Jenny Calendar was not having a good week. She's been numb to all feelings except this overwhelming guilt. Her thoughts wandered over the recent events and drifted over to the staff meeting yesterday. She had hoped against hope that Rupert would talk to her, that he would forgive her and they could be friends. She missed him so much. Jenny pulled into the parking lot and headed for the school. As she approached the faculty lounge she prayed that Rupert would be in there. She crossed her fingers for luck and went in. He wasn't there. She sighed, then she smiled. The thought that Rupert would leave his books to come to the staff room and socialize almost made her laugh. Rupert was not really a people person. Suddenly, the bell rang and Jenny realized that she had to get to class. She hurried to the classroom. When she entered she saw the auburn head of her favorite student staring at a computer screen. Jenny was surprised to see Willow. Every class since they had found out that she was actually Janna, Willow had had an excuse slip signed by Rupert. Maybe they were going to forgive her. She went over to talk to Willow.
"Hi Willow," Ms. Calendar said brightly.
"Hi," Willow responded coldly. Then again, maybe not. "How are you? How is everyone?" Jenny asked.
"We'll be fine," Willow responded. Jenny understood what that meant. It meant they weren't fine yet, but they didn't need or want her help.
"Okay Willow. Let me know if I can help," Jenny said and went back to her desk. `I hate this` Jenny thought ` the people that became my closest friends will barely speak to me. Rupert avoids me like the plague. And it's all my fault.` Jenny thought about how much heartache she had caused for Buffy, how she had alienated everyone she cared about. `Or killed` she thought, thinking of her uncle. `What can I do?` she wondered. She looked over at Willow, her favorite student who now would barely speak to her. `I've got to find a way to bring Angel back.`
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