IT'S BEEN AWHILE

It's been awhile since I could hold my head up high
It's been awhile since I first saw you
It's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As f*cked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

It's been awhile since I could say that I wasn't addicted
It's been awhile since I could say that I loved myself as well
It's been awhile since I've gone and f*cked things up, just like I always do
But all that s*it seems to disappear when I'm with you

But everything I can't remember
As f*cked up as it may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and f*cked things up again
Why must I feel this way, just make this go away, just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile since I could look at myself straight
It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
It's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles light your face
But I can still remember just the way you taste

But everything I can't remember
F*cked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me, I know I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

It's been awhile since I could look at myself straight
It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry