I will remember you

©VEK-98

~"Because we do not know when we will die, we get to think of life as an inexaustable well. Yet things only happen a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember an afternoon of your child hood; an afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even concieve of your life without it? Perhaps 4, 5 times more? Perhaps not even that. How many more times will you see the full moon rise? Perhaps 20, and yet it all seems limitless." ~

-Brandon Bruce Lee

I will remember you, Will you remember me?

She sat there just watching him. His gorgeous blue eyes fixed on his two children. "If he could only hold me, If I could only hold her again" she thought to herself.

~~Don't let your life pass you by, Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?, I let them slip away from us when things got bad, How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun

Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one~~

They were best friends, for one night they were more. She always loved him as her best friend, and when his life turned to hell he needed comforting. She was his rock, his reality. That one night they made the most passionate love either had ever experienced. A few short weeks later she had found herself pregnant, he was delighted. His little boy would have a little sister or brother, and he would have another chld. The two took it as a sign that they should remane more than just friends. JC was by herside through the entire pregnancy, and even there during the delivery. A'sa Reign Chasez she was christined.

~~I'm so tired but I can't sleep, Standin' on the edge of something much too deep, It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word

We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard, But I will remember you, Will you remember me?~~

"A'sa mommies here" she called, but the little girl didn't look up. "Why can't she hear me" she questioned the man standing next to her. He was lean and tall, longish black hair, pasty features and deep brown eyes. "Ashe they can't hear you anymore," the man softly spoke. "But why?," she once again questioned, as she walked towards the child playing with her father. Crouching down she hugged the child, but she went right through her.

~~I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose, Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose, Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night, You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you, Will you remember me?~~

JC looked up at A'sa as she danced around, she was five now. It had been two years since the accident. JC had called Ashe at work and asked her if she could pick up A'sa, and Dante' from his mothers. She parked the Blazer across the street like she always had, and when she went to cross the street a car came out of nowhere. Striking her and sending her sailing into the air. Tyler, JC's brother was standing in the front yard, talking to Kim  his ex wife when he saw the car come, "Ashe move he yelled," as he tried to run. Something held him back, a force slowed him down and he didn't make it to her. "It's her time," the man who was now standing next to her said to him as he prevented him from running. Tyler couldn't hear him. Kim called JC, and he rushed to the hospital, as her broken body was wheeled in. The doctors did everything, but nothing worked. "I'm sorry," the doctor told him. In an instant JC's life was shattered, "Who do I go to when I need help?, Who do I talk to about my bad dates?, Who's gonna take care of me?" he questioned himself over and over again.

He shut everyone out that night. The only two people in the world that could reach him were A'sa and Dante'. He took the time he had with them as precious moments.

"I'll be your teacher while your here, Ashe" the man said to her. She looked at him. He was so frale looking, soemthing tragic had happened to him as well. She could tell. "Call me Brandon," he spoke answering her before she even asked his name. "Brandon, why does god tease us,?" she asked as she sat down watching A'sa play with, JC and Dante'. "It seems unfair doesn't it," he he said to her. "I mean were sent here to watch them," he softly spoke while pointing to a women sitting on a bench, with what looked to be her husband. "We can touch them but they can't feel it. We can talk to them but they can't hear us" he continued, his voice sounded sad now, as he gazed at the women. "What happened to you," Ashe asked him. "It's quite trivial," he smiled. "I was in a movie, and my charactor was to be shot and die, how real that scene was! I don't remember much except laying there while they pumped endless amounts of blood into my body! 72!" he said. "72 what?" she asked him. "It's amazing the things, we remember! I remember counting 72 pints of blood," he laughed.

"I remember when that happened to you," she said twisting the Crow ring on her middle finger that JC had given her.

"Who is she," Ashe said pointing to the women on the bench. "That was my fiance' Eliza. I never said goodbye to her," he said allowing silent tears to fall, as he stuffed his hands in his pockets.

"So what about you, tell me about him" he motioned towards JC. "He was my best friend, I'd known him most of my life. We told eachother everything. I watched as he became a father, and grow up all at once" she spoke as she stood up. There was one night though, his son's mother had gone to court and tried gaining full custody. He needed comforting, and I gave him more than my shoulder," she lowered her head as she thought back to that night.

--JC sobbed into her neck as she held him, the mere thought that he would never see his son again terrified him. She cried for him, as he began softly kissing her neck. The kisses moved up to her lips, and for the first time he wasn't just her friend. Opening her mouth she let his tongue explore every crevice. She laid back on the couch as he positioned himself on top of her. Moving his kisses once more down her neck. His hands roaming over her body. Slowly unbuttoning her shirt allowing her bra to become visible, he pulled it down. Taking one of her nipples in his mouth he began to flick his tongue over it causing her to shudder in delight. He began kissing her neck again, as his hands reached her pants, unbuttoning them and pulling them down all without removing his lips from hers. She reached in front of him and unbuttoned his, pushing them down. Before entering her he looked deep into her eyes, as if looking for aproval. She pulled his face to hers and kissed him passionatly as he finally entered her. There bodies moved together like they were meant for eachother. With each thrust of his she met it, as there paces quickened they both came together. Grabbing the blanket off of the top of the couch he covered them up where they fell asleep in eachothers arms.--

"When I told him I was pregnant he was exstatic" she smiled remembering his face. "We never became more than friends. I guess we were afraid of loosing eachother" she said looking at JC.

JC stood up and picked A'sa up, as he took Dante' by the hand. Time to go see your mother he said to A'sa as he placed her in her carseat. Dante' climed into the passenger seat. While JC drove his thoughts drifted.

--"Don't oh come on," "I'll get you if you do," he laughed at her as he tackled her taking the watergun from her hand.--

~~Remember the good times that we had?, I let them slip away from us when things got bad, How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun

Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one~~

--"Ok squeeze in tighter" his mother said as she tried taking a family picture. "Um Karen if we get any closer I'm gonna need birth control" Ashe laughed, causing everyone else to as his mother snapped the picture.--

"Daddy were here," Dante' spoke bringing him out of his thoughts. Getting A'sa out of her seat he carried her to the headstone. "Give momma the flowers sweets," he said lowering her down. Crouching down to her he traced the letters on the stone. "Asheton Rose. My one true friend" he silently said as tears began to form.

"I don't wanna watch him in so much pain," Ashe said turning into Brandon. "It hurts to damn much" she cried as he held her. "We don't have a choice" he whispered into her hair. Turning her to watch as the small family walked back to the Blazer. As everyone piled in Ashe sat there looking at the CD's in the vehicle. "He still keeps my CD"s in here" she said as she flipped through them. "He hasn't changed the CD, much less removed any" Brandon replied to her.

As the car pulled into his driveway the sky darkened. Carrying an already asleep A'sa to her room he put on her pajama's and tucked her in "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my sole to keep, If I die before I wake, I pray the lord my sole to take" he prayed for her as he kneeled in front of her bed. He went to Dante's room were he and the little boy repeated the prayer and he tucked him in. Slowly making his way to his room he laid in his bed.

~~I'm so tired but I can't sleep, Standin' on the edge of something much too deep, It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word

We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard, But I will remember you, Will you remember me?~~

Tears over came him and he cried himself to sleep as he did everynight. "Don't cry JC," Ashe said as she crawled into bed with him and held him like she often had. He eased into her almost as if he knew she was there. As soon as her arms were around him she began to sing there song ~~Weep not for the memories, And I will remember you, Will you remember me?~~. He stopped crying for the first time in two years.

THE END