actually I think they want to cozy up to us before next summer's World Cup, so maybe we'll take it easy on them (go figure, someone is actually afraid of us for our soccer prowess).
I've realized that I'm coming to really hate what Christmas has become these days...why in the hell do we need to give people a list of what we want? If I want it, I'll buy it my damn self...I've done more shopping in the last 2 weeks for myself than I have for anyone else...I get sick of my parents and grandparents wanting to know if I've thought about what I want...come on people...I don't have that kind of time..."sure, what I'd really like is a Ferrari F50 and a Rolex, don't think that would be too much trouble, would it? (fake big grin)". I think that you should never buy presents for someone you don't know well enought to know what their likes and dislikes are...If I tell you to buy me a Nintendo 64 and you do, where's the excitement for either one of us? I'd rather have something that you would be able to say to me "I saw this and thought of you". That's how I do my shopping, I go around and look at shit, til it strikes me what each person I'm buying for might like. Then *gasps of horror* I buy it. Simple enough, right?
I saw this so-called book "Xena X-posed" (real catchy title, NOT), and I would have to say, a class of third graders could have written a more interesting, informative book...I don't have a particular problem with the fact that the broad who wrote it used no original research material, she just cut and pasted other people's work into a workable manuscript, that's the problem of the people whose work she used; instead of bitching about it, maybe they should slap an injunction on her (sorry Bret, I have no sympathy, get a lawyer). My main problem lies in the fact that it is a sloppy piece of work, poorly proofread, badly researched (honey, don't ya think they a tiny little bit of fact checking might have been in order?) and all in all, a disgrace to the profession of writing. Someone should shove a boot up this woman's ass for trying to pass herself off as a professional writer. I know writers and she gives the term a very bad name.
I've come to realize that the dynamics of interpersonal relationships take strange turns, and sudden ones as well. Must be El Nino's fault...yeah blame it on the weather. Before my very eyes, I have witnessed more unpleasantness lately between people than I have the stomach to deal with. It's hard to convey your feelings to people when all you want to do is grab them by the collar and tell them it's time to wake up and see what's going on. Maybe throw 'em in the dirt and bloody their nose, not as an abusive thing, just to get the cobwebs loose and make them see what the score is...I am not an advocate of violence for it's own sake, but there are times when it is justified, as long as it's on a superficial level...sorry, call me what you want.
One thing I really have a hard time accepting is personal disloyalty. It's a pathetic trait, and too many people don't have a good idea of when they are doing it...to betray somene who you consider a friend is the worst kind of thing you could do, it's worse than cheating, it's worse than killing...I think people who betray the trust of others should be whipped from now til next Sunday and believe me, I speak as someone who has done it enough to know I probably deserved it. I get sick of hearing about people who refuse to be honest with themselves and others and in the process, hurt everyone and do nothing to help themselves in the eyes of people who might be sympathetic to them. It's just damn selfish to want to have it all and not make a sacrifice when it would be the best thing for everyone.
What in the hell is going on? Sometimes, people find out things they didn't know before and that they were probably not meant to know, and it changes everything. It's a damn good thing I have no expectations of other people, that way, they can never disappoint you. Nothing you are told will ever surprise you, if you believe that anything is possible. Too many people live their lives through mushy love-songs, believing that they hold some sort of key to understanding...If Love is the answer, frankly, I don't wanna even guess what the question is...it's not something to be contemplated without some sort of consciousness altering.
Hmmm...what else can I ramble on about...how much loyalty can you expect from someone when you take away their dignity? Is it such a crime that someone may not feel like being as brave and high minded as another, when that person has decided to look out for himself?
Holy shit, what the hell was that last paragraph about? I wanted to start into something about the people I used to work for, who in their infinite stupidity decided that they needed to close down the place where I worked and move it out of state...just business, they said...well, when I don't wanna work with the same intensity and just wanna do what I have to to get by, it ain't nothing personal, ya know...just business, Pedro...but no, you have to be worked like a dog, you owe it to them...hell, you have to repay them for giving you a job in the first place. Yeah sure...have a nice day, hope one of your kids walks in front of a cement mixer...just business, asshole.
Getting the picture here yet?
Who are these fucking people telling me that this thing and that thing will kill me so I should not do it? Like not doing it is gonna keep me alive forever? When a doctor tells me that if I stop doing something, I'll live forever, I'll quit on the spot...don't need any kind of treatment if that's the incentive. It ain't smokers and drinkers and druggies who are driving up health costs, it's people who put 90 year old people in the hospital for a cold...let's let people die without trying to keep them alive for no good reason...what's the point? In and out, in and out...there are people who are professional hospital patients...the lugheads who want zero population growth are barking up the wrong tree, if we want to level off the population, let's stop trying to keep people alive to be 100...live your life, get the most out of it and then GO! It's not a difficult thing to come to grips with.
Guess I shouldn't go crazy and rant about everything all on the first day...or I'll be wishing one day when I need an idea that I hadn't blown the wad all on the first day. This was more an experiment, I probably will stick to one topic more often, rather than jerk around and change directions so much. So come back, it can't possibly get any worse...