by Karen (Nightcrawler) Manetta-Nighthawk Commando
Murdock walked beside the attendant with his head down, his thoughts a
million miles away. The closer they got to the bank of elevators, the
slower his steps became. It wasn't that he didn't want to see Tracey, it
was more that he had to prepare himself. Tracey, at the thought of her
name, a vision of her laughing face and green eyes that sparkled
whenever she was angry came into his mind. Tracey, with long chestnut
hair that he used to spend hours brushing, making it shine and glitter
like a fine gemstone. Tracey, who knew more about Murdock than anyone
alive, even the guys on the team. Tracey, who lay dying in the AIDS unit
of the VA hospital. He closed his eyes tight for a moment, tamping down
the anger he could feel building up whenever he acknowledged her
illness, and it's inevitable outcome. He felt a hand at his shoulder,
and saw the concerned look of Manny, the attendant. He shook it off and
explained he was fine and continued to the elevators. Manny nodded, but
they both knew he was far from fine. When they stepped off at her floor,
he shook himself off physically and mentally. As they approached the
unit, he shook his head one more time, mentally reminding himself that
it was now showtime. He smiled a cheery greeting to the nurses behind
the desk at the nursing station, asking after their families and other
little personal gossip before finally asking how Tracey was doing. The
smiles always faded then, and no matter who he asked, they'd just look
down, and shake their head from side to side.
Murdock entered her room softly, not wanting to wake her if she were
asleep. He looked at her and swallowed the lump in his throat, biting
his tongue to force back the tears that threatened . Somehow she sensed
his presence and opened her eyes. Immediately she smiled and tried to
sit up. Murdock hurried to her side, putting his arm around her,
adjusting her pillows and using the remote control to change the
position of the bed.
"Hey sweetheart, how are you? I brought Manny to say hello." Murdock
bent over her and kissed her lightly on the forehead, holding her hand
and squeezing it gently. Manny kidded around with her a little, telling
her the Psych Unit had never been the same since she transferred out.
She smiled, but didn't say anything. Then Manny left, telling Murdock to
take his time, he would wait for him at the Nursing Station.
Murdock looked her over closely noting the changes in her body and
knowing she couldn't take much more. Already her emaciated appearance
made her bones protrude. Death was closer than ever before. She was
covered in a fine film of sweat, her hair was long gone and even her
scalp was shiny with sweat. She must have followed his eye movements
because she looked up at a black baseball cap he'd given her and nodded.
He fetched it and gently placed it on her head. She smiled, but no
matter how hard she tried, she couldn't stop the tears. Murdock's heart
was breaking. He put his arms around her and gathered her close to his
chest and just rocked her. Finally, he couldn't stand it anymore and
laid down beside her on the bed, holding her close to him, and kissing
her nose, her eyelids, and finally her lips.
"Don't! Don't do that, please. I couldn't stand it if you got sick." she
implored him, fear in her eyes.
Murdock smiled down at her," Kissing you like that will never make me
sick, so hush. You know that, we discussed this with the doctors,"
Murdock reassured her.
"I know, but I don't trust them." she looked into the pilot's dark brown
eyes and saw the no trespassing sign. Sometimes they were so open, she
could see into the bottom of his soul. Other times, like now, he
wouldn't let anyone see anything. She sighed as she realized why. She
was dying, and Murdock was the only friend she had, the only person who
would miss her and grieve for her. He wouldn't want her to see his pain.
She might not be able to see it, but she could feel it, and it's
enormity overwhelmed her. She started to cry and couldn't stop. He held
her close, but never tried to stop her crying. She remembered him
telling her once that she should cry more often, because it was God's
way of washing away the pain and scars life had a way of leaving on you.
The nurse came in to change the IV solution, and feigned shock at
discovering Murdock beside her on the bed. She made all manner of wild
and ridiculous threats as Murdock slowly removed himself from the bed to
a chair as he and the nurse secretly enjoyed the faint smile that
appeared on Tracey's face. After the nurse left, he filled her in on the
latest gossip from the unit. Imitating various patients that Tracey
knew, and exaggerating them slightly. Finally, he could see how much his
visit had exhausted her, and announced it was time to leave. This time
when he looked deep into her eyes. he could see death was even closer.
He kissed the top of her forehead again, and held her tight, looking
over the top of the baseball cap, blinking back tears, not saying
anything, afraid to speak.
Her voice seemed to come from far away, faint and husky from lack of
use, "This may be the last time we see each other. Promise me you'll
tell your friends. " Just those few words and she was breathless.
"I can't."
"Murdock, you have to. Please, promise me! "
"Please, no. I can't."
She closed her eyes for a moment and he thought perhaps she'd given up.
He was wrong. She was just regrouping. A moment later she opened her
eyes and reached out a trembling hand for him . With her last bit of
strength she said " For me, please. Promise me?"
Put like that, how could he refuse? He answered, with a catch in his
voice, "All right. I promise."
She relaxed then, and he let her head down gently on the pillow. He
readjusted the bed to the original position, and adjusted the sheets
until finally there was nothing left to do but look in her eyes. She
reached out her hand to him and he grasped it readily.
"It's okay, hon. I'm ready. " she closed her eyes again for a moment and
then opened them and continued, "I'm tired and I'm ready. Hell, it can't
possibly be any worse than life." They both kind of half smiled at that.
Murdock took the trembling hand he was holding and brought it to his
lips and kissed it. Tears slid shamelessly down his cheeks. Somehow he
knew this would be the last time they talked, and knowing that was
killing him inside. 'How do you say goodbye ?' he wondered.
She looked up at him again and seemed to sense his quandry. " I'm going
to go to sleep now." She announced softly. She started to turn her head
away from him just as a spasm of pain hit her. Taking a deep breath, she
didn't open her eyes right away, but when she did, Murdock was still
there. She asked in a pitiful sad voice, weak and tinged with pain,
almost a whisper, "Wish me safe journey?" Murdock mentally braced
himself, not sure he could do this, then told her in a shaky voice,
"Safe journey, kid." Her body seemed to relax and she lost consciousness.
Murdock stood for a moment, staring at her face, listening to her
labored breathing, knowing this could be the last time he saw her, then
turned and quickly left the room. He walked fast heading straight for
the elevators knowing Manny would follow and understand. Murdock wrapped
his arms around himself, but let the steady stream of tears fall. Manny
tried to put his arm around him once, but Murdock knocked it away and
just glared at him. Manny stepped back, giving him space. He went
straight to his room, insisting Manny lock it. Murdock lived on a locked
ward. In the day time when there was an abundance of staff, it wasn't
necessary to lock his room, but it wasn't so much being locked in as
much as he wanted everyone else locked out. He went to stand at
the window and just stood there staring out at nothing, waiting. In the
late afternoon, he heard the key in the door and turned anxiously. It
was Dr. Richter. Murdock stared at him for a moment, then turned back to
the window.
"Murdock, Nurse Patterson just called me."
Murdock pivoted around immediately, fear in his eyes.
Dr. Richter stood there for a moment studying the pilot before he
continued, "I'm sorry. She's slipped into a coma. She's very weak. Her
heart is erratic. They doubt she'll last the night."
Murdock didn't answer for a long while, then unable to hide his remorse
replied in defeated tones, "I know. I saw her today. She said she was
ready." He sighed heavily, there was so much else he wanted to say but
he couldn't. No matter how many times he tried, he just couldn't. No one
understood about Tracy and him. Not even Richter. No one knew, no one.
He looked up as he realized Richter had been asking him a question. "
Sorry, I didn't catch that."
"I said Tracey is ready to die, but are you ready to let her go?"
Murdock shook his head no, and then said slowly in a quivering voice "I
know how much she's suffered, and I understand she's tired of fighting a
battle she can't win, but I will never be ready to let her go. Never!"
They talked a few minutes more about less emotional topics. At one point
Richter started walking over to Murdock, but Murdock lifted his head and
the look in his eyes said "Back off!" Richter did and left soon after.
Murdock wrapped his arms around himself again, continuing to stand by
the window, waiting as dusk fell. Inside he felt cold, and thought maybe
he would never be warm again.
She died that night and was buried without fanfare two days later.
Murdock hadn't spoken out loud since he was told of her passing. He
attended a small wake, one that he had paid for and arranged beforehand.
He attended the funeral. He did not speak and he did not cry.
Dr. Richter was beside himself with concern. He had cared for Murdock a
long time and never seen him so grief-stricken. He refused to eat, talk,
or maintain his personal hygiene. Not surprisingly, he wasn't sleeping.
He refused to let anyone touch him. The psychiatrist tried pumping him
up with antidepressants, but they take at least three weeks to build up
in the bloodstream before they have any effect. At the rate he was
withdrawing, it was obvious Murdock didn't have three weeks. He needed
help, and he needed it now. For the hundredth time, Dr.Richter wished he
knew how to get in touch with Murdock's friends, the A Team.
