I want you night and day
and all the time inbetween
You are my passion
life's only pleasure for me.
In your house I smell your pillow
indulge in your being, roll in your prensence
Run my fingers over your possesions
I have no longer have independence.
I want to be in your mind
no one can love you like me
Our lives and mind intertwined
in time you will see
I have my grip on you
and will never let go
God will not stop me
that everyone knows
We were meant to be
I feel it inside
No one deserves you more
That you can't deny
That is why I write this letter
to tell you I'm coming
Coming to get you
just thinking about us is mind-numbing
I shall see you soon my dear
and whatever you do
I'll find where you are
and be there waiting for you.
Is she green
because of me
Does she see
how you look at me
Is she mad
at being at a passing fad
Does she scream
because you now love me
When she broke your heart
did she see me start
Pick the pieces off the floor
when I saw more tears, many more
Is she green
because you now hold me
Does she now cry
because she knows why
The way the stars shine tonight
that way you looked that night
What am I to find?
The way the moon glows tonight
the words I try to fight
Do you know who I am?
Would you believe me
if I lied
if I said I didn't cry tonight?
Stepping to the edge
looking down the ledge
Will you lend me a hand?
Do dreams of me
fill up your sleep
like they do in mine?
Are you looking for a light
like one of the stars tonight
Can I help you find it?
Everything seems to point to you
rain never messes up your soft hair
and cuts never find your velveteen hands
I want to catch your tears
and turn them into roses
then trace them along your cheek
I have nothing to offer
in the material sense
and am not as perfect as I seem
Standing here before you
you had love in your path before me
could this be real
Visions and dreams
Nostradomus had seen
some did come true, perhaps ours could too
Just another love poem
maybe never seen
by eyes of light.
(Tupac, Marilyn, Diana, Susan and Kurt)
(Trembling,)
Why the blood and the shots
Mom's going to cry
I grew like a rose from the concrete
but I think I was stepped on
for the last time
Sexist of all
Everyone says so but me
Secret pains inside
where's the syringe(right where I left it)
Come to me dark
(Yawn)
I love you, dear
They must leave, but don't you dare
(Whimper)
Why don't they help - stop the lights
I love you boys
Always remember
I'm getting less strong
Everyday that goes by
Where is the life
(Stumble)
Did it disappear so easily
Slow down
Can't stand the lights
Won't numb the hurt
I'm still in debt to your priceless advice
You're still my spirit
(Click)
Jan. 24th, 2001
For You Sara
"Sis"
I miss you and think of you every hour
I remember you telling my that I have to live
I then saw you expire before me
I told everyone I was alright after that
I hope God is taking care of you
I can see you macing on Brandon Lee
I wish you could see me now, sis.