After the initial shock and realization that I am a compulsive overeater, it transpired that in order to recover, I had to get honest. This was, and still is, a painful process for me, yet an essential step towards my recovery.

First, I had to admit that I wasn't in control of my life and that recovery couldn't be achieved unaided. As with most revelations, this was an uncomfortable truth to behold. I was also prompted, through honesty, to stop blaming everyone else for my unwillingness to help myself. I had to find conviction in my actions and not just emptiness in my words.

I conceded that I am not as perfect as I would like to think. I make mistakes and sometimes slip from the path of recovery, but with honesty comes acceptance that I am only human.

This disease would deceive me into thinking that I am the failure, when in fact it's my actions that have failed me. Like a magician who performs illusions for the crowd, this disease would have me think I have committed unforgivable sins.

Honesty is the key to my recovery; it unlocks the chains, which have imprisoned me for so long. It allows me to recognize my weaknesses and turn them into strengths. It turns simple existence into life, and turns inner conflicts into outward serenity.

One Day at a Time . . .
I will be honest with myself.

~ Sue G. ~

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