Hannibal and B.A. were sitting on the deck of Face's favorite beach
house, eating pizza. Face was leaning on the railings looking out to
sea. Suddenly he turned and asked "Has anyone heard from Murdock?"
Hannibal shook his head and B.A. just growled. It would have been
surprising if they had, Murdock usually only called Face.
"He hasn't called me this week, he usually does. You know, he leaves me
silly little messages, Billy needs a new collar, Thunder needs more
sugar cubes, can I take him shopping at K Mart for new sneakers, that
sort of thing. This week he hasn't left one message. I'm worried. The
last few weeks, I've known something's been bothering him, but he
wouldn't talk about it."
Hannibal looked at B.A. Face and Murdock were very, very close, and very
tuned into each other. If Face thought there was a problem, Hannibal was
willing to wager there was. "Call him, Face. Now." he ordered.
Face looked relieved that no one thought he was being stupid and happily
dialed Murdock's number. He sat down abruptly when he got the recording
the number was temporarily disconnected. Immediately, he called back the
V.A. and said he was a friend trying to reach H.M. Murdock. The nurse
informed him that Murdock was not doing too well, had lost a close
friend and stopped talking all together. He had also thrown his phone
away, and insisted the phone wires be removed. The nurse suggested Face
check back in a week or so and see how he was doing then. Face had
turned chalk white during the conversation, increasing Hannibal's
concern.
"Something's wrong, Hannibal. I have to see him right away. He's not
talking and not eating. Some friend of his died? Who? I didn't think
there was anyone there that he was really close to. I knew something was
wrong. Damn it, I should have called before."
Face grabbed his keys to the vette when Hannibal said " Wait! We'll all
go together. You never know, it might be a trap."
Face shook his head 'no'. He knew something was wrong. He should have
called sooner. Nevertheless, Hannibal insisted they all go together.
Hannibal and B.A. would wait outside.
Face entered the V.A. facility at Westwood armed with transfer papers
dealing with a special grief therapy program. The nurse looked so
relieved when she heard his spiel that Face became even more concerned..
After asking several questions and a brief conversation regarding the
pilot, she took him to the solarium. Murdock was sitting on the floor
beneath some sort of tropical tree. He had his hat on and his jacket and
by his side was a little overnight bag. He was unshaved, his hair
uncombed, his general appearance was unkempt, and he reeked from not
bathing. The nurse called his name several times without a response.
Finally, Face knelt down in front of him, humming a lullaby he used to
sing to him in the prison camp after interrogation. He folded Murdock
into his arms, half whispering the soothing words into his ear. Slowly
Murdock wrapped his arms around Face and held on. Face rocked him gently
and continued crooning softly the old Lullaby Hannibal had taught him.
Slowly Murdock lifted his head, recognition dawning. He touched the
cheeks of the lieutenant, as tears fell from his eyes, "Face" he said,
"You came, you knew?"
Face looked down at his friend lovingly as a smile tugged at his face,
"Of course I knew."
The nurse watched astonished, "What a remarkable program!"
"Yes, it's amazing what the right touch can do." Face commented as he
helped Murdock to his feet. We'll have him back to you in no time." 'I
hope' prayed Face.
Murdock clung to Face the way a frightened child clings to his mother.
Face signed the appropriate papers and before long, they were stepping
into the van. Hannibal turned around with a greeting that just about
died on his lips. Murdock looked like hell. Face didn't look much
better. Hannibal motioned for B.A. to drive and turned back in his seat.
They arrived at the beach house and as he left the van, each of his
friends hugged Murdock and expressed their sorrow for his loss. He
accepted their condolences but still clung tightly to Face. Face took
him right to the master bedroom, closed the door, and just hugged the
pilot. Murdock collapsed against his shoulder and started to sob. No
matter what Face said, his friend was inconsolable. Finally, he guided
him over to the bed, and between sobs, managed to remove his flight
jacket, and lay him down. He laid down next to him then and just held
him, letting him know he was there for him, and would help him any way
he could. He started crooning the old lullaby again and soon Murdock
fell asleep. Careful not to disturb him, Face joined his friends in the
other room.
"How is he?" asked Hannibal.
Face sat down and let out a long sigh. "He's in real bad shape, almost
like the prison camp. I don't understand. Who was this chick?"
"Well, you must have checked on her. What did you find out? "Hannibal
asked.
"Not much. Tracey Dylan, female, age 27, died of Aids eight days ago.
"Face heard the startled exclamations of the other two but continued. "
She had been an 'in' patient on the Psych ward off and on for several
years. She and Murdock were lovers, at least according to the staff I
spoke to. I, uh, I asked about Murdock, maybe I shouldn't have, but they
said he's clean, so far.
Hannibal let out a sigh of relief. "All right. Whatever it is, we can
handle it. We have pulled him through rough patches before, we can do it
again. From now on, he's never alone. Face, are you sure he never
mentioned a girl to you?"
"I swear, Hannibal. He did mention he had a friend dying of Aids, but
well, I just assumed it was a guy."
Hannibal looked at Face, annoyed that he had allowed himself to assume
anything and started to say something to that effect when he remembered
Face was hurting too. No one was closer to Murdock. Hannibal often
wondered how to describe their closeness. It wasn't sexual, but it
wasn't asexual either. Sometimes they seemed like best friends,
sometimes like brothers, sometimes like a lovers, and sometimes like
mother and child, with each taking turns playing the maternal role. He
wondered if they were even aware of the sexual aspect of their
relationship. Hannibal had seen undertones of passion, but doubted they
had ever gone any further than an intimate caress.
Face returned to the bedroom and laid down beside his friend. Murdock
seemed to sense his presence , curling into Face's side. Face smiled and
wrapped an arm around him in a comforting way, letting him know he was
not alone, and falling asleep himself. Hannibal checked on them and
couldn't help thinking they looked like two little boys. He called B.A.
over and let him look. B.A. looked and just smiled. "Anyone who doesn't
know them would think they're two little angels. We're the only ones
that really know them, right Hannibal?"
Hannibal nodded. Shortly after, B.A. went outside to do maintenance work
on the van.
Two hours went by before Murdock finally stirred. He opened his eyes and
remembered where he was and why. The pain of his loss hit him again, his
heart literally ached. He closed his eyes momentarily, and opened them
to see Face looking down at him, gently stroking his hair. It was a
comforting gesture that Murdock appreciated. They laid there together in
companionable silence, no need for words. After a while, Face stood up,
then grabbed his pillow and without any warning smacked Murdock with it,
then leaped on top of him, tickling him like mad, yelling , "tickle
monster!" Although half hearted at first, Murdock was soon beating Face
with his pillow so hard, the feathers were starting to fly. In between
the pillow attack, he was tickling Face in all his secret places, like
the bottom of his feet and the small of his back and just below his arm
pits. It didn't take long for Hannibal to come rushing to the doorway on
hearing the excited pleas of "No, No more, Please, etc." only to find
the room full of feathers, and the two grown men prostrate with
laughter. Hannibal smiled, relieved to see the smile on the captain's
face.
"I hate to put a damper on your fun guys, but it's B.A.'s turn to cook
tonight." drawled Hannibal.
The two men looked up at the colonel in unison and groaned together
"B.A.?!"
B.A. was notorious for his lack of skill in the culinary department. Face
who was laying on his back, looked over at Hannibal and said, "I can
remember what you said the first time he made us a meal, 'don't worry
guys, he'll get better with practice. ' Well he's had fifteen years of
practice, Hannibal. When's he going to get better?"
B.A. poked his head around the corner and glared at Face, "You got
something to say about my cooking?" he demanded.
Face blanched. He swallowed a lump in his throat and hastily denied that
he had anything to say about B.A 's cooking.
"B.A." Murdock whined, "Oh, B.A., please, couldn't we send out for
Captain Bellybuster's tonight? Please, please, please?" He turned his
most soulful look on B.A., whose ferocious glare slowly melted into a
big grin.
"Okay" he conceded, unable to say no to his friend..
"Captain. How about you and I take a walk while Face and B.A. get
dinner?" asked Hannibal.
The captain, who laid sprawled beside Face, just nodded, his face all
serious now. Face jumped up and grabbed a towel from the adjoining
bath, and flung it in Murdock's face. "Here. Take a shower first."
