To Sheila
twilight fades through blis-
ered avalon the sky's cruel
torch on arching autobahn
into the uncertain divine we
scream into the last divide
you make me real you make
me real strong as I feel you
make me real sheila rides on
crashing nightingale intake
eyes leave passing vapor trails
with blushing brilliance alive
because its time to arrive
you make me real you make
me real strong as i feel you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe dis-
card my friends to change the scenery it
meant the world to hold a bruising faith
but now it's just a matter of grace a
summer storm graces all of me highway
warm sing silent poetry I could bring
you the light and take you home into the
night you make me real lately I just
can't seem to believe you make me real
discard my friends to change the scenery
strong as I feel it meant the world to
hold a bruising faith you make me real
but now it's just a matter of grace
Ava Adore
it's you that I adore
you will always be my whore
you'll be a mother to my child
and a child to to my heart
we must never be apart
we must never be apart
lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head
we must never be apart
we must never be apart
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left to die
drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you should ever leave behind
in time
in you I see dirty
in you I count the stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart
drinking mercury to the mystery
of all that you should ever seek to find
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
in time
we must never be apart
and you'll always be my whore
cause you're the one that I adore
and I'll pull you're crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
in you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
in you I feel so pretty in you I taste god
we must never be apart
PERFECT.
Iknow we're just like
old friends.we just
can't pretend.that
lovers make
amends.we are rea-
sons so unreal.we
can't help but feel
that something has
been lost.but please
you know you're just
like me.next time I
promise we'll be per-
fect.per fect.perfect
strangers down the
line.lovers out of
tim e.m e m o r i e s
unwind.so far I still
know who you
are.but now I wonder
who I was angel you
know it's not the
end.we'll always be
good friends.but the
letters have been
sent on.so please you
always were so
free.you'll see I
promise we'll be per-
f e c t.p e r f e c t
strangers when we
meet.strangers on the
street.lovers while
we sleep.perfect.you
know this has to
be.we always we're
so free.we promised
that we'd be.perfect.
DAPHNE DESCENDS
with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle
for the perfumed kiss he
makes you miss him more
than home you love him you
love him more than this you
love him and you cannot
you can't resist you love
him you love him for your-
self you love him and no
one no one else past side-
walk ashes a last lovers
are you come apart to
intertwine it was all so
simple as you watched him
move across the darkness
in your room you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one no
one else and to the winding
vines the pretty boys dive
and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind will
you lose him then on some
gentle dawn this boy is here
and gone you love him you
love him for yourself you
love him and no one no one
else you love him you love
him more than this you love
him and you cannot you
can't resist you love him
ONCE UPON A TIME
Mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go
Fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?
Mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes
Fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?
Tuesdays come and gone
restless still to drive
try to leave it all behind
fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leaves
I go crawlin', crawlin' over me
Once upon a time in my life...
I went falling
Mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mothers tears grown cold
TEAR
the lights came on fast lost in
motorcrash gone in a flash unreal but you
knew all along
you laugh the light I sing the songs to
watch you numb
I saw you there you were on your way
you held the rain and for the first time
heaven seemed insane cause heaven is to
blame for taking you away
do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't do?
where is your heart?
where is your heart gone to?
tear me apart tear me apart from you
you laugh the light I cry the wound in grey
afternoons
I saw you there you were on your way
you kissed me cold and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
for taking you away cause heaven is to
blame for takingt you away
the lights came to pass dead opera
motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal in nitrous overcast
do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't choose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't lose?
tear me apart tear me apart from you
where is your heart?
where has your heart run to?
CRESTFALLEN
who am I to need you when I'm down and
where are you when I need you around your
life is not your own and all I ask is for
another chance another way around you to
live by circumstance once again who am I
to need you now to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy you were
never meant to belong to me and you may go
but I know you won't leave too many years
built into memories your life is not your own
who am I to need you now to ask you why
to tell you no to deserve your love and sym-
pathy you were never meant to belong to me
who am I to you? along the way I lost my
faith and as you were you'll be again to mold
like clay to break like dirt to tear me up in
your sympathy you were never meant to
belong to me you were never meant to belong
tome you were never meant to belong to me
who am I?
A P P L E S + O R A N J E S
What if the sun refused to what is isn't you? what
shine? what if the clouds are you gonna do? it
refused to rain? what if came from your thoughts
the wind refused to blow? your dreams and visions
what if the seas refused ripped up from your
to wave? what if the weeks and indecisions
world refused its turn? what if the sun refused to
what if the stars would shine? what if the clouds
hesitate? what if what is refused to rain? what if
isn't true? what are you the world refused to turn?
going to do? what if what what if the clocks would
is isn't you? does that hesitate? what if what is
mean you've got to lose? isn't true? what are you
digging for the feel of gonna do? what if what is
something new what if the isn't you? does that mean
silence let you dream? you've got to lose? dig-
what if the air could let ging for the feel of
you breathe? what if the something new does that
words would bring you mean you've got to
here? what if this sound choose? the feel of some-
could bring you peace? thing new does that mean
what if what is isn't true? you've got to lose? the
what are you gonna do? thoughts you cannot use
digging for the feel of what are you gonna do?
