it's ended

i don't want to go
i want this to be my exitance
i want now for eternity
i don't need anything more than this

it'll suck everything good away
i'll be tired all damn day
don't you see?
it's not for me

i've always wanted more
more than it can offer
and just 'cause everyone else does,
dosn't mean i also must suffer

this place smells foul
it's tainted and no good
it can't give me
everything it should

and now it's midnight,
time to turn off the light.
and turn myself over
to the sad days of school.

i want just one more week -
just a few more days
of this sweet freedom
before it all fads into a haze.

it feels like something big
has just come to and end.
something wonderful and perfect,
something i need to defend

i think of just how easy it would be
to forget this and keep on driving.
pretend it doesn't exist
and go into hiding.

and it hurts to see this go
because right now, it's all i know.
six more hours 'till i wake
and it's my freedom they will take.

summer, i'll miss you.
summer, you've never wronged me.
summer, you are my only goal.
summer, please don't leave.

take me back for more poems.