Murdock just grinned, caught the towel and walked into the bathroom,
momentarily escaping the colonel. It had been several days since he had
showered and he knew he smelled rank. He stripped quickly and stepped
under the running hot water. There was a jazz station on somewhere
that's music was being piped through to every room in the house. It felt
good to stand under the hot water as the soapy lather rinsed away. He
thought about his three friends and how lucky he was to have them, how
they never said a word about his appearance and his unshaved face. They
just let him know they loved him and they were there for him if he
needed them. When he stepped out of the shower, he looked into the
mirror at his reflection as clouds of steam swirled around him. He
couldn't help thinking as he watched a wispy curl of steam, that's what
life was like. Now you see it, now you don't. A vision of Tracy, healthy
and unravaged came to mind then drifted away just as it was coming into
focus. Murdock shook his head and concentrated on shaving. He joined
Hannibal on the deck a short while later.
Hannibal eyed him up and down, taking in everything, " Feel better?" he
questioned.
"Yeah" the pilot admitted sheepishly.
"Good. Let's go." Hannibal replied and they started down the stairs to
the beach. They slipped their respective footwear off at the bottom of
the stairs and started walking barefoot through the sand. Neither man
spoke as the gritty sand scrunched up between their toes . They walked
together for a good half hour when they finally came upon some big old
rocks. They turned to look at each other and silently agreed. Then they
started climbing up the rough and sometimes slippery surface. The found
a comfortable spot to sit and watch the sun go down over the water.
Neither man spoke , but the silence was comfortable.
Finally, Murdock said "Her name was Tracey."
Hannibal looked away and asked" How did you meet?"
Murdock replied, "uh, we, we. I, uh, we, ..." Murdock sighed. He knew it
would be hard, but he hadn't expected it to be this hard. Then Hannibal
lit a cigarette in the dark, the match momentarily lighting up his face.
Once lit, he handed it to Murdock. The pilot looked at it with secret
longing, but shook his head no.
"Take it. Face bought them for you, said you would need them." Hannibal
lied as he handed the lit cigarette and the rest of the pack to the
amazed pilot.
"But he told me after I quit..."
"Murdock, I don't think he wants you to take up smoking again, but he
knew you'd need something to help you talk."
Murdock inhaled deeply on the cigarette, enjoying the mild buzz he got
from not having smoked in so long. He exhaled through his nostrils and
felt a momentary sensation of power.
"So how did you meet?" Hannibal tried again.
"uh, well, actually I'd seen her around, but we kind of moved in
different circles. She had childhood schizophrenia, that stabilized when
she got through adolescence. Every once in a while she'd stop taking her
medication, and she'd be looney toons big time. Pretty little thing,
long brown hair, but she had a mouth like a sewer, and was forever
getting into fights. I remember one time she took on Old Henry, just
'cos he didn't say excuse me when he bumped into her friend. Old Henry,
he liked to pull out sinks from the wall when he got going, and Tracey,
she liked to swing off the ceiling, literally. It's too bad, her friends
were only real to her. She had some neat friends , Hannibal."
"So, Captain. How did you actually meet?" Hannibal asked again, then
waited as the silence stretched out.
"She walked into the wrong place at the wrong time." The pilot lifted
the cigarette to his lips with a trembling hand. "There was a staff
person there that I didn't get along with. All that night he busted my
chops. Finally, I just said 'fuck it. What are they gonna do to me ? Put
me in a jacket?' and I went after the son of a bitch." Murdock paused to
take another deep drag on the cigarette. Slowly he exhaled and
continued. "They put me in a jacket all right, but that's not all they
did. There were two of them, and they dragged me into the library, bent
me over the table, and well, you know the rest."
Hannibal spit out a violent expletive. "Why didn't you say something?!
I'm sorry. I've never even thought of something like that happening to
you." Hannibal exclaimed and Murdock thought he sounded really appalled.
"It happens, Hannibal. It wasn't the first time and it probably won't be
the last. Predators go where the game is. What better game than someone
who can bitch and moan, and no one will believe him because he's crazy?"
Murdock stubbed the cigarette out against the rock. "Anyway" he
continued, "Tracey decides to visit the library after hours. She started
yelling, throwing books at them, running up and down the hallway
screaming. " Murdock didn't say anything else for a while as he
remembered.
"What did they do to her?" Hannibal asked.
Murdock lit a cigarette, and turned his face away from his friend. "They
beat the shit out of her. When it was finally over, and they were
through with the two of us, they wrote up a report that said they found
us together in the library, and that I had beaten her." Murdock sighed
as he remembered how defeated he had felt, knowing the real culprits
were right there, waiting to strike again. The anger that he had felt
then, the injustice of it, the horror of seeing Tracey's battered
features, all of it flashed thru his mind, and for one long minute, he
felt all the frustration again. Then Hannibal suddenly put his arm
around Murdock, and drew him closer.
"Why didn't you say something?"
"What could I say? I couldn't Hannibal. I couldn't take that chance.
Even Richter didn't believe me. It set me and him back a long ways, I
don't mind telling you. After a while you start thinking, maybe I did do
it. Sometimes you guys are my last hope. If for some reason you guys
didn't believe me, I really would have gone round the bend."
"Yeah, I can understand that. Look, there's B.A.'s headlights. Ready to
head back?" the colonel asked.
"You bet. All this ocean air has given me an appetite. I feel like I
haven't eaten for days."
Hannibal turned around to face the pilot as he was scrambling down from
the rock, "Murdock, you haven't eaten in days."
"Right. I forgot. Sorry." Murdock jumped the few remaining feet and the
two men started to jog back to the house.
It was a warm night, with a cool breeze off the water. Amber lights lit
up the corners of the deck while soft light from the doorway flooded the
table and chairs where everyone sat. Murdock sat next to Face, across
from B.A. and Hannibal. Scared someone would ask him a question he
didn't want to answer, he talked non stop about meaningless, inane
subjects. He started on a round of 'did you know' trivia, when Face
wrapped his arm around his shoulders and said, "Relax. Enjoy your food.
No one is going to ask you anything." Murdock looked down at his
cheeseburger, feeling guilty. Then the colonel joined in, "He's right.
Tomorrow is another day." Murdock looked over at Hannibal with silent
thanks, then bit into his cheeseburger. The rest of the night passed
quickly and soon Murdock was climbing into bed alongside Face.
"Remember, the headset is on the dresser, along with the walkman. If you
can't sleep, use them, but please let the rest of us catch a few hours
rest? Okay?"
"Roger, dodger, Facial One." Murdock acknowledged his friends
instructions. "Say, are you gonna jog with me in the morning?" the pilot
asked enthusiastically,
Face lifted his head and turned to look at Murdock, "Get real! Don't
even think of waking me. You hear me? I swear Murdock, if you try"
Murdock abruptly interrupted, "okay, okay, I get the message. You need
your beauty sleep. Don't worry, Face."
A muffled 'good' came from the other side of the bed. Murdock tried
sleeping, but he kept thinking of Tracey and the promise he had made
her. Finally, he stood and walked over to the window, staring out at the
stars, listening to the waves break on shore. He closed his eyes in
resignation. Nothing could make it easier, he just had to do it. He
pulled on his khaki pants and was stepping into his sneakers when Face
asked "Where you going?"
Murdock groaned. He'd been so careful not to waken Face, he was the last
person he wanted asking questions. "No where." he whispered. "I'm just
gonna go talk to Hannibal."
"Want to talk to me? I think Hannibal's asleep."
"Maybe later. I-I just want a little fresh air now. Go back to sleep,
Face." and the captain slipped quietly out of the bedroom. There was a
nightlight on in the kitchen, but the other lights were all out, and
Murdock could make out the sounds of B.A. snoring. He moved quietly to
the deck, opening the sliding glass door and closing it with barely a
sound. He walked over to the railing facing the water and looked out
into the inky darkness. He grasped the top rail and stared up at the
stars. He felt lost and alone. The promise he had made Tracey haunted
him. Then he spoke, "Tracey, I don't think I can do this. I know I
promised I would tell my friends, but I-I . . ."
"Tell us what, Captain?" asked Hannibal who was sitting in the corner of
the deck.
"Hannibal!!" Murdock squealed. "I didn't know you were there."
"Obviously. Now what did you promise Tracey to tell us?"
Murdock looked away, "Oh, man. I guess there's no way out of it now. Oh,
Hannibal."
"It can't be that bad Murdock." Hannibal said gently, then continued in
an inviting tone, "Come on and sit down on my couch." Hannibal smiled as
he gestured to the chaise lounge that was positioned next to his chair.
Murdock didn't say anything, but he walked slowly over to the corner
where Hannibal was. He stood over him for a minute trying to think of a
good excuse. "Maybe in the morning," was as far as he got.
Hannibal stood up, pressed his hands down on both of the captain's
shoulders, and forced the captain to sit, and said "Maybe now."
"Okay." Murdock agreed, recognizing the no nonsense voice of his
commander. 'How do I begin?' he wondered to himself. It all seemed so
long ago. He laid back in the chaise, putting his feet up, and
remembering when it all began. He looked over at Hannibal and sighed
again.
"Captain?" Hannibal prompted.
"Yeah. Hannibal, uh, did you ever wonder how Face gets me in and out of
the V.A. so easy?
"What do you mean Murdock?'
"I mean no matter how many times I leave, they never change the security
for me. They never move my room to a higher floor. Everything just stays
the same. Didn't you ever wonder why?" Murdock asked.
"No. I guess I just thought it really didn't matter. You're not a threat
to anyone, you're not considered dangerous, you always come back. Why
should they make a big deal over it?"
"Trust me, Hannibal. Escaped mental patients, they get high priority,
dangerous or not. As many times as I've left, they should have me in a
steel cage up near the roof, with a personal security guard."
"What are you saying then, Murdock, that they let you go?"
"Exactly."
"Why would they do that?"
"Maybe somebody asked them to. Maybe somebody told them to."
"Somebody like who, Captain?" asked Hannibal, leaning forward.
Murdock's voice grew softer as he practically whispered "Like the
Company." Neither man said anything for a moment as Murdock let the
ramifications of what he said sink in. Hannibal sat back in his chair
and lit a cigar.
Finally, the colonel asked the question Murdock had been dreading, " But
why would they do that unless you were working for them?"
Murdock swallowed nervously, and answered "Exactly."
"What?!" Hannibal exclaimed. "You still work for the Company?"
"Yeah. Sometimes. I help them out and in return they agree to leave you
be. They never really wanted much. Sometimes just advise on which
landing zone to choose and why, or sometimes identifying old contacts
from Cambodia. Once in a while I do some easy domestic courier stuff. My
contact was someone I had worked with before, a guy by the name of
Kennedy. Then about a year ago, I started hearing from someone else,
some dude named Gibbs. He had the passwords and everything, but he was a
lot harder to deal with. He wanted me to do different stuff. I refused.
Right after I refused, Tracey was raped and I got a message saying there
were worse things than rape and I should cooperate. At the time, I
thought the message was a coincidence. That they had learned of the rape
and how upset I was and decided to use it against me. You know how
sneaky and double dealing these guys are. When we found out that she was
HIV positive, with an especially virulent form of the disease, I
wondered again if it could be them, but I decided I was just getting
paranoid. The last time I heard from them was a little over 2 months
ago. Gibbs came to see me in the hospital. He said they had a little
courier run for me to do, but it looked more like a drug run to me. I
tried to turn it down, and they started showing me surveillance photos of
you guys. Gibbs told me that they had guys begging for wet work. I did
the run. I was right, it was cocaine and marijuana.
Now, last week, another guy comes by and says the contact that I'd been
working with, Gibbs, is a renegade. He wants me to take a wet work
assignment on him. He wants the team to work with me. I told him no.
This guy's name was Wells. He said he'd be back in touch with me. So far
I haven't heard anything."
Hannibal didn't say anything for a while. Finally, he asked the pilot,
"What's your gut instinct on Gibbs? Do you think he could be a renegade?
What about Wells? What did you think of him?"
"It's hard to tell, Hannibal. They don't pick normal guys to be in the
C.I.A. Gibbs was definitely not normal. He enjoyed watching me squirm.
He always brought me pictures of Face in the middle of sex, so I would
understand how easy it would be for them. If he was working outside the
company, just using insider contacts and passwords, I can't imagine
keeping it up for a year. They have too many security safeguards for an
outsider to last that long."
"What if he was working from the inside?" asked Hannibal.
"Granted I'm outside of the loop, so he could probably get past me, but
to operate day-to-day, I can't see it."
"Murdock, what if he only used relatively inactive agents. Wouldn't he
have himself an invisible army?"
"Well, yeah, but what about money, and . . ." Murdock's voice tailed off
as he realized just how easy it could be accomplished. "A couple of drug
runs, and he has payroll for the year. he'd probably run guns too.
Hannibal, this is awful. What if it's true? I don't know who to
believe?"
"Well, why don't we let Face do some checking for us tomorrow. I
understand he has a new hacker friend, who for the right price will hack
in anywhere."
"Leave it to the Face Kid."
There was a comfortable silence between the two men, as Hannibal puffed
on his cigar, and Murdock looked at the stars. After a while Murdock
stood up and said" I think I'll try turning in again."
Hannibal stood up and faced him. He placed both hands on his shoulder
and looked him right in the eye. "Captain, there isn't anything that you
can't tell me, understand? I don't want you to ever have to carry
something like this around again. I know your reasons were noble, but
you have to trust in us. Our strength is our unity. If I had known five
years ago, the company was giving you flack, we could have taken care of
it then. I know how dangerous they can be, but don't underestimate
us, Captain. We can be pretty dangerous too."
"I'm sorry, Hannibal. I'm just always so afraid something will happen to
you guys, I'm sorry."
Hannibal smiled and said gently, "It's all right, Captain. Go to bed now.
Face is probably waiting up for you."
"Okay." and Murdock left the colonel alone to ponder everything he had
told him.
The next day, Face woke up with Murdock sprawled all over him.
Inexplicably happy, Face gently disengaged himself from Murdock's long
limbs. Being with Murdock always left him happy, Face never bothered
wondering why. That just wasn't his style. He knew that their
relationship was very simplistic. They never, ever lied to each other.
They loved each other, in a much more personal way than they loved the
other guys on the team. While he would willingly give up his life for
anyone on the team, Face knew he'd gladly die a thousand times over if
it would save Murdock's life. There was a childlike innocence about the
pilot that Face had rarely encountered. An enthusiasm for the silliest
things, it couldn't help but bring a smile to his face. Murdock. What a
complicated guy. Like a diamond with countless facets. Everytime you
look at him, you see something different. Face sighed as he wondered
what was troubling his friend. Maybe Hannibal would enlighten him.
Perked up by the thought, Face slid out of bed careful not to disturb
the slumbering pilot.
Face padded into the kitchen, following the smell of coffee. Hannibal
wasn't around as Face poured his coffee and thought about breakfast .
When the colonel strode into the room, Face felt a chill run down his
spine. Something was wrong, very wrong. Hannibal had the look of battle
in his eyes. Face had seen it before, especially in Nam. There was a
strict, military, no nonsense attitude.
"Good. You're finally up. Get B.A." was Hannibal's only greeting. Face,
now completely alert, noting Hannibal's shoulder holster, immediately
went to get B.A.
They met in the living room. Hannibal gave B.A. the sign to sweep for
bugs. He found several inside, but none on the deck. Hannibal was
enraged with himself for being so careless, so comfortable. After
clearing away the bugs, he explained the problem with the C.I.A.
"Aw, Hannibal, not the Company. We're not going up against the Company,
are we?" Face whined.
"We don't have a choice. I want you and B.A. to go visit that hacker
friend of yours who says he can get in anywhere. Let's find out just how
good he is. Check on all three, Kennedy, Gibbs, and Wells. Face, what do
we have that we can give Murdock to insure he sleeps for a while? I
think we're going to have company soon, and I don't want him questioned.
He's upset enough as it is."
"Well, yeah, we have something. You sure, Hannibal? Because I don't
think Murdock's going to like this?"
"Don't worry, Face. I'm sure. Do it. If one of these guys is a renegade,
I don't have to tell you how dangerous he will be. Be Careful! Now hurry
up and get out of here."
Face decided to use the hypo on Murdock before he got dressed, just in
case. He was hoping Murdock would never know he was the one giving the
injection. He took the alcohol wipe, and gently swabbed his bicep, then
quickly administered the medication. In the middle of extracting the
hypodermic, Murdock opened his eyes and looked at Face. Big brown eyes,
tinged with hurt, asked why? Face, feeling guilty, sighed, and then
explained, "Bad guys are coming. Colonel wants you asleep." The captain
smiled, understanding, and closed his eyes, letting the medication go to
work.
The lieutenant and B.A. were ready to go when B.A. spoke up. "I don't
like the idea of leaving you alone here with Murdock. Especially when
you have him all doped up and useless."
"It's all right. B.A. We'll be fine. Go Now and check in every half
hour. Use my watch alarm. okay?"
"All right, Hannibal, but be careful."
Hannibal smiled, but a hint of the jazz was in his eyes as he answered
"I intend to." that left B.A. feeling concerned.
Hannibal laid down on the chaise lounge, giving the appearance of a
totally relaxed vacationer. He held up a copy of the N.Y.Times, then
gradually let it fall as he feigned sleep. He had removed his gun
earlier. Approximately a half hour after the van left with Face and B.A.
he opened his eyes to find a stranger, armed with an automatic weapon
enter the deck and approach him. At the same time, his watch alarm went
off. Hannibal silenced it.
"Colonel Smith, I presume?" the stranger asked.
"Who wants to know?" asked Hannibal..
"John Wells, C.I.A." the stranger announced, and flipped an I.D. badge
over for Hannibal to peruse.