something new what if
PUG
kiss and kill me sweetly come and drive me
home drag the miles in me I am yours alone
inside where it's warm wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn fight myself in two in
two into you desire me so deeply drain and
kick me hard whisper secrets for me try to go
too far inside where it's warm wrap myself in
you outside where I'm torn fight myself in two
in two into... please don't change please
don't change at all bring your rain bring your
rain to fall inside where it's warm wrap myself
in you outside where I'm torn fight myself in
two in two into you come and kiss me sweetly
ride the telephone drag the miles to me I am
yours alone yours alone on the telephone
yours alone looking for a kiss kiss yours alone
THE TALE OF DUSTY AND PISTOL PETE
DUSTY SCREAMS through
doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?" pistol
pete removes the final breathes
from her unkind and she is shak-
en what does this mean in love or
in peace? with you lying next to
me so faithless serene and she
calls to him let the waste cross the
ancient trails to you far out
beneath the sorrow clouds let
them taste the bitter lost mistake
of you let them cry out through
your rusted scars alone he roams
inside the ordinary catacombs of
her waiting with raven hands she
steels and staggers towards her
man still scorned by his demon
because he's undone become the
language of disaster and love
vengeance and dust and she calls
to him let the waste cross the
ancient trails to you far out
beneath the sorrow clouds let
them taste the bitter lost mistake
of you let them cry out through
your rusted scars dusty screams
through doors and imaginary
scenes of hurt and teardrop as he
holds her down in the cold lonely
winds together again her inside
him and she calls to him let the
waste cross the ancient trails to
you far out beneath the sorrow
clouds let them taste the bitter
lost mistake of you let them cry
out through your rusted scars
ANNIE - DOG
amphetamine annie-dog and bed to bed
has her leash and a face gives of herself and the
her velvet spleen her magnet head
shackle spine
her diamond curse another floor another
it comes with mine c e i l i n g
counting stars with double
a vessel she m e a n i n g s
for violent I
confession arms awake is it wrong to be swallowed
mine mine you were always w h o l e
m i n e to disappear in her
possessed by my taste to give to her the priceless
p e a c e
and below the angel dog of giving up control
combs her hair and sings
her psalms we tumble out into the
the bombs go off s t r e e t s
she doesn't notice and annie-dog she drags
it all goes wrong her leash
she sets things tragic pretty face
she is venus ugly mouth
she is mars bitter bred and so released
she's electric
and the struggle of and by the no
and in the yes
upon her face we leave no annie goes if you couldn't
t r a c e g u e s s
but in her stomach mercury
a g e d a simple man
a sycophant
she holds the blood her elephant with the laugh-
she carves the knives ing cough
she digs the wires in our she wants clean sheets
b a b i e s and fresh flowers
her dental shots
amphetamine annie-dog and the hong kong glue
pulls her trash
and her stories amphetamine annie-dog
from place to place has her leash and a face
SHAME
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the time
shame
you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are
shame
love is good and love is kind
love is good and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is good all the time
hello goodbye
you know you made us cry
BEHOLD! THE NIGHT MARE
I've faced the fathome still believe I believe
in your deep withstood you so may you come
the suitors quiet siege with your own knives
pulled down the heav- you'll never take me
ens just to please you alive with all the
appease you the wind force of what is
blows and I know I true is there nothing I
can't go on digging can do? I can't go on
roses from your grave digging roses from
to linger on beyond the your grave to linger on
beyond where the beyond the beyond
willows weep and the where the willows
whirlpools sleep you'll weep and the
find me the coarse tide whirlpools sleep you'll
reflects sky and the find me and the night
night mare rides on mare rides on and the
and the night mare night mare rides on
r i d e s with a december black
on with a december psalm and the night
black psalm and the mare rides on I've
night mare rides on your deep with-
what I fear is lost here stood the suitors quiet
the wind blows and I siege pulled down the
know all you have to heavens just to please
do is run away and you to hold the
steal yourself from me f l o w e r
become a mystery to I can't keep
gaze into you're so
cruel in all you do but
FOR MARTHA
whenever I run wher-
ever I run to you lost
one it's never done just
hanging on the past
has let me be returning
as if dream shattered
as belief if you have to
go don't say goodbye if
you have to go don't
you cry if you have to
go I will get by some-
day I'll follow you and
see you on the other
s i d e
but for the grace of
love I'd will the mean-
ing of heaven from
above your picture out
of time left aching in
my mind shadows kept
alive if you have to go
don't say goodbye if
you have to go don't
you cry if you have to
go I will get by I will
follow you and see you
on the other side but
for the grace of love
who'd will the meaning
of heaven from above
long horses we are
born creatures more
than torn mourning
our way home
BLANK PAGE
was all the rage never meant to say anything in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest get dressed drove the state line looking
for you at the five and dime stop sign told me stay at home told me
you were not alone blank page was all the rage never meant to hurt
anyone in bed I was half dead tired of dreaming of rest you haven't
changed you're still the same may you rise as you fall you were easy
you are forgotten you are the ways of my mistakes I catch the
rainfall through the leaking roof that you had left behind you
remind me of that leak in my soul the rain falls my friends call
leaking rain on the phone take a day plant some trees may they shade
you from me may your children play beneath blank page was all the
rage never meant to say anything in bed I was half dead tired of
dreaming of rest got dressed drove the state line looking for you at
the five and dime but there I was picking pieces up you are a ghost
of my indecision no more little girl
17
17 seconds of compassion
17 seconds of peace
17 seconds to remember love is the energy
behind which all is created
17 seconds to remember all that is good
17 seconds to forget all your hurt and pain
17 seconds of faith
17 seconds to trust you again
17 seconds of radiance
17 seconds to send a prayer up
17 seconds is all you really need