Hannibal flipped the I.D. back, "What do you want, Wells?"
"I'd like to speak with Captain Murdock?"
"I'm sorry, but he's under sedation. He's not talking to anybody right
now." replied Hannibal.
Wells mumbled something into his wrist. A moment later he nodded.
Hannibal could just barely make out the receiver in his ear, just the
tell tale wire. He could also faintly make out the slight bulge of an
ankle holster.
"So what did your friend tell you about me?" wells asked.
"What makes you think he told me anything about you?" the colonel
replied.
"Your boy did a lot of talking with you last night. I'm sure he told you
something."
"As a matter of fact, Wells, he did. But it was so far fetched, it was
hard to believe. Something about a renegade agent, and the company
wanting to hire us?" Hannibal asked.
"That's right. We have a problem. Gibbs has been a long time agent that
has always just barely managed to pass his annual psyche evaluations. He
has a tendency to unnecessary violence, and sociopathic patterns of
behavior that would be unacceptable for the average person. But in Gibbs
line of work, it's what keeps him alive. Somewhere along the line, we
lost control of him. He's gotten a list of inactive agents, and somehow
convinced them they were activated and must follow his directions.
Everyone on the list has eventually turned up dead. Everyone except
Captain Murdock. We need to terminate Gibbs service with the company. We
have been after him for three months now with no luck. He knows our
methods better than us. We need someone unorthodox to chase him down.
Not to mention, he has always been fascinated with you guys. He'd visit
Murdock with any excuse, just to listen to him talk about you guys."
"It's nice to know we have a fanclub, but he's not really the audience
we were aiming for. I'll tell you what I'll agree to. We'll get Gibbs,
and if what you say is true, we'll turn him over to you. We will not
terminate him." the colonel drawled while he puffed on his cigar. "As
for Murdock., anybody from the company ever approaches him again and
you'll be short an agent. He's served his country enough, he's suffered
enough. Leave him alone. Understood?"
Wells nodded." I accept those terms. If you can find Gibbs and turn him
over, I'll guarantee no one else bothers Captain Murdock."
Hannibal nodded, smiling as Wells continued to lie, making Hannibal want
to puke. The Colonel wondered if there really was a renegade, maybe it
was Wells not Gibbs. He stood to shake hands, and after Wells left, felt
like he needed a shower. He was definitely a slime.
Face looked down at his young hacker friend, Houdini. He literally lived
in this one room and adjoining bath. Fast food cartons and wrappings
were strewn around the room. Face thought of the large sprawling house
he was standing in and doubted if his friend could even remember how
many rooms there were. For the right fee, Houdini could hack into
anywhere and never leave a trace. Although the right fee was usually
extraordinary sums of cash, Face had a fee just as good. C.I.A. scandal.
Houdini could sell it fifty times over.
The info on Kennedy appeared first. Killed in the line of duty
,approximately one year ago. Temporarily teamed with Gibbs, he been
killed by a car bomb in Lebanon. Face read the profile over again, and
knew something didn't fit. He didn't know what. Not long after, came an
abbreviated file on Gibbs. Face noticed there was no mention of him
working in Lebanon. Nothing exciting in it either, except the psyche
evaluations. Based on the evaluations, he could easily be committed in
any state in the country.
Finally, the info on Wells showed up. The file was even skimpier than
Gibbs. Face glanced through it quickly, not seeing anything of use. Than
Houdini whistled.
"What is it?" Face asked.
"We're being followed. Interesting. Don't worry, I'll lose him, I just
want to know who it is."
Face watched nervously as Houdini's fingers flew across the keys. After
about twenty minutes, he sat back in his chair, smiling. pleased with
himself.
"Well, did you lose them?' Face asked.
"Of course," Houdini answered.
"Who was it?" asked Face.
"Just some army dude calls himself Hot Rod. No sweat." replied the
hacker.
"Army dude? Can you find out his real name?" asked Face worriedly.
"For a price, I can find out anything you want to know. You paying?"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm paying. It couldn't be him, but just to be on the
safe side"
"Got it." Houdini exclaimed excitedly. "It was a Col. Roderick Decker."
"Great!! Hannibal is going to love this!" Face mumbled to himself. He
thanked his hacker friend and promised to get back to him when he found
out who the renegade agent was with all the appropriate details. Then he
left to join B.A. in the van.
"What took you so long man? Hannibal's bugged out. He and Murdock are at
Lin Duc's place. He wants to see what you got." said B.A.
"Well, I've got a surprise for him. Decker's involved." Face commented,
watching B.A.'s face for reaction.
"Say what?! " B.A.'s head jerked around to stare at Face. "What's he
doing in this? I thought Hannibal said it was a Company problem?"
"Well, B.A., it's a problem all right and there seems to be plenty of
company. I wonder what our fearless leader will say."
Approximately fortyfive minutes later, in the basement of Lin Duc Coo's
restaurant, Face found out what Hannibal would say. Face had shown him
all the printouts on Kennedy, Gibbs, and Wells. He saved Decker for
last. Face knew he was going to surprise the colonel and was looking
forward to being one up on him. Face expected Hannibal to be annoyed. He
hadn't expected the white hot rage.
Hannibal looked back at Face, barely able to control the fury he was
feeling. If Decker was behind this mess, if this whole C.I.A. mess
turned out to be a military plot to snag the A Team, if all the pain
Murdock had suffered was a result of Deckers subterfuge, then the Army
might be down a colonel. "Bring him to me."
"But Hannibal,"
"Now, Lieutenant. Take B.A. and bring me Decker. Alive. For now.
Dismissed." Hannibal watched Face leave the room. Hannibal couldn't
remember the last time he had felt so angry. He needed to calm down and
try to figure out what the hell was really going on.
Lin Duk appeared at just that moment. He brought some freshly baked
pastries and coffee. After eating more pastries than he should have,
Hannibal at least felt calmer. He sat back and sipped his coffee trying
to think of various scenarios to explain Decker's involvement. He finally
admitted to himself that there was no way of determining the extent of
Decker's involvement until he could meet him face-to-face and look him in
the eye. Lin Duc reappeared and offered Hannibal the services of a shy
,young girl, obviously Oriental. Hannibal was momentarily taken aback by
his friend, when Lin explained she was a licensed masseuse. Then the
colonel smiled and agreed. After the massage, Lin took him to a small
sauna. Whenever he asked about Murdock, Lin assured him he was fine.
Hannibal asked if he had awakened yet, Lin explained he was currently
getting the same massage Hannibal had just received and would be joining
him in the sauna shortly.
The colonel looked up when Murdock entered, pleased with his appearance.
He looked a lot better. The forced sleep had done him good. The tall
pilot walked in with just a towel around his waist and sat down opposite
the colonel.
"How you feeling Murdock?" the colonel asked.
Murdock half smiled at him, "I feel better, Colonel. A lot better."
There was a long pause before Murdock continued. " It's just hard, ya
know. Everything I would see something that was interesting or different,
I would come home and tell Tracy all about it. Sometimes she couldn't
understand, too many voices yelling at her. She'd tear at her arms then
with her fingernails, or sometimes she'd scratch her face. But no matter
what hell she was in, she'd always let me hold her, and sing that
lullaby you taught Face. This place," Murdock looked around, "Well it's
the kind of thing she liked knowing about. Who would think there were
all these luxurious rooms are down in the basement of a Chinese
restaurant? Even a sauna! She had long chestnut hair, and when she was
really listening to me, she start sucking on the tips of it. It was the
strangest thing and it used to arouse the hell out of me. When she was
real agitated she'd come to me with a brush and squat on the floor in
front of me, wanting me to brush her hair. Some days I would brush it
for hours. Sometimes, when things got too much for her she would just
want to dance. At first she would be all frantic, but after a while we
would just stand there, and she would just melt into my body and we would
just gently rock. She fit so nice in my arms. I'll never forget the way
she felt. Did you ever do that with a girl Hannibal? Just stand there
and rock? You should try it, it's nice. She needed me, Hannibal. No one
ever needed me as bad as she did. God, I miss her." Murdock flung his
head back, blinking away the tears, looking up at clouds of steam
billowing across the ceiling.
Hannibal chose not to say anything for several minutes. "She must have
been real special, Murdock. How come you never brought her around?" he
finally asked.
"I was going to. She'd been doing real well and been discharged to a
family care program. She'd come and visit me most every day. As long as
she remembered to take her meds, she was fine. Then, she was raped,
coming home from visiting me. Beaten and raped." Murdock's voice started
to tremble, "And given Aids." the pilot bowed his head and ran his
fingers through his sparse hair in an agitated fashion. "She couldn't
stand to be touched after that. They couldn't seem to stabilize her
medication dosage, either. Like it wasn't bad enough she had to deal
with the rape, she had to deal with the voices too. It got worse and
worse, till finally, in her very last days, she was lucid. It was like
the Aids virus was killing off everything, even her schizophrenia. The
doctors never saw anything like it. Never." Murdock leaned his head back
again and closed his eyes.
Hannibal hurt for his friend as he searched for the right words of
comfort. Finally, he just said simply, "I'm glad you knew each other."
Murdock nodded, his head down again.
The door opened than and Lin announced Face and B.A. were back with a
prisoner. Hannibal stood readily, slapped Murdock on the shoulder and
instructed him to stay with Lin.
Decker sat on the floor in the corner of the room. Peck and Baracus were
both guarding him and seemed not the least bit concerned that they had
just kidnapped a U.S. Army Officer. He could hear them, but couldn't see
them because of the blindfold. He was reasonably certain, from the sounds
and smells they were in China town. That narrowed it down to one of two
places. Lin Duk Coo's, or the Golden Pagoda. They were the only places
the A Team ever went in Chinatown
Hannibal entered the room then. "Face, go stay with Murdock. B.A., you
stay here."
Decker stood wanting to be on even ground with Smith. There was
something about Smith's tone of voice that Decker didn't like,
nevertheless he felt compelled to bait him. "What's the matter Smith?
Your flyboy need a baby-sitter?"
He heard Smith approach him and wondered what comment he'd come back
with when out of the blue he took a blow to his midsection that doubled
him up immediately. Smith grabbed him by the shoulders and tore off the
blindfold and angry ice blue eyes glared at him, telling Decker he had
badly miscalculated. Tell me what you know about Gibbs and Wells. Now."
Decker looked at Smith, at the same time noticing the concerned look on
Baracus. "I didn't think hitting defenseless men was your style, Smith."
he drawled.
The colonel's nostrils flared as he acknowledged the verbal hit. "Tell
me what you know about Gibbs and Wells." Smith demanded.
"Sounds like a company name." Decker replied, watching Smith's reactions
intently.
"You think I'm playing?" Hannibal asked in a deadly quiet voice, then
continued in the same dangerous tone, "I'm not playing, Hot Rod."
Hannibal pulled out a revolver and laid the barrel across the top of
Decker’s head. "I know you been chasing them on the computer, I want to
know why?"
"Why don't you ask Murdock? He knows more than me."
Hannibal reached back to hit him again, nut B.A. grabbed his hand. "You
go check on Face. I'll get the info you want. He ain't gonna play no
games with me." Hannibal hesitated a moment, then calmly walked out of
the room.
"Listen, sucker. We can do this the easy way, or the hard way. What's it
going to be?"
Decker looked at the intimidating figure B.A. made, and reckoned his
chances for not complying at zero.
"What do you want to know?" he asked.
B.A. listened intently for the better part of an hour as Decker droned
on, a virtual fountain of information. Finally, a suspicious B.A. held
his gun aimed at Decker and demanded, "Why you telling me all this info
so easy?"
"Son, if there's one thing I'm sure of, it's Smith doesn't work for the
C.I.A. I know the story Wells is spreading about a renegade agent. Maybe
I can help."
B.A. looked at him like he was definitely insane, and nudged him out of
the room with his gun barrel. "We're gonna go see Hannibal and see what
he has to say. He's worried about Murdock, so don't play no games with
him. Or you'll have to deal with me."
He led Decker down a maze of several long and twisting hallways until he
reached a door with an armed guard. They nodded at each other and B.A.
said the password, then they entered a luxurious room. The floor was
white marble tile, there was a flagstone fireplace on one wall, with a
ledge to sit on that ran the length of the wall, at least twelve feet.
One wall was a mural of the view from a terrace. It was astonishingly
lifelike. There were several large plush leather sofas scattered around,
as well as a bar, a refrigerator, and a microwave. There was a computer
set up in one corner on a desk. Long ceiling fans hung from the ceiling.
There were several doors. Decker had no idea where they led. Face was
seated before the computer, busily tapping keys, Hannibal was sitting at
a small table eating a sandwich, and drinking a beer. Murdock was laid
out on the floor with a headset on staring up at an oversized screen tv.
watching cartoons.
Every head but Murdock's turned as B.A. and Decker entered the room.
Hannibal slowly put down his sandwich and wiped his mouth. "What did you
find out, Sergeant?" he asked B.A.
"I think he's on the level, Hannibal. He wants to help. He knows a lot
of stuff. You got to decide."
Hannibal was up walking around, taking in everything about Decker's
posture and body language before making eye contact with him. "Give me
one reason why I should believe you?" the colonel asked bitterly.
"As long as I've chased you, you have always protected your men. Now,
you've slipped up. Because of you, Murdock's been caught in the
crossfire. You know the company, you know how ruthless they are. They
must have jumped for joy when they found they had something like you to
bargain with. The way things stand right now, the odds of your team
being able to keep Murdock alive are zilch. Even If I help you, the odds
are still in their favor, but at least there's a chance. I have
surveillance records on both of them. I've been able to assess their
personalities a little. There's no way you're going to be able to find
either one. You're going to have to put Murdock out there and lure him
in."
"No!" Hannibal shouted, "No, I'm not risking his life like that."
"You already have. At least let him be in control of what happens. Why
don't you ask him? It's his life."
"Maybe he's not competent to judge."
"Do you really believe that?"
"No. "Hannibal sighed, reluctant to agree with Decker but knowing he had
no choice. "Come on, sit down, let's talk."
Decker held up his handcuffed hands in a silent request to have them
removed. Hannibal nodded at B.A., who unlocked the cuffs. Decker shook
his hands a little to get rid of the stiffness and glanced around the
room again. Murdock was still laid out by the tv. Face stood nearby,
almost protectively, thought Decker. He followed Smith to the table and
sat down opposite him. Smith appeared more in control, more confident.
There was a strange glint in his eye and Decker wondered if had been
crazy to offer to help.
"You said you want to help. You've given B.A. a lot of information. Why?
Are you calling an official truce between us? What are the terms? Just
how far are you willing to go to help us? What's in it for you Decker?"
"I'm willing to declare a temporary truce, when it's over, you can drop
me somewhere, and the truce will be over. As for what's in it for me,
Colonel, there is nothing lovelier than having the C.I.A. be in your
debt. Just the chance is enough for me to agree to help you."
Hannibal pulled out a cigar, then bit off the end and spit it out .
"Face" he called without losing eye contact with Decker. Face
came, depositing two frosty cold bottles of beer and looked at Hannibal
questioningly. "Get him a sandwich, Face. Oh, and see if we have any
more of those little things I like."
"The miniature croissants filled with cream? Of course, although at the
rate you've been picking on them, frankly I doubt it."
Hannibal waved him off and started talking tactics with Decker.
Decker sat in front of the computer, requesting files and printing out
data. Hannibal had watched, somewhat amused. When Decker had returned
with an armload of data, and a list of probable methods of termination,
the colonel's amusement turned to serious interest, tinged with
amazement. The two long time opponents worked steadily, almost in perfect
unity, oblivious to everyone in the room but each other. Murdock had
been startled to see Decker in the room, but he trusted the colonel's
judgment and accepted Decker's presence. Murdock thought about the two
colonels and how brilliant each could be. Together they made a very
formidable opponent. He looked up and saw Face watching him, all
concerned.
"Whatsa matter, Facey?" Murdock asked while thumping the floor next to
him. Murdock knew Face would be very uncomfortable working with Decker.
"Can you believe this Murdock? Decker!" Face hissed at him after sitting
down on the floor next to the pilot.
Murdock put an arm around his friend and laid his head on his
shoulder. "It’s okay, Face Kid, you have to trust Hannibal." Murdock
tucked his body into Face and closed his eyes, warm and comfortable.
"I trust Hannibal. He's not the problem." Face replied, sounding
depressed. "It's just, well, he's been after us for so long, I mean,
it's hard Murdock. It's really hard for me. Murdock? Murdock! I don't
believe it!" Face looked down at the pilot sprawled all over him.
"You're asleep. Just like that. Not a care , not a worry. How can you do
that? It's your life that's at stake here, at least you could stay awake
and worry with me."
"Worrying about himself is just not his style, Face. You know that."
Hannibal said with a grin.
Startled by Hannibal's voice right above him, Face pushed Murdock away
from him, waking the pilot up. Murdock looked up to see Hannibal and
Decker looking down at him with keen interest, so he gave them a sassy
salute and inquired, "Mon Colonels?"
"How are you feeling, son?" asked Decker.
Murdock looked eagerly from one colonel to the other, "I am ready for
action sirs." he grinned.
Hannibal grinned back, eyes glinting, obviously on the jazz.. "Good.
Come on and tell us what you think of the plan." he replied with a
stubby cigar stuck between his teeth.
The plan turned out to be relatively simple, but extremely dangerous.
Hannibal had reasoned if they knew to look for them in the beach house,
they must be aware of other houses Face liked to use. They would pick
the one Face was most likely to select and send Murdock to it. The house
in question was a canyon home. Only one way in and one way out. They
would set up one team, Face and B.A., on one side, with Hannibal and
Decker on the other. The renegade would make his move and they would
capture him. Simple. Murdock loved the plan. Face hated it. B.A. thought
it was an okay plan.
"What's the matter Lieutenant?" asked Hannibal, meanwhile knowing
exactly what was the matter. The plan had holes, lots of them.
"Hannibal, you can't let him go in there alone. You can't. He'll be a
sitting duck. He won't have a chance."
"I'm open to suggestions Face?"
"One of us should be with him, driving him there and escorting him
inside. Otherwise, it looks like a trap. They know us well enough to
focus on this house, than they know you'd never send Murdock alone."
"The kids right, Smith." said Decker and although he didn't say it out
loud, you could almost hear the 'I told you so' in his voice.
"All right. I'll be the escort." "That leaves Decker alone. "
"Good observation kid."
"But Hannibal - "
Hannibal interrupted. "This is the way it is kid. Decker is on the team.
For this one mission, I trust him. If you can't trust him, you're off
the mission."
"But - "
"On or off kid?"
Face frowned, was he the only sane one in the bunch? "All right, all
right. On."
Like a well oiled machine, the team came to life and began to put the
plan in motion. Weapons were decided upon, and exact placement locations
of the various team members. Vehicles, supplies, even radios and signals
were all acquired or established. Murdock sat on a couch watching his
friends scurry around. Hannibal walked over and sat down beside him.
"What do you think Captain?" the colonel asked.
"About what?' the captain replied.
"Think the plan will work?"
"Maybe not the way you planned it, but it will work."
"It's dangerous, Murdock. If you want to back out, there's still time."
Murdock just smiled and shook his head. "Don't worry, Hannibal. I'll be
fine."
That night the team sat huddled together in the van, all eyes on an
infra red heat sensitive recon photo of the area Decker had been able to
call up. It clearly showed a person already camped on both sides of the
canyon. As Hannibal entered the canyon road, he brought the van to a
stop, kept the engine idling, and got out with some night vision goggles
and looked around. Hopefully, all eyes were on him because at the same
time, Decker, Face and B.A. were slipping silently out of the van to go
to their respective positions. After looking around for several minutes,
Hannibal got back in the van and continued. He parked the van horizontal
to the front door, partially blocking it, then shielding Murdock with
his body ran to the front entrance, pushing Murdock in ahead of him,
keeping him out of the line of fire. Hannibal was just about to sigh
with relief when he was hit from behind and sagged to the floor
unconscious. The figure was dressed all in black and was wearing a ski
mask. He carried an uzi, which Murdock couldn't help thinking was
overkill. "Give them the signal." the figure demanded.
Murdock hesitated.
"Give them the signal or he dies. Now.!"
Murdock walked over to the window stiffly, and brought the shade up to
the half way mark.
"Give them the backup signal."
"Backup?" Murdock asked, "Like cars? You need B.A. for that. I don't do
cars. I can do animals. Wanna hear me do a horsie?"
The figure silently fired a shot at Hannibal's prone figure, splintering
the wood floor. Murdock gasped, "Wh-what you want?"
"Give them the second signal."
"Sure." Murdock walked over to the other front window and pulled the
shade up there as well. Then he returned to the first window and brought
the shade all the way down.
"B.A. Take him, Decker Go get him, I'll go to the house." Face said into
the radio in an urgent voice. Murdock had given the signal for trouble.
They were not alone. He ran swiftly through the woods on a path worked
out ahead of time. He arrived alert and slightly winded, carefully making
his way into the house. He found Hannibal's body, noted the strong pulse
and continued his search for the pilot. He looked in every room without
success when he heard the helicopter. He raced outside, but it was too
late. Already it had taken off and was heading out of sight rapidly. He
got on the radio to find that Decker had Gibbs, and B.A. Wells. Face
shook his head and groaned "What a mess!"
Hannibal sat up with Face's support. His head hurt, but that wasn't
important now. "Where's B.A.?" he demanded.
"Coming in with Wells."
"Have you checked the transmitters we planted?"
"Yeah, but they left by helicopter, and they're out of range."
Hannibal closed his eyes and swore. While Hannibal struggled to come up
with a plan, Decker entered with Gibbs. B.A. followed five minutes later
with Gibbs. Hannibal instructed B.A. to make the prisoners secure and
stand the first watch. He ordered Face to check the perimeter. Silently
he motioned for B.A. to sweep the room for bugs. After checking the
house carefully, B.A. announced the house was clean.
"What are we gonna do now, Hannibal? How we gonna find that crazy fool?"
"We're not, B.A. Whoever it is that has Murdock will find us. Remember,
we have what they want," the colonel looked pointedly in the direction
of Gibbs and Wells. "What we need to find out is why?"
"Smith, how about giving me a go with them? It's been a long time since
I could carry on an interrogation with no holds barred." Decker had a
positively evil look on his face.
"Fine, but take B.A. I wouldn't want you to enjoy it too much."
Decker just snickered in reply. "Come on, Baracus. We'll do them one at
a time in that back room. This is going to be fun," he said with a
wicked gleam in his eye.
Face returned from checking the perimeter just in time to catch the
latest remarks between Hannibal and Decker. He was livid. He looked from
one colonel to the other and demanded in a very emotional voice, "Is
anybody worried about Murdock, or is just how many points you can score
off each other?"
The smile faded from both their faces, as two colonels turned around to
look at him. "Face" Hannibal started but the upset lieutenant cut him
off with "Don’t Face me! I'm sick of it. Murdock's life is at stake here,
it's on the line, and you don't even know who has him or where he might
be. Well. what are you doing about it except standing around preening in
front of each other."
Hannibal started walking over towards him, but Face demanded "No. I
don't want to hear it. I want you to come up with a plan and find
Murdock."
Hannibal took a long, cool look at his lieutenant. Face had worked
himself up into a good temper. Hannibal knew from times past, the only
thing to do was agree and walk away. Hannibal could have kicked himself
for not seeing this coming. He knew Face was the most insecure member of
the team. Add to that the fact that he was the closest member of the
team to Murdock, and the fact that Murdock usually dealt with Face's
insecurities, the outburst was inevitable. "I'm sorry. We're working on
it. Rod's going to interrogate Gibbs."
Decker nodded, happy to have an excuse to leave the room.
"What are you going to do?" Face asked, still miffed with Hannibal's
behavior.
Just then the phone rang. Hannibal walked towards it, relieved at the
distraction and announced, "I'm going to answer the phone."
"Hello, Smith. How does your head feel?" the eerie computerized voice
said. "Did you get Gibbs?"
"Yeah. We did. Where's Murdock?" Hannibal answered.
"Oh, good,good,good. I want you to bring me Gibbs, Colonel. Preferably
dead. Definitely unconscious. Wouldn't you like to know where we are?"
asked the artificial voice.
It took all of Hannibal's self control to calmly ask the question,
"Where are you?"
"Oh my, you mean you really don't know? Tsk, tsk, I thought you were
better than that Colonel. Well, I'm not in a hurry, and I have so much
to chat about with H.M. Did you know we knew the same woman, in the
biblical sense of course. She liked it rough, Murdock, and I had her
begging - " Unworldly, maniacal laughter suddenly filled the phone.
Hannibal's grip on the receiver tightened, "You mean you're the one who
raped Tracy?"
"Semantics, Colonel, semantics. I prefer to think of it as expanded her
sexual experiences. She was such an eager little thing, - " There was
the sound of a scuffle and than a loud whack! The strange voice returned
,"Excuse me. Your friend Murdock was being a tad difficult. So as I was
saying, bring Gibbs. You have three hours. Then Murdock dies."
Hannibal continued to listen but all he heard now was a dial tone. He
felt like he had been kicked in the chest. There was no way they would
be able to find Murdock in that time. He laid the phone back in the
cradle and looked up to see all eyes on him. They might as well know the
worst he thought. "Whoever has Murdock, is the same person who raped
Tracy. They have given us three hours to find him, or he kills Murdock."
Out of nowhere came Decker's low drawl, "Well, then, we're in luck. I
just happen to have a surveillance photo of the man who committed that
crime. We turned it over to the police."
"The police don't have any photo, Decker, or a suspect. I know, I
checked the police report for Hannibal."
"That's impossible. "Decker replied, than looking at the two agents Wells
and Gibbs, "maybe not, if we're looking for a company man. Face, where's
the nearest fax machine?"
"I have one in the van."
"Good. Let me call Crane and have him fax that photo here."
Face looked at Hannibal worriedly at bringing Crane into the mix, but
there really wasn't any choice. Hannibal nodded at Decker, giving him
the okay. Twenty minutes later a grainy black and white photo was slowly
working it's way out of the fax machine. Once it was complete, Face tore
it off, studied it and shook his head in despair. It was no one he knew.
He handed the photo to Hannibal, who seared the features into his memory
for future reference, but he too had never seen the face. B.A. looked
and shook his head no. Finally Decker, no luck there either. Hannibal
was at his wits end when he grabbed the photo and walked over to Gibbs
and thrust it in his face. He didn't say anything, and there was no
obvious reaction, but Hannibal had detected a glimmer of recognition. He
showed it to Wells and his reaction was conclusive. He walked back to
Gibbs and said "This is the man who wants you dead."
"Impossible." Gibbs answered.
"Decker, what do you think we have here?" he asked.
"Let's see." Decker drawled, " Seems to me we have the big fish," here
Decker held up the photo, swallowing the little fish, here he looked at
Wells, and having him swallow the little fish, Gibbs. Gibbs, you found
out something, somehow you have jeopardized this man's position. For him
to go to all this trouble, he has to be a mole. Think about it
gentlemen, you'll see I'm right."
Gibbs looked at Wells uncertainly. They asked for a few minutes alone
and Decker granted it. Five minutes later Gibbs and Wells told them
everything they knew and offered to help in any way they could.
"So," Hannibal said, "Now we have a name to go with the picture and two
hours to find Murdock. I am open to ideas Gentlemen."
Before anyone could answer, the phone rang. Hannibal answered it.
"Still there Colonel? Oh my, I am so disappointed. My sources said you
were so much better. I guess you can't trust anyone these days, can you?
How is Gibbs? Let me hear his sweet voice." The disembodied voice
commanded.
Hannibal asked "Why should I?"
The only reply was the sound of Murdock screaming in pain. "How's that
for a good reason?" the voice asked.
"All right, all right. Leave Murdock alone. What do you want?" Hannibal
asked in defeated tones.
"I want what I have always wanted. Gibbs. Bring him now."
"Where?" Hannibal asked.
"To Indian Island at Crystal Lake. The clock is running, gentlemen. You
have two hours."
Hannibal called B.A. over and asked, "How long to drive to Crystal Lake
from here?"
"At least an hour, man. Maybe more." B.A. replied in a concerned voice.
"Get everyone in the van and let's go."
Decker offered the use of a military plane or chopper, but Hannibal
explained MacGregor was too smart. He'd be checking the van for
occupants if he just sent the van ahead.
"But Smith, you know he's going to blow this van right out of the
water."
"Well, Hot Rod, I know he's going to try. I also know Murdock is there
and he's alive and well. That gives me a big edge."
"How can you say that? The man is crazy on a good day, from what I've
seen of him since I've been here, he's useless."
"I'll tell you a secret, Decker. Never, ever underestimate Captain
Murdock. Add to that the fact that Murdock knows this is the man that
raped his woman and exposed her to AIDS, well, I just hope we get there
before Murdock kills him, not that it would be any great loss to the
human race, but the Company probably has a few questions they'd like to
ask. Right boys?" Hannibal turned around to ask the two agents, who were
still shackled because as Hannibal said, "I like you guys and I believe
you guys, but I trust you about as far as I can spit."
Murdock regained consciousness slowly. He opened his eyes and the bright
light hurt. It didn't help that the room was spinning around on a crazy
angle. He focused on one corner of the room and finally stopped the
spinning. He was laying on the floor with a gag in his mouth, his hands
handcuffed behind his back. Fifteen feet away on the other side of the
room he could see him. He was setting up some type of miniature rocket
launcher. Murdock's feet itched to move, but his ankles were bound
tightly together. He tried desperately to loosen the cord on his feet
but only succeeded in attracting his attention.
"You know what you sound like? Like a mouse on a glue board. So frantic
to get away, but no matter how hard they try, they don't go anywhere.
Your friends will be coming soon. They're bringing Gibbs. Have you
figured out the ending yet? I guess you might say when your friends hear
the ending, they're going to be blown away." He broke off into maniacal
laughter.
For a moment, just a moment, Murdock was tempted to give into the
despair he felt welling up all around him. Then he thought of Tracey and
remembered how hard she had fought this monster. He remembered the first
time he visited her after the rape, how her face was just covered with
purple welts, how swollen her eyes and lips were. She had never stopped
fighting. Murdock felt a surge of strength at the thought of her
courage. He closed his eyes and concentrated on slipping his feet out of
his sneakers. He felt stronger and stronger, and for just a moment he
felt her there with him. He didn't see anything, he didn't hear
anything, but he felt her presence, if only for a moment. It was almost
easy after that. Once his right foot was finally free, it only took a
moment to release the left. Then he stretched his arms finally bringing
the cuffs to his knees where he slid his legs through, which put his
cuffed hands in front of rather than behind. Time was running out.
Murdock could see him taking aim on an object, and he could hear the
sound of a boat. Without another thought, Murdock launched himself at
the man at the window. He wrapped the cuffs around his neck and then
tightened them in an attempt to strangle him. The man Murdock fought
with was no amateur. Their fierce struggle took them rolling across the
floor, where in desperation they each took to giving the other vicious
head butts.
Hannibal and the team arrived at the lake with thirty minutes left to
get to Murdock. The trip there had taken longer than expected due to
road work and detours. They left Wells behind in the van, just in case
things went wrong. Hannibal wanted to leave Decker behind too.
Decker had just looked at him, "Do you know how many impossible
situations I have seen you get yourselves out of? Well, today, I'm not
watching!"
Hannibal had just smiled and let him come along. The trip across the
Lake was hair raising as everyone waited for something to happen, but
nothing did. Instead of being relieved, this only made Hannibal more
concerned. They scrambled up the hill to the house MacGregor had
described in his last call to Hannibal. He entered first, with Decker
and the rest of the team on his heels. He saw the bodies right away.
MacGregor's head was at an impossible angle, his eyes open even in
death. Murdock was sprawled across him, the side of his head bloodied
and bruised. Hannibal knelt at his side and searched for a pulse. He
sighed in relief when he found it. Carefully, he dragged Murdock's body
away from the corpse. Face came over with a wet cloth to wipe the blood
away.
Murdock opened his eyes to see Hannibal and Face peering down at him,
eyes filled with concern. He looked around for the nameless villain he
had fought in a life or death struggle, and saw his dead body a few feet
away. He smiled then, in victory. He was proud he had saved his friends,
proud he had avenged Tracy. Tracy.
Face looked around the room, at the handcuffs still on Murdock's wrists,
at the dead body, "How did you do this all alone?" he asked.
"I wasn't always alone. She was here, just for a moment. She gave me all
the strength I needed."
Hannibal and Face turned to look at each other, but neither man said a
word. They pulled the captain to his feet, and Hannibal whispered
something in his ear. Murdock nodded. Hannibal smiled, his blue eyes
sparkling with the jazz, and nodded to B.A. B.A. walked up behind
Decker, as Face approached Decker. From the front, B.A. jabbed with a
hypodermic needle and some of B.A 's sleeping medication. Then Face
turned to Gibbs and apologized for not having another needle, then
driving his fist into his jaw.
"Let's go, gentlemen."
"Where we going Hannibal?" asked B.A.
"Out the back door."
"I ain't flying, Hannibal."
"I know that, help me with Murdock."
B.A. helped Hannibal support Murdock as they walked along a wooded path
that finally came to a clearing and a small green helicopter with no
markings, fully armed.
Murdock pushed Hannibal and B.A. away at the sight of the beautiful
machine. A big smile lit up his face. "Oh, Hannibal, this is nice. You
know how fast these babies can go?" he asked enthusiastically. There was
a loud thud as B.A. collapsed to the ground.
"Geez, Face. I was beginning to wonder if you gave it to him." Hannibal
said half kidding.
"I gave it to him, but I think he's building up a tolerance." Face
muttered.
Soon they were all settled and Murdock fired up the engines. He rose
slowly and looked around. He spotted the beach where only a year ago he
had frolicked with Tracy on a hospital day trip.. He turned the chopper
slowly till it faced the house they had just come from. His hand reached
for the trigger. Hannibal stiffened. Murdock hovered there, oblivious to
the other three, fighting a war of wills with himself. He kept
remembering the other man's words about being blown away. At the last
second, he remembered Decker was in the house too. Suddenly, he let go
of the trigger, pointed the nose up, and accelerated.
"Okay, Captain. Take us home."
"Roger, Colonel. " then the captain howled loudly. Face looked on
indulgently and Hannibal bit off the end of a cigar and said "I love it
when a plan comes together.".
THE END